Anger, Intensity, Passion, Courage, and Habit …

Research Paper #7

04-27-23

Anger Management

So far my experience with anger management has been about feeling offended, feeling threatened, being scared, feeling sick, feeling pressured, feeling sick, and for that feeling to be habit forming, and consequential based on what you say, is how you are treated, so what is the reverse of descriminalization, would be upon sickness was thought a condition upon which clarity is lost, so what types of illnesses “physical ailments.” Why are physical ailments believed to be a causal factor for Loss of clarity” in others. I have only had one experience of needing a penicillin shot, and taking cheap Ubers and missing a Doctor’s appointment, dropped off in an alley, and the environmental condition seems like a ”loss of clarity” or based upon my condition, maybe going by my condition, I was not taken to the doctor, and was dropped off in an alley in traffic, therefore the circumstance will be a disorganized state in which people are going by you, and as a result of “people going by you” such as an Uber driver, the reaction will be to “tell you why youre lost” so that’s a positive confrontation, when people judge your condition as being because of any code in life, so that’s the economic disparity, is that what is street and known, is what everyone is strong by, therefore if you are not strong by the same things, what people know or have come to identify with in life, will be about them not you, either you recognize the privilege that you have in life, or people in different brackets cannot relate to you, or a “loss of clarity” occurs upon physical illness. So what kinds of physical illness, make environment seem like it will take too long to get places or experience a difficulty that another quits on you, is when you are disorganized, is when doctors give up on you, when you don’t stay well, that’s because they feel offended if you are not functioning up to speed and improving, and a “loss of clarity” is judged to be a “disorganized state” that is transferable to whos in your company so that people don’t go by you and recognize you as lost.

Based on 3 outbursts on Twitter, escalating in seriousness and frustration, stuff you don’t complain about that you shout about, is an example of a non-issue, that you are opened up for, and speak to, and it has no relevance to what anyone else is feeling and doesn’t inform anyone of any condition in which anyone who is helping you has harmed you, which is an unnecessary disclosure, when people try to make you seem like a person who turns on people you know, when it’s the opposite, like the Uber driver, when my condition is disorganized then someone going by you if they believe they are “losing clarity” because of you, is why people are kept separate on the basis that they are not awake or in appreciation of whats around them, someone who doesn’t pay attention to whats around them, is questioned as to whether or not they recognize a change in clarity around them, or to others in their company. So this is what I think the term “loser” is for, people who don’t see clear by you, or who interpret your cognition or thinking as not being clear on the basis of you feeling hurt with no proveable evidence of hurt, therefore the basis of hurt is not love, its when people talk to you, and reject you, causes mental illness to who is ignored, so that’s how a person is made to talk to someone, who does not respond to them, “hit on” ignored, so that’s a man’s mentality of life, not a product of a separation from women or bond, that’s not what rehab was like, I should have been in a room alone, and should not have been made to share a room with another woman, that was uncomfortable on the basis that I was there fore self-harm, therefore I should have been roomed alone, not share a room, and on the basis of sharing a room, and also being meds for schizophrenia, I could not sleep for the duration of rehab wake up 3 times every night and the night guard would ask me why do you keep waking up, so that’s being put in a small world sheltered, and I don’t think much else went well elsewhere is the concern, and I think the basis is when people are gambling in a big way over who’s down is to celebrate = an attack makes sense if youre an Israeli building, while Im in rehab for self-harm and a nude website, that’s is why I was diagnosed with schizophrenia and taken of day meds, being taken off day meds, means that I don’t talk, function, am not thinking anything, and not talking to anyone, and people are talkative to me, and or aggressive toward me, and the person mentally ill and aggressive was the one that my roommate was comfortable with and we were not comfortable talking, so that’s why a board game was played at a dual diagnosis rehab, organized socialization.

I had a good experience at rehab, but being taken off adderrall is not the solution, if Im made to talk about life and attacked and a nude website is made, then the basis is what I have to say about rehab, and someone thinking that Im perverted or looking at other women, and don’t have a body myself, and a mind that benefits others, I was told I was supported, but at the time I was not comfortable with female friends, on the basis of how I was harmed, makes it difficult to incorporate people into your life, and you get made fun of as disabled as though others take care of you, so later on improving and working and dating was a step in the right direction, to not be treated as a loser or someone who needs to be taken care of for the rest of their life, is not necessary punishment to my family or me, if I can function on meds, whats of issue, is what is my limit and why are my concerns not respected, and where is the confidence in others coming from medically, upon interaction with me, nows not the time to experiment and try a new medication when I have a simple problem of hearing voices and hitting my head, which Invega does not treat or cure, it only got worse, and like the habit forming anger management issuer of shouting 3 times in a row within a 2 week period, voices stay stuck in your head and repeat over and over again, and cannot be undone, and that’s Invega, it leaves you at your last state, and keeps you at the same problem, and you cant solve the problem, because you are not functioning to the standard of a normal human being working and social and dating, and this is how you get treated poorly on medications, people who think theyre more able punish you, and on the basis of how people react or respond to you, you get punished or attacked, them thinking that that’s how your life is, and that’s how a life is created to be attacked, when someone thinks that those who react poorly blame you, and then situate you for everyone to react or respond poorly to you, is how respect is lost, when people no longer feel good attacking you, belittling you, or thinking you are sick, does not solve who is harmed, me, and the people who were protected and not interacted with, are not affected in that they are not brought into my life, and don’t have to experience what the day to day on Invega is like, so that’s the time that people want forgiveness for, when you are underperforming, and when you are not functioning, is similie for people being forgiven automatically as though they had the wrong idea about you and were angry toward you, and that anger is forgiven, but the harms that are left on you, are for you to describe is to make things appear on the outside as being about the terms brought to mind, and that’s how a woman is punished, based on a younger woman’s reaction, then scaring me, as though she was influenced or acquired a condition of “schizophrenia” being housed in a room with me, and that’s not the case, I am not disorganized and mentally ill and I don’t have anger, and its “clear around me” therefore I don’t have a condition that’s passed, which is why people who do have anger “learn from hurting me” that the anger leaves them, is how they learn how to be nice, and in being nice to other women and mean to me, is how a man feels supported, and that’s who is saved, who is not connected to me, is supported, therefore being online, is not about being close or connecting with people, who are made to feel good and better about life, this is why I don’t talk about others, being observant doesn’t mean that you are not aware of others or selectively ignoring people, it means you aren’t connecting with people, which means you don’t have anything to provide to others, which means if people feel well in your presence, that doesn’t mean that you are sick and they are well, or that a later condition is justified as punishment, as though Im someone who has a good experience in rehab, I was suffering for a month and then suffered for a year and got used to it, its not a lively condition in which you are writing and thinking about life, and its not a justified punishment, based on who you are or what you sound lie or whats wrong with you, that’s not the clarity, the clarity in someone who doesn’t believe you and thinks poorly of you doesn’t care about you and puts you on Invega, and thinks that you being stupid is punishment for a person who they think has high self-esteem and was smart, that’s how someone who is smart is punished and made to feel stupid, so these are things you don’t complain about, otherwise things are about you being well, or treated and getting worse, so either you get worse under the treatments provided, you work, or your condition worsens not on the treatments provided, overall what can be forgiven is when you improve, and like I said when not well “physically” is when “clarity” is thought to be in jeopardy, and that’s when everyone overall is watched, and you are watched separately, on the basis of how you react and respond, and whats of issue, to determine whether you feel good by people, or feel well alone, and everything you do is thought to be in poor humor, being on a budget, eating junk food, driving, listening to radio, techno music, running everyday, when you have clarity and others do not, that is something that they look for to determine whats coming from you, therefore if I walked into a rehab or an audition and everyone got sick, then that would be something they would blame me for as though anyone realizes life to add up or be something that is distasteful or hard to comprehend, wellness is not hard to comprehend or disability, it’s the reactions of others, is what determines your value, so this is how a woman is mistreated as being under a pressure that they assume was passed to others, in the same environment in rehab, this is to accuse m of being under a pressure that I went to treatment for and exposed others to, which is why I don’t belong in treatment, and now why I don’t belong in IOP, on the basis that my “physical health” is not strong enough and based on obesity and my “physical health” not being strong, think that Im of “risk of harm” to the clarity of other patients, and when medically they think “you are strong inside” they think that means you are “carrying” something within, that does not belong among people who are lost and coming back to be found in life recover, this is why people in recovery “feel threatened” by people who are considered “using” medications is not using nor is blogging, the “too strong condition” is caused by: (1) lawsuit (2) bullying (3) harassment (4) “fake” job (5) sounding stupid (6) money or necessity for money being of issue (7) where I belong for treatment (8) identifying how bad my condition is (is the memorized condition, of someone who meets you in a state in which you describe how you feel) can be made to happen again once you have recovered, so that’s the “defense, threat, and re-occurence” that someone who sees you healing and recovered, puts you back in a down position, and it will be up to you how many times do you need to be put down in life “and how does suicide happen” it will be a memorized condition, that is described, that upon recovery from, is caused again, by the elements described as causing for the condition, so that’s how people who meet you “down – Invega” become confident later “back on adderrall” and then insult you “on the basis of what you got sick by are or or are not cool by” and that’s how people treat you as beneathe others, its people want to be credited for being soldiers in life or for caring for you, and the “pen pal” wants to be forgiven for attacking me, by saying that I asked for it or there being something wrong with my face or body or car to justify it, and thought that that was a common occurrence, therefore a person who is pissed off at me, who thinks theyre helping me, is not hurting me in the eyes of others, which is what others don’t understand how I was hurt, and the basis for bring hurt, so that’s the issue of “exposures” treating me as “exposed by photo” to accuse me of exposing my life or my story in a way that anyone was not at peace with, or caused for mental disturbance in others, so that’s not how mental disturbance is caused, mental disturbance is caused when a person is attacked on meds, performing or not performing at all in life. The cause for “mental disturbance” is the basis for proving “fraud” which is to say Im not a real human being educated who has experienced life long enough to be able to describe what is happening and why with recognition for all peoples opinions without insulting anyone or making anyone look like they were mean, and if sticking up for myself is a means for inflicting fear or embarrassment or changed stats, it will be on the basis for a mistreatment sought to be forgiven, so what is not true, was others peace “me being gay” and that was their truth and made them feel good, and also entitled men to attack me, and on that basis I was not recognized as a woman, who is sweet educated, and has been harmed, and on the basis of someone being angry with me, it is about if anger is caused to me, is that to respect his anger, not make a big deal of someone else’s anger, so its what is lost is of concern, in terms of women’s health, does me losing who I am, proper for punishing me, Im not a fraud, Im a real website, and have written and a real campaign, so the fraud diagnosis is on the basis of “schizophrenia” and “the issue of gay” and them trying to coordinate a solution, that excludes me as “offender” and to wrongfully accuse me of having the wrong connections in life or being people Im connected to, is  a wrongful mismanagement of my human condition and mental health, to punish me for the wrongs of others, or to accuse my writing, as not being truthful based on experience current, so this is the point of waking up and that’s to make me look guilty, to say that me awake, means something bad already happened, and that’s why to treat me as stupid thereafter, to say that something bad happened, why to destroy “my clarity” as though destruction of my clarity of physical or mental health, will restore the clarity of others, lost to mine. Im not lost, and having a life, is not a threat or proving anyone wrong, that’s not the confrontation, the issue is what type of treatment and for what and if I overcame self harm and suicide through writing, then why should I be made to not think, on what basis does that restore togetherness, I think togetherness in on the basis of there being clarity amongst others, and that should not occur by shouting, and the fact that there is clarity, the basis is believed to be about “me being let go of” do not assume was in others, so that’s the confusion medically, as to when things are too much for me, how am I supposed to feel, and is that a habit forming feeling of suicide, that occurs by feeling caused, that another can feel to them.

#stopsuicide (habit, feeling, recreated and caused by description, until the body doesnt remember the feeling sought to be caused, is how you get out of a suicidal condition)