Published October 30, 2022 – # of Likes = 2911

Trying to walk everyday that’s when I was best, most positive, encouraging, no paranoia, combatting voices with grace, not giving in to disability or weight gain. My life isn’t heavy it’s who’s watching is heavy and this you learn as a blogger online when there is dislike, intrusion, unwanted observation or a secreting of intel or influence by a viewing of your private spaces that seeks to warrant or allow for intrusion to either attack upon watching cause schizophrenia, support upon wellness by minimal encouragers, or hurt to test for “snapping” also known as aggravation harassment or unwanted attention (which can be using or disrespect and using for feeling good and devaluing a source of inspiration). This is why I want to work and why I was dropped as a patient with a job writing motions because there was a school shooting and a shooting at a gas station and an upcoming rapper was shot with a catchy pen name these are the motivations behind declarations against me and encourage mistreatment of me whether gay straight working or not working there is no pattern for acceptance or rejection but there is a pattern for condemnation it’s when those in support of you are powerless to stop a force toward you as hurtful to expose a condition in private or not put on public display to be featured and exhibited in front of others that’s losing your power and sense of peace while anti-semitism is trending I am not jealous or competitive I don’t want another woman’s body or a man’s body I’m happy with my body my brain and my heart and need no modifications or replacements physical or mental to stop a force toward me to pre-attack me as holding knowledge of being made fun of arrested by location told to go to to make me appear as Pewee Herman joke or aka Pervert innuendo toward me as someone who talks to buildings or places or people as though they know what others were thinking. My psychiatrist told me do you think people are going through your things, I said no, that’s a non issue as popular, do you think you can read the minds of others, that’s a non issue I know what’s from me in writing versus heard or through me as directed toward me, I’m a strong person by now. If you are not made aware it’s not that you don’t get hurt or not confrontational or should be insulted or attack bases or people in life it’s that upon others telling perceived as not knowing yet and spoken to to see what one knows the purposes for closeness are therefore to hear things or words to trigger admission or defense in others whether prying or not to test to see whether one is combative toward likeness or be treated as self harm by voices to try to wrongfully convict me as imitation or acting in competition to the wellness or intelligence of another or mistreat me as confiding or alerting or gathering a support to make confused or combative toward others people or places to cause not me to be threatened but others that’s called fighting me trying hard is to live not self harm live with voices no matter the causes technical physical by person or aggravation function in life anyways and work without torment or voices of people following me or attacking me based on what is known private try to wrongfully obtain permissions to the public in general of my private spaces phone or computer not modify my face or injure my liklihood for love or job. Smart is not going off of smart is a disconnected state of hearing within from which a good feeling can be made or communicates from you that does not bother or intimidate others upon recognizing you or you standing out be made to feel dumb or intimidated or off speak or corrected influenced by you or affected by you in a negative or positive in be way attraction is approachable, having illness within is hard to approach why it was wrong to mislabel me as carrying illness genetic within to blame me for stabbings in the Valley and Pasadena, that is why to mischaracterize me as a “bad vibe” to misdiagnose me as “homeless or schizophrenic shouts at people” to hurt my ability to adapt to my new surroundings work be around people that’s from viewing my blog, calculating the illness of homicidal or combative, then taking a smart person (me) drugging them to disablement and mistreating them as mentally ill when at peace working to wrongfully accuse of rejecting or not being down to have sex anymore when not feeling well not down means right now is important and down means that it have worked on everything to the best of my ability and there are no more ongoing concerns.