Now’s a time when you put your fights aside, in place of caring for everyone else. Now is not a good time to fight, to argue, to complain, to be upset, this is a good time to focus on the road ahead, and who we are sharing this road with. It’s easy to cast blame when things aren’t working out, wondering what could have been said better, and who should or should not be hurt, in the long run these are things we can all overcome, but it takes a willingness on all sides, to figure out whats most important to you, and really reconsider what fights are worth fighting, and at what point do you stop yourself and say, you know what Im not going to engage in these arguments, even if my feelings are hurt, there is nothing that I can do about it, and recognize that fighting is not the solution. When there are mass shootings, we all feel hurt, we all feel scared, we all feel helpless, whether you have a blog or don’t, a top blogger, famous, not not famous, these are all problems that we all feel helpless to. So what to do about feeling helpless, this is a time to empower ourselves, it’s a time for forgiveness, it’s a time for regrouping, and it’s a time to think of the road ahead, what do we now want to happen, and start visualizing a reality that we can all live in with courage and faith, and not fall victim to crime and its aftermath, which leave most feeling powerless, including me. -I know that I went to the ER a few days ago and wasn’t feeling well, that doesn’t mean that Im giving up on myself, it means that Im getting help, and sometimes getting help is the first step in the right direction toward making things better, under any amount of threat, this is me saying Im not going to give up, Im going to recover, I am going to get strong, and I am going to continue to be there for others. This is me saying Im not going to let mental health issues win, Im not going to let mental illness voices, or any other circumstance bring me down in life, and Im going to prevail, and when I prevail that means all will prevail. When I let go of needing to be in control of what others think of me and allow people to think whatever they want, that’s not letting hate or disgust or any other unwanted feeling from hurting my heart or bringing me down in life including others. You have to be a strong person to be there for others, you can’t allow yourself to get bent out of shape, flip out, get angry, and that’s what I learned after all is said and done, although people may not recognize my feelings to be hurt or feel threatened by anti-semitism there is nothing that I can do, including being half Asian, you would think that I should be the least affected by these traumas, but Im not. So Im here to stay, Im willing to continue to be there for others intelligently, creatively, and help to brainstorm what are ways in which people can feel equally empowered to get well, stay well, and not engage in any fighting for any reason, over any religion, or any race, that’s not the solution, its 2023, its time to be thankful for where we are, how far we have come, and be thankful that there has been so much acceptance and success, and that now is not the time when any race or religion should feel threatened by one another, that’s not the solution. It upsets me, to have mental health issues, its clear that when Im not well, it sounds like I feel like people are against me, and start setting boundaries, and take breaks, and although Im doing a whole lot to protect myself, that also doesn’t seem to be the solution when it comes to protecting others from harm, so that’s that part of me that I have to be willing to give up, what I look like, what I sound like, and what people think of me, if voices are a response to your output, then that is something that I will simply have to get used to, what are the responses to me output, and what are the kinds of things that society is suffering from when I take a break from blogging, it lets me know that not only am I sensitive, but the ecosystem is sensitive, in that everyone wants to feel good by the same things in life, and when people are made to not feel good and be excluded this is the end result, of people participating less, or taking a step back from things, we should feel ready and willing to participate, not held back by things in life. All the fighting causes you to feel withheld, held back in life, so that’s the lesson in fighting, the more fighting there is, the harder it is to participate and engage, and the more time you spend away from work the more pressure and the harder it is to get started and get going again, so that’s the lesson, after a break from blogging. I think everyone is doing their best, it would be great if we were strong and everyone felt stronger by each other again, and maybe it will take time until that happens again.

Written: 09/27/23.