Title: New issue bothering me

Getting voices and not giving access or being forced to negotiate with anyone who makes me look bad causes me voices and dislike are toward me assuming is a result not by who I am what I’m doing private or publicly the turn off is that I cannot be accepted by someone pretending to be in my life trying to be a mainstay or a sign I can’t person in a role he is hurting me to get in my life why no better place is being arrived to hurt like I owe him so it’s his words focused on that get believed then I get the best criticism and hostility of any third party watching who by seeing pictures he is trying to make it seem like we are together or tries to get go ahead or acceptance through words good or bad and that makes me look bad feel unmotivated that anyone has access I don’t owe him anything what I owe my country is a proper detailed assessment of what’s real what’s thought what’s happening what fixed what’s known what’s connected what’s not connected and that’s why I’m alive not suicidal and have not hurt anyone and anyone hurting me is bc they hurt me until it doesn’t seem like what’s in their head not admitted to so their random insulting words should not affect me so long as I don’t make it important that them hurting me is the fed it for what goes right for me or others which is not to be in delusion. Things okay when they’re not okay or things not okay and be blamed like anything not okay us coming from me the pain and heaviness is real of assuming anyone’s to blame for a happening matching a pink song lysis and that doesn’t blow over as not the cause not until a conversation starts that doesn’t allow sonething to be excused as happening bc of what’s existing claim what exists makes things not exist by whatever calculations anyone prefers to go by to justify defend or prevent what’s happening not happening or the cause that’s a feeling that you encounter something you feel you think anyone is fucked over by that’s not the point of messenger to let anyone get ducked over by feelings so I I’m going through something mentally whether credited to a happening or a forced application of my life to timeline when things are good or not good everyone has an opportunity to think about life not everyone’s recordings of their life will matter sometimes not until after the benefit of being a writer is that you have in word pictures or drawings what you thought what splits if something past to something now doesn’t mean that the answer lies in what was said or drawn to excuse or make happen bad or good on the basis of anyone who thinks entitled to hold a negative opinion of you on a big scale then pretend like their litigations aren’t to sabotage you and the bury you if they see the consequences as amounting to a bad result the expect yo only affect you get rid of you in life that’s something bad that is being assumed that us connected to a decision to put me as assuming that I look bad (V1 all) gleaming nude photos are intended to insult or be shown to make a viewer a victim that’s not solution to not recognize all as victims if you recognize the vulnerability of all that’s similar to not expecting a victim or anyone innocent to be awake to watch out for anything negative happening if not to then or others make it seem like it won’t hurt to know you can’t prepare for what you don’t know or who you don’t know and for who does get hurt so a four ex application is putting together what you think by mention means a broken building a same picture by two instances — and then assume that the logic followed is a joke by another’s story a fired government agent and Oklahoma that’s the obsession and it’s the obsession of a story that when anything occurs that looks like is expected to come from someone who looks like and that’s how a person is made to look similar and that’s the lens that someone is judged by by what is known then by anything valid information similar judge as for the same reasons and a better example means that one no matter how desperate similar sounding or looking no devastation happen that’s letting a person in a different time period not be judged by anyone who studies another time period and posts on my website stuff I can’t see based on anything in my computer assume that my thinking is based on offenders. Solving an offended who is already arrests jailed ounce the news and victims they’ve harmed in a high volume is that persons life those people in that persons life and something that cannot be changed of fixed not unless that person is punished so a situation is not similar or can’t be made by assuming that I’m okay being invaded and going through all my things like that’s legal it’s not legal to do things then if not stated unwanted then try to make things about a cohorts reassurances that is not provided by injuring me that’s random people pretending to be important or entitled to view what not published then hurt me like I don’t provide in a timely fashion words or inputs that are on tone and that’s hurting my system if staying well bc any system of prosecution doesn’t work I’d make sense unless anyone is able to hold me to the standard of someone rich powerful with jobs a life and money accuse me of being misleading or not working hard or a failed system of leadership on my own merits, I don’t anyone in life to support me when I’m not doing well and I don’t need to be attacked to prove I have thought about or am not thinking about what the problem is the thinking doesn’t occur through meditation or time away it occurs begins and ends the minute you start working toward a goal of wellness how a situation not clear and prosecutorial through writing makes an insult or voice insufficient to cause me suicide self harm frustration if tantrum or look bad give up or be wrong on the basis of proving that an insult is not to credit for a good happening that’s not how boundaries are built and that’s not how good happens exist I have answers. From anyone who doesn’t see positive if I didn’t work hard to prevent any type of hostage situation. Or terrorist attack or rumor then I would not be able to be where I am and be able to talk or write do from where a third party is at not affected it’s not having you basket full is a confidence that means by your thinking you don’t feel satisfied by the wellness around you want a higher quality explanation of any difficulty with no directions Attorney or explanation provided to me then expect me to be good or better for myself only I would never message DiSantis in Florida if I did not recognize the scale or scope of assumption or hurt that could be associated by looking at things and assuming that something that occurred is a devastation connected to anything that’s not going right for me in life. You can’t blame someone to defend a happening that the news has not informed us of whether that was natural man made or occurring because of anything social or personal or foul occurring to my identity or any system of representation found real or not real good enough not supportive fake or affecting any company brand person public figure or cause which is technically connected only by what is shared which is not a support public or privately changed that makes you responsible apart of or good enough but will always be used as a basis for whether is real based on guilt or connected so that’s the part fabricated or modified to assume that anyone is stuck by any timeline and it’s bc of when I functioned or by what’s recommended that I knew of Brady and that’s how I got in contact with them for every other situation. If not mentioned outs not secret snd if it’s s situation of disbelief then it’s a situation of what I can’t talk about or whether I recognize what is being putted about me or criticized. So that’s why managing a website or Twitter becomes highly relevant time consuming snd of value it’s not talking to no one that’s not schizophrenia schizophrenia is hearing voices snd that’s not by drugs smarts stupidity hate or defamation or demons sexuality upbringing housing arrangement education experience or description past there is nothing confusing about life if you are like being it what’s confusing is why things are going well and no directions handed out to anyone in terms of what to watch out for that’s not his wellness happens … by sharing what makes you sick. That’s s preference what you need to know what you don’t need to know and what’s not anyone’s right entitled to what causes schizophrenia or insult and that diagnosis is not how insult to inform anyone that I’m delusional or creator of thinning thoughts outlook or personality or identity sms me as the cause gif attain indifference or mental illness. Which is why I ended up at court that’s me recognizing I don’t feel well not sure if I was suicidal not knowing why I was sick or throwing up or giving up in life and that’s how to stay out if trouble and improve … not by everyone knowing you or using to your day that anyone going off of you reading you or knowing you means anything is your fault. No one is assuming why I’m being attacked. And no one will admit to why I’m being attacked and on what basis. Then find someone else to explain life to you or to open up your thought or processed to not be limited to terms such as sell out or “the game” or code or dans or famous or infamous or money or billionaire or success toy define what anyone’s purpose is for declaring me trash if I get picked that means that not too many people have f-Ked me in life to make me not valuable or not feel good as a person to know in life that’s basis respect on the basis of energetic you not knowing my life assume that I’m anyone which has a life that was ever not hospitable to be around our anyone not independent not following anyone’s lead in life enthusiasm purpose or success. So go by your own book in life don’t read my book as directions for how to treat me, like I allowed anyone to read my book without permission snd allow for anyone without admission to treat like I’m supposed to write about anyone I wouldn’t write about anyone in stone for any reason so assume that anything you don’t like coming from me is not good enough then write about yourself and make yourself important fighting us a waste of time and causes mental illness and affects mg ability to write so if you can’t make anyone strong then don’t attack me like I’m not looking out fir California or Orange County or LAX Courthouse calling them the police and taking it upon myself to not allow for a community of rumors and trespassing through my writings be situation to verify blame dismantle or destroy I keep everything I back everything up I save everything so if anything’s gone it’s not because of me it’s to make a Hillary joke out if California or to scare me by what is found or studied by email or record. Intended to make me look like I’m not sound or keeping track like I’m in prevention or someone who is not American be attacked like I’m living a private life or establishing myself as a public figure to fix save amend or change any system of everyone knowing eachother okay by eachother and not knowing me or meeting me then hurting me like my identity choice livelihood education or success is bc of anything good or bad happening intended to look smart on the basis of what else comes to mind that does not hurt the mind of works mentally in terms of anyone’s analysis of how things are now or on the basis for what is built intended to represent who or why or what town updated to represent what wellness or investment public that anyone seeks to blame me for. What is there to preserve in a crisis? Who is made to not be bothered or held down to any standard that lets people get hurt by what they think they think is about or a situation similar to. So don’t think that I ever count myself out of any equation. In life that I have ever been confident about addressing or preventing it’s not by story of keepsake that you are considered a valued opinion it’s by your ability and what you have to say that makes things better in my life makes things better around me and makes things better gif anyone tertiary to a problem not burdened or left out in the cold assumed to speak the same way I do about incidences or try to help without reply that’s not fuel for investigation I’m not the government I’m not working for them or for anyone in real life outside the government becomes powerful on your own it’s no ones job to hurt me disabled mentally ill just to see how I turn out trashed online ridiculed or humiliated think I’m terns if number of people who know someone and then times that by how many words have been written then add how many reports to 911 about bullying then divide that by how many days improved jobs taken then minus that progress by stories of failure then get your result how pr securing someone by punishing them in public explain to me how that’s not a racist attempt to compare my value to a slave hanging from a tree in public and explain how that’s not offensive to #BLM let alone any other March not about me #slutwalk just to compare who you think you are in my life you’re not in charge of me yours not my boss you’re not my teammate you’re not my comrade you’re not my rock in a hard place you’re not my friend you’re not my creator you’re not the reason for improvement you’re not my only fan you’re not my solution you’re not my source of inspiration and you’re not what I need to push me or improve me or make myself better or achieve in life in spite if you’re a misrepresentative ic public opinion outside of a big news story who thinks that you know on the basis of looking around you what life’s about for me or for anyone — there are riots protests and homicides what makes it clear yo you to put a photo of me naked online to subject me to attack if you’re better off without me l knowledgeable enough to insult me declare my writing by insulting categories such as gay lesbian schizophrenia bicurious then read something else without affecting people on those hashtags who have different problems than me who don’t need to be attached or misrepresented by anyone who has never been classified by any negative terms publicly until you’re assessment February – March 2020 assuming me messaging smile is about sex success intelligence or any situation above or below your standard of living or explanation for what makes a good life … that gives no one the right to trash me on the basis of what money I don’t make what jobs I don’t have and insult me on the basis of what I look like cause me suicide. Are you satisfied!!!!! Leave me alone stop emailing me move on and don’t ever attack me for the rest of my life if I will make my blog a permanent mainstay of reminders for not attacking me insulting me like I don’t know who the F I am or what I’m doing with my life or not sure if where the G j belong or what I’m supposed to do with my life that’s not you’re job to describe me as lost then try to F with my head snd forget the basis for attacking me I don’t care what you know what you have what you’ve seen or what you’re trying to expose and I don’t have to respond to you settle with you fix you or have compassion for your upset like I have it good in life or not capable of being permanently damaged by you blasting me online as excuse for what you think is insufficient. Don’t kill me to be me or publish my work snd cause me disability bc you think you can do a better job then I don’t have to write share my blogs then figure out why I’m gone or mentally disabled find another purpose in life other than to destroy me, that’s an absurd waste of time to hurt me like I’m the person well that’s f-king anything up for anyone trying to do well in life

and who I know or by what jobs I’ve held doesn’t entitle you to demand sex of love from me then pretend like I have lived a lessor life or speak ghetto or not feminine or secretly doing anything or keeping anything secret to not get in trouble that’s where you have me wrong. Please leave me alone. It’s over. You went through what you went through because you’re not meant to be in my life that’s God telling you that the solution to your upset or regret has to do with you attacking me without knowing me … nothing lasts past fighting insult derogatory remarks and insensitivity concerning my health or family’s health do that’s not who’s on board with you in life designating me as trashy or not classy or not influential in a positive way being myself. If I’m not trying to be hot then who the F are you to illustrate commentary on the basis of what I look like then attack me like I expose you to random people. Life is full of random people so get used to it there is a high degree that’s f risk inherent in not speaking well and that’s something you will never understand what is written well and how I didn’t write a book to be important I wrote a book because I wanted to learn how to write a book it’s not because of who’s story I’ve read that I wrote a book (to compare drafts wrongfully accuse me or off speaking in a book or not making sense) to make comparison [to someone who doesn’t make sense talking about something they’ve done wrong suicide to misinterpret me as not the victim to wrongfully accuse me or being hurtful to anyone who loves me to say I was ever suicidal to cause hurt to others it’s because one is hurt that one leaves it’s not to hurt people -edit 12-30-22] that’s not how life works you meet people (1) then you go research (2) then you recognize your place (3) then you live life either publish or don’t publish snd that cannot change who gets enough just meeting you to not need you in life and that’s influence. Things going right if things going wrong — on topic or what off topic discouraged or prevented and by your observation recognize who is tolerated and who takes a step back … and that’s ho fighting versus who is commentating versus who is affected versus where it’s coming from then by who it’s happening to quiet or outspoken and then leadership is determined it’s not always a good time to be assertive and most of the time when a boundary is set that’s about dislike and that’s not my choice to be insulted like I’m some sex object encouraging random sexual relationships that’s not what talking to people is about. When it’s easy to talk that means a person doesn’t have problems when there is disinterest that means you think your better than me think my enthusiasm for life is stupid and if of something bad happens to me how does that affect you or entitle you to trash me like I’m not from my own country — betray who? My survival is not based on who’s talking to me in my life not in my life or visible to you and any modification by unwanted intrusion to me computer like a messy room causes a headache that means a different identity has touched my work that up I viewing my website or material is visibly not clear. Which is why writing mismanaged becomes strategy for tampering including describing how I was in private made to be about me being stupid looking god sex in private which is not what talking is for love or voids it’s well or not well snd not well you cannot fix me or pretend than an Eminem song is permission to situate me to have an experience in life battling mental health for no reason. It’s not about finding better it’s about learning when to stop.