A shocking difficulty you can’t always explain and won’t be easy to overcome, is in the event you get sick, or judged for explaining why. I think recovering from mental health issues, does make you an advocate if you are able to be in a better place in life, I think questioning your sanity and mental health is something that one who is misdiagnosed will permanently be subjected to made to feel bad, look bad, be insulted, and have their feelings hurt.

So accept my disposition in life, I may not be perfect and work hard, but I never expected that after having been through so much, to be given a hard time in regards to my condition as recovered and working. The fight doesn’t end upon wellness, is the lesson, when things are political and when associations are known, life is about proving your worth, it’s not about being places and being watched or misunderstood as disabled, I think as many times as you take me off meds, and watch me in public not being social, and forgetful of all the social conversations I had, it’s no longer about who I am when I’m getting voices.

I think voices is a way of wrongfully accusing you of being known or letting down others in life, life is a team sport, but not to the extent that you are expected to perform and be liked or allow others to pick and choose your importance in life. Trust that I’m not alive and who I am to be famous or make tons of money, and deserve to be paid, my image is important to me.

As someone who lived life and who has been through a lot, accept that yes mental health is shocking and difficult and hard to understand and get that life is easier for some people than others, when compared to me, so appreciate the value of people trying to help me, and instead of judging me for the periods in which I was given meds and helped, I would prefer to not continue to make an issue of “voices” accuse me of soliciting for negative attentions, or living a life that’s offensive to others.

I think when life stops being safe, it’s a confusing period in time, such as right now, when so much is going on, and when mass shootings, and crime is occurring in my neighborhood, understand that it’s scary and not solvable a quick fix by calling me insulting terms, or comparing me to criminals or violent offenders, that’s where you have me wrong.

I’m allowed to read books and be helped. I have written so much sound advice online, I’m allowed to not know how to get well not know what is wrong and be hurt and not know why and give me time to figure that out, instead of judging me as sick or confusing.

Writing online is about making sense and helping others compartmentalize their lives, speaking from my own life, and manage setbacks due to voices. Accept that if you confuse my writing or wrongfully accuse me of not making sense, or being confusing, or mistake me for mental illness, then I have to back off, and figure out who’s against me and why and what am I being punished for, then it becomes necessary to publish a book and be known, instead of being treated as delusional, or punished for not earning an income and being an official author.

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