Living life is not taking risks with your life, to live life, to live again, to start over, to believe in yourself, to overcome disability, to try hard, to fail, for things to work out for you places that other things will not work out for you other places, these are things that you learn as a adult, where you belong, where you thrive, how you function best, what keeps you from reaching your goals in life, what makes you feel well.

It will be hard to do things when you don’t feel well, that’s depression and medication, either you deserve with permission to do things in life and move on in life, meet the standard of wellness expected of you, or cross territories in terms of what you sound like online, what your life was like, or where youre headed and deserve to be.

What people can’t figure out about you, will often be what they think is wrong with you, and not unless you can identify the issue for yourself, no one needs to be told what is wrong with them, when they are well, to make them feel sick or not believe in themselves. No one is perfect, no one has everything, no one looks exactly the part, no one has a perfect life, no one has perfect health, not everyone is strong. Not everyone feels good and has things in life to look good.

So work on your health, that’s number one, when life is working for you, versus people not helping you and subjecting you to the odds against you, is often times what people let go of, what they see and you don’t, and what they seek for you to see, or to feel, or get a sense of, and expect sickness in reaction.

Disability is not guilt, and Gun Violence does not mean that people will know what to do and what to say. When crime occurs people are scared, they are quiet, they don’t know what to do, and nothing is said, that’s so nothing is said that cant help a problem, or nothing is said that can help people who are having a problem in silence, and think that something is wrong, and think you are sick, depending on what you have to say or have said, or by connections cares or what youre about, people wont believe what you care about, yet they will still test you in a confrontational way, think what youre about, does not resemble what the needs are to match a company or an organization based on their needs.

When it becomes about you not meeting the needs of others, thats to blame you for what occurs, to try to illustrate that you in combination with others, attract for things poorly thought or bad to happen. There is no system for predicting how things happen by connection, application, or love, or friendship, that’s not whats wrong people knowing of eachother, or supporting people through riots, crime, and gun violence, and later school shootings.

Im not out of place to talk about it on my blog, and there is not risk to discuss the ways in which people are affected by the types of crimes that occur, and think that because you come from a crime story, your life does not illustrate what the potential is for a victim of crime to live a full life, and not be subjected to getting hurt, or be able to help others. That’s a natural belief of people who are not used to crime or the attentions that crime brings toward people, I think the mistreatment of people by age 37, is nothing I experienced in my entire life, my life was never easy or made difficult by who I am or who I knew. Only now with so much press, success, money, celebrity, and influencers, are people misjudged as not being real, or statistics not having shown proven results.

Proven results will occur in the form of the least number of people impacted outside of an incident made to feel sick, frozen, guilty or scared, and the least number of people blamed, and the least connections necessary be made between innocent people and criminal acts, that’s what should be prevented in order to involve less people in trying to solve for causes of crime, to misassociate people on the basis of what you think is wrong with them or what they attract. No ones disposition changing known to all, or everyone making fun of anyone, is a cause for crime or disability or increased intelligence of anyone looking at you, more capable of seeing or hearing anything that you cannot.

We all see and hear the same things therefore the misinterpretation of disorder will be what people think is wrong with you, and think that your mental illness is a reflection of you not feeling good by what others feel good by and that’s to overanalyze your condition, compared to others, or by where you live, or by what incident perceived crime, job, placement, or school shooting, seek to blame an advocate on the basis of an advocate being known as though people follow me know me without the stats and know where Iive or think I would be well with anyone dangerous watching me and not recognize that I get sick when things are sick towards me, and I will be sick or get voices if people think that I am sick.

I am not someone who can do nothing, I get voices that feel like youre being tortured, and when you start work and start dating again, you get voices to convince you that you are sick, so that you cant be others, and what they are trying to do is accuse you of being a certain way or having voices created in you of people who don’t like you to say that you hear people who don’t like you because in reality people don’t like you and then say that that is your fault.

I don’t think anyone who gets voices knows how that occurs, and its not me listening or paying attention to anyone, I ignore everyone, I don’t recognize anyone, I don’t remember anyones faces or names. Im not someone who is paying attention in life, worried what other people know or judging anyone based on what they look like. I was not taught to know what is scary or who is bad, or how you get sick, or what causes stupid, or how to identify whats wrong with people. That’s not how I was raised, and I don’t think that mental health issues trending now, should allow for people to be looked at like something is wrong with them, or broadcast that everyone is the same that’s not true, people have never experienced mental illness, don’t take meds, work and don’t have any legal problems, failures, they don’t fail financially. They have lives and kids and were married, therefore my problems are nothing like a person who has lived life, therefore my comforts in life will not be the same as someone who has everything will not understand who I am if I don’t have the same things in life, think Im sick, and its wrong to treat people who are sick as jealous.

Who is jealous is that I had a healthy relationship with Todd, that was mutually beneficial and mature, and that I didn’t have problems and a positive outlook in life, until there were shootings and a school shooting when I was doing well and with a paid job, so what can explain for the unhappiness in people who commit violent acts, I can’t solve what is wrong with people who decide to use guns to hurt people. Why would I know anything about what that brain or life or mentality looks like, of a person who is mentally ill and has access to guns, in what way should my 36 years of life, reflect what is going on in a child or another human being who hasn’t been through half as much as me, has not tried half as much as me. Therefore we are not the same and whatever is wrong with them, reflects nothing that is wrong with me, whatever by whatever code, by whatever you think is shocking or stands out, that’s not what changes people or causes people to be mentally ill so stop using people as an excuse for punishments and mental illness, to solve a non-existent problem, then expect that someone who you tell is schizophrenic is supposed to react and solve what is wrong with someone who commits Gun Violence, is not schizophrenic, is not disabled, and has not failed in life, and no defamation or OJ story, or rescission of care communicates anything about me that is a custom or a preferred treatment deserved of me. I have not failed, let anyone down, or embarrassed anyone.

I have not wasted a day of my life, or wasted the time or resources of others, I was never not worth helping or someone who turned out to be someone who they are not presented to be. Im not someone who is bad, or who thinks bad, or who gets in fights or doesn’t get along with people, voices are trying to convince you of a life you don’t have so you don’t have a life, bullying is about people who are jealous of you, who think you have it better than them, who expect you to explain things to them, are people who think they have permission to not respect you, they are people who think they can get away with being mean to you, and they are people who convince you that you are mentally ill, that’s my experience with voices.