I’m sure there is hardship I am being challenged by that no one can help me with, or am some place worse off compared to a different life lived off meds, and I’ve been made aware that I was not credited for the 7 months of hard work off meds, expected to relive the past 7 months, as though I am anywhere making mistakes in life, or not deserving of living life or be valued for my effort socially however difficult, I’m sure its become something that’s wrong with me, why I don’t have friends, can’t make friends, am rejected, the odd man out or difficulty I’m sent to rehab for, I think I made every effort to attend treatment for the same amount of time if not more than anyone, without awareness of where anyone is, or who has met whom, accuse me of not being cool with anyone flirting to anyone you thought I liked, or sat next me, later judge me as anyone reading into anything, its not my difficulty but something I’m judged for not a quality about life I’m being in anyway to claim that anyone else is being improper or communicating to anyone you are accusing me of liking or being territorial, so that is what made me uncool, for not attending enough PHP at Clear making every effort to attend, use meds, or being taken off meds, to decide if a higher level of care is needed. The pattern is being helped, the reality of not being well as explained to anyone who is treating me, is something I’m sure I’m punished for but doesn’t explain what’s wrong with me and why, accuse me of not doing well based on people, I did my best to be everywhere. So the fun part about live is solving problems, and appreciating those who are performing creating value and being people of importance to be appreciated not accuse me of being well off others mistake my issues based on voices diagnosis or liking by messenger, what’s confusing is why am I not fit in shape and have a beautiful face in pictures what is changing about me that tells anyone what’s wrong with me and why, no there is no known treatment of what a guilty person should look like, or how caused, or what jail is supposed to do to you permanently, instead of questioning my truths or story accuse my recollection of life as being anywhere difficult accuse me of mentally being anywhere else in life immune from punishment, Its clear punishment breaks you, and when in public, automatically creates for bullying, being unwelcome, or not allowed to applied, so that is the innocence of success and effort and punishment in that order, I never complained about who to like or not like as though anyone is motivated driven to be successful for reasons having to do with me or accuse me of hurting people or living life as a joke knowing others, limited to studying not researching any famous people or watching movies or collecting music, life changes when you get judged as not able to value life or accuse me of not seeing people as innocent accuse me of being hurtful or unhelpful inappropriate make fun of every conversation, it’s clear that no interaction makes sense and there are no court documents or writing that Im trying to challenge or visit to house explain or cause a scene as though my difficulties aren’t dealt with normally, I’m not weird, I feel hurt by weirdness, I feel challenged by recognizing weirdness or insult whoever they are and whatever agency they come from, I was honest in regards to the news or me visiting and meeting a politician punished for meeting someone in person, and accused of having some known capability or record or criminal past jail on public record, that you decide to punish me for not explaining 2017 which is not expunged and on my permanent record online. So I am not justifying recovery time as some easy solution I should know or hardship I’ve experienced accuse me of being in foreign territory sick or accuse me of being without solution or should know what to do following rules or suffering, I am doing my best to not talk to anyone, and I’m sorry I was not credited for the past 7 months, if that’s not viewed as rigorous enough, then please excuse the hesitancy in how to talk about life without affecting anyone, without calling 911, without drinking, or accuse me of using prescription meds not in the solution, and please accept my very best open effort to demonstrate how help can occur in public with awareness that all my interpretations were used to discredit me as providing solution, question my health or success of anyone, continue to punish me or any interaction as though I am cool by things famous people are privileged to love respect and jobs, not now suddenly accuse my voice as hurtful or recorded efforts to sing something not worthy of acceptances in life, or not good enough, what’s not good enough according to Ellen Degeneres blocked while talking to a DA and using an @ to send a public comment to her, and later blocked by her, was that persons solution and that person’s choice in life, I think highlighting my google photos is not accuse me of entertaining or living life to tell a story or made up hardship not an accurate recording of what I look like upon having the time to take selfie, I’m sure I don’t look good in photos anymore, for some reason that made me unacceptable or punished, I think I did my best to address that I’m not trying to be cool or use an issue on me that’s hard to comprehend in connection to me, and to pray for forgiveness for a red backpack, would be to do my best to demonstrates what’s prevention communicating in public doing nothing in private for the rest of my life, lose credibility for deleting Instagram conversations and being locked out from talking to others, is unlike me to delete for any reason and I’m sure if I work hard to be accepted on messenger, and punished, and delete a conversation I was clearly affected losing a space of accurate illustration of what I did to be accepted, maybe not loved, but be approved by a DA, who when sick used my car or the LAPD note please do not tow this car, and One Medical and being near the location of a loss suffered by UTA Marty Bauer, suddenly accuse me of being odd standing out frantic or taken off meds, not an emergency, and accuse me of facing a challenge driving on the freeway a long distance and crying, not a brave attempt at taking charge of the issue a shooting on the freeway, not make fun of my car being white and the shooters car being looked for being white, accuse me of being challenged by a DA you are accusing me of talking to, or being at fault, scared or sick, or look bad because of what he has decided to highlight is needed to be captured to solve a freeway shooting. You continue to punish me for reporting stuff that stands out to me, and accuse of me of being communicated to or some kind of fake agent that isn’t careful respectful, I assure you that no communication to any public official or celebrity is easy to do or some place at home or easier or in a place able or unable question what’s been said to whom or what photos judged for or blocked. I have accepted in many ways not being good enough and for my issues to be honestly, acceptance, being proud of me, looking presentable, being loved, having a job, not be suffering punished mentally ill, I’m aware that my life in the past if ever difficult should never be so difficult that I self harm or discontinue communicating to any body of people trusted appropriate to share my writing to, and question my solution, or a known  solution occurring upon emailing this body of individuals. So what’s unclear is whether Joaquin Phoenix said a line “there’s something special about you” to compare what a prison interviewer said to me after disclosing hospitalized, accuse him of making a billion dollars on what’s wrong with me or accuse me of saying anything offensive in response to any loss, as the insult challenged empowering someone of value to a level of success earned by their own doing, it’s clear once the beauty of my story is lost, instead of crediting me for making the effort and being honest brief, please don’t accuse me as the person who has done wrong or said anything wrong, make fun of me calling 911 infrequently to say I am doing something that I don’t recognize is heartbreaking or suffering accuse me of being imitation of people successful the known line or statement to justify success, accuse me of being the motivation or threat or line, challenge me to be disliked, bullied, or given a hard time, not allowed to contact anyone, be important on my own, credit me for remembering everything I’ve said, instead of accuse me of rambling speaking wrong or weird like that’s normal, Im made fun of for all fears, and visual delusion, conversation to Larry Flynt helpful, using support or acceptance for me reassurance that I would be airight, accuse my interactions as important or insincere, to accuse me of being sick, or upsetting #toddspitzer upon Taylor Swift becoming successful, accuse someone who gets its as something that I should be punished for accuse me of misinterpreting compliment or my argument “not make a big deal of” accuse me of making a big deal about a diagnosis, and then accuse me of being called something that hurts me, as though Im supposed to suddenly be normal accept or become normal again, like I made my life worse imagined a difficulty with the diagnosis, please stop punishing me for being confrontational or hurt by previous websites defining schizophrenia. The damage has been done. I have to accept the problem has been solved, in previous treatment, the diagnosis has been made, the treatment was underwent, the interactions did occur, not being allowed to interact with people, is the constant thing Im made fun of for, not getting to experience life and be cool. So not only did Taylor Swift do her best to not publicize a shocking description of my modeling efforts or harp on the type of nude website and hurtful terms punished for, did her best to represent what was good about that experience, so while you don’t credit me for illustrating her challenge in life and demonstration of perfection intelligence, use states Texas or California or accuse me of suing anyone trying to punish anyone I did my best to not let myself be screamed at, that’s a difficulty I didn’t just block or say “he’s an a$$hole” criticize my therapists use of a sticker of Justice Ginsberg on her computer, suddenly accuse me of being a weirdo, I think at some point in life you live life then you have to prove your worth whether apart of and that’s a lesson Im clear on you learn upon complaining how treatment time is not valued, credited for. I think what isn’t clear is what should a nude website, or taking down a nude website, having positive interactions with my Dad special, and still getting mean upset texts from an ex pen pal, something wrong that Im not affected by challenged by, I think I do a good job of treating all people as important, so Im sorry that music was misinterpreted as me not being apart of a swiftie or contacting and known by Taylor Swift a person who touched her life or hurt her, accuse me of having bad reaction or mumbles as though I am pretending like anything is about me in the positive, not recognize that my compliment is being used to punish me, as though I make a bid deal, when I didn’t took years to deal with anger toward me and humiliation, never had the energy or know how to suddenly be right or for anyone to suddenly be wrong or not helpful, instead of valuing my honesty I would prefer it if my life were not made difficult insult be something Im not doing making a big deal of nothing, accuse me of being an underserved glossed over subject not preventable or liable for a mass shooting in Texas.

I think being alone is the solution, everyone did their best to help me, its important that I prove prevention by explaining how I helped what worked, and specifically address losses without any communications to anyone and without the perceived support of messenger or DA question my timing or facing delay you are accusing me of having a problem in relationship to anyone elses story in life who made it, while make me look bad on the basis of music and CD’s accuse me of being the weirdo or a bad interaction public inappropriate. I am sorry that it was not believed that I worked hard or was dedicated to helped accuse me of using the word prevention loosely as though I would be alive or not punished based on what has occurred in life accuse me of failing to witness and learn about life in a professional way, harp on my losses, or instability, for everything that you didn’t believe means I have to prove again, and also not talk to anyone privately and not have a DA pen pal, and discontinue contact to anyone famous, what’s too late is for the period in time when I was of value made a honest effort, to now being accused of having a bad life that affects others or brings others down of risk of harm to the elderly, I think I have experienced enough life to be confident that the solution is to address losses specifically as it relates to when I was punished, and continue to think of all the ways I was ever known, in a room, featured, or condition, night stayed up, or accused of relapse or being drunk not in the solution wreckless or undeserving of being known by anyone famous, continue to punish me for my life and a nude hate website, relating it to what happened to me and wonder why a controversial baseball field performance was shockingly wrong, sometimes its not clear what life is about or memorialization with intent to harm me or be something I should take personally observe and think is about me by campaign concept once outlined, whatever is too late is however life was expressed intended to help anyone interested in finding meaning in life, besides difficulty accepting, my issue, broadcasting humiliation, a grave harm I suffered as someone popular, improving for a positive ending, not accept in what way I cared or made an effort to contact these people specifically in complication very serious to everyone, accuse me of being the unforgivebale controversy, or make fun of my dancing or dance move video removed, accuse me of not being the solution or something that makes others, I think to show you can help prove use of the word prevention is not to criticize all my medical issues as some known lived experience or difficulty I should arrive to question how I stay alive, accuse me of creating a position of difficulty in life use these extreme issues not clearly discussed online, punish me for drinking which demonstrates I dont care or taking extra meds and staying up, is not how to solve the loss of Lisa Marie Presley, or accuse me of missing issues, or highlight that I was being sued challenged in life mentally, and still made an effort to help and not let movie actors up for awards be punished in public bullied. Saying if you cared get the award, once he starting getting negative press. So if that was my exclaimed solution for who cared, that is who was helped, Im sure I still have to prove how I have tried to help and not be suddenly mischaracterized as going through difficulty not helping or being the problem cause for medical difficulty to women or men, famous, in public, about everyone, or seemingly about something wrong that cant be changed about me, if you question whether I care, accept being alone and making every effort to invest my energy on what I believe to be prevention based on positive reasons, unknown to me, good decisions made, and allow me to be on my own not punish me as “giving up” or “complaining” “making a big deal of something not a big deal I cant accept or sickness incurred in some other life by meds accuse me of leaving or losing my life as though my wellness or value is a joke question my appreciation for life my life love, and do my best to not be punished for choosing to be alone and not be punished for my losses whatever solution that provides is none of my business, what I should focus on is how continued discussion of event and crimes devasting to everyone, is a big deal not evidencing ability or what is wrong not managed effectively, Im sure my life is being made to stop in difficulty with no one allowed to help me, accuse me of being big or having ability that explains another human being, associate issues by accusing me of being underground seen naked, and accuse me of not doing my best to live with it, why punish me as someone who was able to love, was seen naked, made to look bad punished in public, about a difficulty I should to experience in public Im not equipped to address life or this new life explain why, Im sure the punishment of me and disability is accuse me of being a woman who is offensive to be seen not worth loving, a person who angers men or tries to be love and causes issues I should suffer by to make me like who you are accusing me of hurting, while accusing me of pretending to suffer be humiliated careful as to different age groups, not disappoint, stop confirming, not confirming support, accuse me of pretending to not know Im not famous, or the person unattractive who is not white cant defeat a mass shooter, claim I am reading a magazine about white supremacists makes me dark or dangerous learning about people, Im accused of being hated by on the basis of race justify labeling me incapable for preventing a mass shooting, based on rejections now or changing me making fun of all my reactions, so while I may not be a big deal or threat or have problems anyone has the time to deal with, let me do my best to outline in what way these losses need to or should be now addressed through me online, until its clear how these losses are even attempted to be addressed, I think more losses shows that a problem is occurring that is too late solve, so I can accept its too late to see me as smart or pretty thats how I look I cant change people being better than be and why or what makes me people smart and why I have disability, so a harder life means to focus on myself and do my best to follow new rules, and working on myself through writing and revisitting use of the word prevention is to discuss how any loss was specifically addressed through me, and for there to still be solution in not allowing losses serious to be viewed as a difficulty we face they suffered, I think thats the lost solution in comprehending loss of life, is whats too late, judging me as being too late, and viewing my discussion of losses clarification as unhelpful, so while Im too late to fix my own life and problems Im allowed to believe that there is a solution for these losses in a way that can be communicated prevented in the future, instead of allowing me to be well, accuse me of off meds losing abilities in life, Im sure the challenge in delay or difficulty is to accuse me of being too late, and accusing me of being hurtful or make a joke of my resume or issues presented on me however created, accuse me as being a human being unwanted a person that causes anyone to give up or relapse, and let any one story be used to justify highly talented celebrities with extremely famous names passing away, was never discussed or complained of any way in which I was punished as insensitive to any loss, accuse me of not being someone in life able to comprehend a difficulty you are accusing me of presenting some irrecoverable description of life accuse me of once being hard on anyone by any writing or demonstration or later reciting a connection of value, suddenly use my medical health or the word suicide, and failure to accuse me of not being famous, not earning an audience, not addressing losses in a way to prevent losses, and accusing me of should know the cause for a loss or hurt and claim that Im the hurt or cause for loss not worth it or offensive.