When you have friends you never worry about not having friends. Getting diagnosed with schizophrenia was one of the most painful time periods in my life in recovery and took the longest to get going and back up to speed. It also caused me unreasonable amount of difficulty mentally accepting voices as symptom and being accused of being inappropriate or offensive sounding and disorganized. When you do your best and that’s what it’s called and disability interferes with living life normally cardio writing and job applications you wonder if that disability is permanent and it can be very depressing adjusting to different meds not to mention lack of control over what others think seems to isolate you more having difficult time talking about mentioning a new diagnosis or explaining to others what it means to you and how hurtful voices can become that’s been my honest recent experience with what would if anything cause me suicide and I was the one who accomplished the most good in spite of it. Sometimes telling your story with voices makes others respect you less and so does self harm and suicide people think it’s selfish or all about giving up what it comes down to is when others give up on you and you’re not needed and if the world is being hard on you for who you are and what you have to say figure out what’s your fault and not allow yourself to be treated in life like things are your fault and should know why or be punished as though as you functioning and doing well in life interferes with anyone else’s functioning and success in life it doesn’t.