I had a rough start to PHP, and trouble getting settled but this week plan to go everyday. I did great off adderrall but for some reason back on the med got disorganized managing my time on the treadmill and just have to be careful I don’t take extra, on that day went back to my old prescription 60 mg, which lasted a day and then got switched to Vyvanse which is what I’m currently taking.

With blogging before the hospital I used to get worked up talking about all the fears I had to deal with as a blogger and troubles I faced needing to report or ask questions and I’m in a much better place now but talking about it seems just as hectic as it was to get going again on the blog and make sure there are no risks.

Sometimes helping others can’t happen not unless you run ideas past others, you can’t do everything on your own. So sometimes I get lost simply talking about life and I’m sure I’m unique in how many letters I write to courts and the kinds of things I have questions on. I hope to find more stability moving forward.

I had a rough week last week fell into major depression and just wanted to stay home and do the treadmill and this week forcing myself to go back to group therapy and not get lost in depression or writing or blogging about previously traumatizing times and events I experienced and went through I’m sure I’m not the only one. Even just now re-reading what I wrote can tell I was having a bad day and wasn’t feeling well. I’m still not completely back to normal haven’t felt like writing and been quiet.

#personalupdate

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