I’m tired of every day that I get voices (sometimes depending on the level of stress existing on issues personal or elsewhere) and the harm that is causes me mentally (whether my personal issues are cured ongoing in remission triggered should have nothing to do with who I support at all). -Be human.

Im tired of every day thereafter that my head is in pain or my body is in pain (from being misunderstood or teamed up against on the basis of his stressful and complicated my life is or became for no reason I deserved) and it’s frustrating that when I write well, for me to get voices, and that much you can’t prove in life. -It’s not my idea of a good time being isolated by voices being alone in life it’s been 7 years (2017) I’ve been tolerant that’s not the solution, going to MIT will give me peace of mind and the privacy that I deserve in life.

I’m tired of apologizing for my mental health issues having a diaganosis of schizophrenia, that doesn’t seem to make things better. I’ve done my best to say what’s needed if it’s not being said it’s not needed and no condition worse requires an apology if there are no symptoms displayed of any mental illness.

Wellness – Today is a good day I’m doing this and this is a good idea for you guys too.

Mental Illness – I’m hearing voices I’m not this this or that is not an admission there is no prouder state of mind I can achieve in life other than being smart feeling good and not getting voices that’s my dream no voices no torment and no bullying. That’s my life plan.

I’m tired of people viewing an apology as though I have knowingly done something wrong, and I’m tired of being treated like I have done anyone wrong, I have not.

I’m tired of struggling on a daily basis, in pain, and I’m tired of things being too much. I’m tired of the stress, and the aggravation associated with being watched or read in the negative. -I don’t deserve conditions of self harm I’m doing my best no other woman is made to go to law school 3 times lose everything to prove anything about OJ. That’s an unreasonable amount of pressure used.

I’m tired of there being news or other famous anecdotes in life, people think should be applied to me. I don’t think that shouting is unreasonable, my feelings are real, my problems in life are real, and that is nothing that anyone should be made to care about or feel frustrated too. -& I’m not offended either but when taken the wrong way that creates for a misunderstanding hostile toward me.

Everyone is angry that there are mass shootings, and I feel the same way. I am doing everything in my power to speak well and to overcome set back, and that doesn’t make anything that Im saying or doing my fault.

I am not causing anyone to think or feel anything that is wrong, if its happening to me, its not happening to anyone. If its happening to me its by what people think and that is nothing that I can control. -Racism is stupid.

While my words may not be real to you, my pain and my suffering is real, and no that is not my fault. I am allowed to talk to whoever I am comfortable talking to. I come from an important case, that doesn’t make what I think or what Im exposed to anyones business, nor what I look like or sound like talking to someone I have grown to love and respect, and no I don’t deserve to be put in pain, hacked, or sabotaged for any reason, concerning who I choose to talk to and who I trust, if I don’t trust and want to open up to anyone I don’t have to male or female, if Im doing well then I have a right to stay well.

I got to therapy 1x a week I think “core issues” are my right to privacy and my HIPAA to make any code issue about any other human being subjects me to harm being teamed up against my life story is not for dissection ridicule.

If there is a problem toward me, that is nothing that I can solve, and that also does not mean that anyone has the right to sue me, provoke me, or make fun of me, and that doesn’t mean that I have to right to sue anyone for any reason, I think the purpose of blogging is to be accessible to all people, and it’s not become important for me to have to pretend to be anything that Im not, that’s not what Im about, if Im liked its because of how I look and sound just like everyone else. Im tired of having a diagnosis that makes people experimental with me, hurt my feelings, and make things about them. -Being used.

Voices is a condition that’s hard to treat. If it cannot be cured that’s the only frustrating part of disability. However voices have been scientifically proven to occur by my understanding will be by my words writing (stops voices) not writing or disability (head pain) causes voices and to talk about reasons for voices (justifications for voices) hurt me and that’s what causes self harm. So it’s not that 1 person is more than 1 person it’s 1 person is themselves and voices are those who seek to justify their anger toward you be excused. The threat is if one gets unwanted attention wrongfully accused of being bullied treating voices as existing in real life and hurting my head based non existent threat posed toward me assumes to be carried over to another human being is the cause for mental illness as to me to treat me as though I have unrecognized condition or immunity I don’t. Everyone can be hurt by mean voices. Voices is about what side is cured based on a system of curing a side doesn’t include you.