I wouldn’t have said F Anti-Semitism, if I didn’t believe that it were possible to end hate, and Im sure that any dislike or disfavor of me, doesn’t help the fight against anti-semitism. I think being a member of Brady, makes you a caring person, but there is so much else about life and yourself, that remains separate to any campaign that includes you, in the end what you become vulnerable to in life, so do others, so that’s the lesson in providing support, not unless you have a strategy for combatting hate toward Jews, should one so confidently express “disregard” or “unenthusiasm” for “anti-semitism.” So Im sorry that I said F Anti-Semitism so confidently, maybe it was because as a blogger, I have been accepted by others, without it having been as issue, who I am or what my genetics are, it seems only until diagnosis, does it become an issue of whats coming from you, or what others have, and who you are, still shouldn’t be relevant, on the basis of humanity, by which we are around all kinds of people, and each one is themselves, with respect for who each other is, and never has anyone taught us in American History, that you are who is around you, or that anyone else other than you is you, because of who you are. There will be reminders in life, that will make you feel bad about yourself, mostly intimidation and hate is used to attack your credibility, your confidence, and hurt your esteem, and your feelings, its to make you not feel good about yourself, and to make fun of you as though you are someone else other than you are or make fun of you as though you are trying to be someone else, and seeing you as beneathe others. I don’t think Im missing the point, when Ive overheard that there are people suffering in Armenia faced with another Genocide, which means who I represent is not in competition with anyone who represents a struggle existing that I would not endure or be made to undergo additional struggles in life to subject anyone else who is already struggling, to be exposed to anything difficult that Im going through in life. Therefore on the subject of anti-semitism, shouting at Mel Gibson with humor and posting a photo of myself, is making light of the costume that I bought without thinking of him, and having already overcome whatever setbacks or intimidation faced when Kanye West came out as anti-semetic, I have already bought his CD, listened to his music, ran to his song, supported him dating Kim Kardashian, and have done my best to not make a big deal about someone else’s feelings, without automatically feeling hurt and thinking he is intending to insult me as a popular blogger, who was rasised Jewish, I couldn’t think of any other trending Jew right now who was doing well in writing other than me. My first inclination when someone is angry at you is to figure out why, so I figured it was because I messaged Kim Kardashian, I think that as a blogger it is a good idea to connect or update and addresss introduce self to who is the famous representatives of The Simpson Trial because of her Father, and I think that was a normal thing to do, to reach out, write or update others. If that was the influence that Kanye West was threatened by, then discontinuing to message everyone and anyone, was to eliminate the assumption, that Im connecting thinking that makes people stronger or respond to everyone better knowing me, so that is why I was insulted to let me know that Im not liked, so to not talk to others, knowing that Im not liked, to let me know that I cant help others, or that I should be made to feel so uncomfortable that that should let me know not to message others, and make them uncomfortable. So not shouting at Mel Gibson doesn’t mean that I would have otherwise shouted at Kanye West, he is going through enough, and doing his best to move on, and has suffered the consequences of his remarks, and whether or not it had anything to do with me, I know that talking about what he’s going through cant be made better with me mentioning what he went through isn’t going to make what he went through appear any better, and wont make me feel any better, if I was the intended target of that commentary and expression of hate toward Jews, that just lets me know that people who are famous are capable of convincing everyone to think something about a group of people, and as a result of people knowing who you are, can be made stronger by Kanye West in response to me direct their hate toward me, and see me as nobody or someone pathetic, and that’s how disrespect occurs in the furtherance of a rhetoric of hate directed toward Jews in general, with close observance of me with expectation of a response to Kanye West, they expect to be uncomfortable as though the insult was intended to address that I should not message someone, so hurting me and making me look stupid in front of everyone, was to make fun of me for messaging anyone, and thinking that I think Im someone special or think that Im bigger or important because of who I have messaged, so that’s how you get hurt talking to people who are famous, you get made fun of as being someone who thinks they are smart or important, because they have messaged people without replies, and mistreat you as though you are not famous trying to be famous, or injure you like you are trying to be important by writing a blog, and accuse you of not being important or thinking your blog is doing better than the stats say you are doing, ultimately, people don’t believe your stats, and if people haven’t read your blog, then that’s something about yourself you can correct without needing a blog, how you appear in real life, that’s not something that anyone can change about you through tech, or connecting, or disconnecting, diagnosis, or commentary. Ultimately, how you get hurt in life, is about what you can handle and professionally respond to not make things worse for those you have messaged, and also not be attacked as though Mel Gibson is Kanye West, and be accused of being combative toward those who are anti-semetic. I think anti-semitism is whatever you believe it to be, that obviously I am not strong enough to convince you otherwise of what to believe, if based on history and religion and facts about life, and characters in history, then that much cannot be changed about how life has happened or what has happened in life, to cause one to believe that life is this way because of these people, or life has changed or is not the same because of these people, ultimately how you want to see life, and how you want life to be, will be based on who is given lives to live and allowed to be around people, speak to others, and allow those influences in life to occur, otherwise, when threatened by influences in life, such as “anti-semitism” is saying you don’t want anything about yourself to have anything to do with anyone who is Jewish or is like me, and that’s saying that anyone who is like me or has anything to do with me, accuse me of influencing or changing the life of another, you are arguing exists better or would have existed better, having not known me, so that’s hurting me based on whatever diagnosis Ive been given, to further justify isolation, on the basis that an anti-semetic argument is about keeping people separate who you do not wish to have qualities of or be influenced by, is to say that humanity is stronger or exists better without having known me, to say that there is no reason for me to write, to accuse me of thinking that I think things are because of me, then say that things should not be because of me, because of anti-semitism and convince other people that things are the way they are whether or not I am alive or have existed, and to accuse me of being alive, or trying to create an existence of myself, that competes with what is existing already, I don’t think that anyone who is well or who does not respect me, needs me, or reads my blog, I think if people are doing well in life, they don’t have to read my blog, or worry about how Im doing, or what Im recognizing or realizing as a person. Eventually the argument was made, it was hurtful, and that doesn’t mean that I am required to share my journey in life, or what my past 10-20 years have looked like, shouldn’t matter to anyone, so long as I am here now, and doing well, it doesn’t matter how long it took for me to create a career for myself, or how long it will take to start a new career, all that matters is that no one is being credited for existing to make things happen right or wrong in life for others, that a power vested in each person, to have things work out for them in life, to think positive, to have well thoughts about others, and to be proud of one another, all that anti-semitism means, is that based on how things are now, there are a select few with a preference for life to not include any referencing to Jews including me, which means if there is anti-semitism, then please don’t reference me, don’t imitate me, and please don’t make fun of my battle against anti-semitism and making a strong effort to say F anti-semitism, and if that’s what you believe, and if that’s what you think is “schizophrenia” or “offensive” then that’s what you believe, and its not my job to explain to anyone what anti-semitism is or what being Jewish is about, there are other happy memories and things to feel blessed about and be made to be reminded of, and Im sure that all of these things happening to me upon becoming known, simply means that people don’t want me to be known, and think it’s a better idea to convince people Im something worse than I am, so that people think they are better than me, are disrespectful of me, and think that they know more about life without having known me, to make me feel like there is not point in writing, if people don’t want me to exists or accuse me of influencing anyone, to think they are smarter than me, or need to be asked to leave or be told that I don’t belong, which is what a diagnosis of schizophrenia does, it enables people to treat you like you think you are something presidential, or think you are others, or think others are you, and that’s wrong to hurt me as a writer, and to make fun of my experience being a writer, and then to mistreat me like reading is fun, while torment me and make me feel like I don’t exist, or don’t make sense, is wrong.

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