There’s nothing fun about suffering that is ever your fault a permanent disability that prevents you doing a lot of things in life, so please don’t make fun of any hospital experience or self-harm, you obviously don’t care I suffered shot in the neck with a needle waking up some place I don’t know how I got there.

Everyone does their best, in all ways I experienced suicide [Im sorry that’s my guilt/mistake in life] or tried to describe how it happens accept that I will never date again [hurts], and instead of accusing me of blaming anyone or describing life in any way I should justifiably be sick for any reason listening, it’s not about what I study or who I talk to or what book I read, it’s not about me being insulted by a book given to me that a doctor was not preferred who gave me two adderralls my Mom’s protecting or a change in care that I was ever offended by or my fault. Sometimes based on where you are its best to stay well rather than read up for the first time on what everyone has to say, so stop accusing me of insincere reflection praying on my knees or crying or being relayed a comment from OJ, or checking Johnny Cochran’s website mean I know anything about jail or who died representing whom. However I was better off being I’m sorry if anyone is making fun of my Ikea desk I kept for years insistent about accusing me of using a knife for any purpose other than stab myself, isn’t reflecting on removing knives from my house or never cooking or owning knives period.

Life can mean many things, nothing wrong with me ever made anything go right for anyone I loved being hospitalized was so traumatic that anyone visiting me did their best and I mattered was special, allowed to attend law school.

I’m tired of making fun of how I got sick accusing me of mental illness or a medical history that says Im mentally ill, suicidal or have offended anyone period. The more you use my medical records to misunderstand my peace my story my life I lived or whos connected to who or who married who or who moved on reconnected not for marriage anything about being completely ready to date still super humiliated by who hurt me and shown the hate website.

I did my best to stay well and be smart. I spoke to people who could be trusted worth checking in with, I don’t deserve to lose on subjects you accuse me of learning by doing and then saying whats offensive excluded from a gender or a dead person tell people Im offensive, in anyway whatever is leading, stop making fun of how long it took to be helped, or make fun of what was kept or deleted or how long fighting lasted and bad pictures of me shown, to remind me how my life ended. Is in every way I was honest about having no experience naked new to modeling insecure about my body, make fun of what happens to my body upon being seen nude, or a live picture drained, it isn’t safe to be focused on and get sick or lose body composition, so Im not offensive or messing up on messenger have life figured out bossy sharing details about my family person or having problems at home I was a successful website, that was traumatic to be hurt and accused of cheating pen paling random people or famous people suddenly concerned with how many people I spoke to isn’t the solution to being robbed to also use my name to establish any other truth.

I did my best, I have to give up once hurting me or destroying me or insulting me making fun of me suits anyones idea about what a diagnosis means or sexuality means my issue was punching my head roomed with a woman I wasn’t gay or having an sex issues no one did anything gay to me showing me their colors, that prompted anyone to come back hurt me off meds, at risk for heart attacked, decide to publish a website with hateful words that GoDaddy took down among the types of violence or errors being used by him isn’t about whats controlling, or who’s forgiven or what school shootings are about solved or explain how anything bad happens accuse me of being offensive to the eye not loving or not able to help anyone kid struggling mentally ill a preventable issue schools are working on, ever make me the expert suddenly on school shootings period, no one offended anyones Presidency, any focus on any offense is fair game and can write and defend myself again and again and stop calling anyone until its not a code or privilege or mass casualty that anyone knows how to fix make fun of figuring out how to help or why court was in session didn’t know I would meet them.

In life there are simple ways in writing being seen not famous coding on issues that are in any way relevant to my disability or being called “retarded” my whole life and a “pill head” suffering or strangled suffocated in a headlock, anything personal Im ashamed of or didn’t slam my head into a wall. Of course it matters when people are angry at me. It’s my job to live life be of value too.

I am sorry that who I was doesn’t matter taking a break or needing to rest facing difficulty writing cant figure out what to say after treatment an easy job made hard or a type of misuse of words accidental or racist “epithet” you accuse me of being insensitive to or changing my sexuality to make fun of me living in West Hollywood is hurting Elliot Dillman, who told me to let go of Rob’s dick and come out and drink with everyone. I know my place, I was honest Im not allowed to get upset Im expected to stay well, nothing about 2009 explains how life should or shouldn’t happen watching everyone else helping me, not a if I had medications I wouldn’t commit suicide. Instead of respecting love you used my experience with suicide or book suggestion to have zero concern for who is affected by suicide or all the friends I lost, you decided to watch me reconnect with exes get sick and not be able to date, while making fun of why I can’t date anyone new, if I didn’t get matched on bumble I don’t have a problem fighting or sensitivity to any gender or profession that Im sparking by my diagnosis, Im not hurting anyone who decides to be mad at me.

Dating isn’t easy isn’t about looking good collecting thousands of matches or being connected to good looking men, whatever you think is wrong with me or wherever you think I belong its clearly not about how many people like me how easily I make friends or not being allowed to be social the issue or meetings I worked hard to attend meetings stop excusing loss by creating reasons for me to not belong, give me issues or relapses or problems or voices that means anything about guilt or says Im an offender not a nice person or racist or insensitive.

Forget Im alive [sorry to sound so negative fix my attitude] or witness being alone for 10 years and give up completely, I can’t afford to be made fun of like I ever lived such a bad life unfamiliar with addiction or how hard it is to be smart test well that I should suddenly be questioned about how I dealt with suicide or how I came to accept what it was a mistake that I didn’t see coming or know why occurring with a great life and a new apartment, doesn’t mean meds working or flushed makes or breaks my life or drinking, or argument, in the end whatever you want to happen to me and make me suicidal again, is whatever you think is true or dangerous, don’t accuse me of reading a book I stop reading like Im offended by a Yale Law Student described being on a 5150 hold, “Center Cannot Hold” not relevant to how I ever processed conflict. Again its not the job or the person, or like that makes me smart or immune or not affected, it’s about until your connections are known can it be established what is preventable to who can or cant help, in the end life turns out however you are able to live life, not make fun of any honesty or submission a fake attorney suicide joke, I was so proud of myself and single had a beautiful head shape worked hard I don’t deserve to lose what my head looks like hurt me sue me watch me commit suicide use voices until I slam my head into a wall and commit suicide or punch my head, I cant afford to be treated like Im some fucking idiot or animal suffering from some issue public outside or in my room that was ever not an emergency.

Life happens however its intended to happen, Im not at peace with being called “Pervert” and Im allowed to work hard get well on my own not bother anyone, Im not a person who is secretly gay or offensive or a sex addict accuse me of watching porn or having sex at anytime like anytime good is about meds brain on or off or website something I battled that could never be fixed, you clearly don’t respect my body or have acceptance for whats real or whether I can work get sick, too mentally ill to work disclosing a hate site, and telling my Boss “Im sorry I fucked up,” that was how I felt after it became not helpful to have mental health issues at work, So stop using a pen pal making anything offensive okay I couldn’t make my life better, no effort made my life better, no amount of fighting I survived matter, no place better is anyones peace, in the end all I have to do is focus on myself instead of making fun of me or my medical records, whatever you think is sick about me preventing me from being loved, isn’t God’s way of telling me when to die or when to not talk to anyone, stop me, use comparisons private as a broadcasted public insult.

I will never live life again, don’t accuse me of Rape [for modeling & my body being seen], lying about rape, sex addiction, being used up, or having any disability make fun of my experience being loved, sometimes the truth doesn’t matter and in the end no on e cares how I died 2009 isnt a difficult subject all anyone cares about is exposing my medical history or memory of what happened, accuse me of having anger or judgmental reading a recommended book. In the end Im responsible for my life or what happens to me, in the end Im not analyzing how suicide happens or declaring in what way I ever improved like Im lying have some psychotic capability squed view on life or what my value is or what music I love, sick minded, or focused on the wrong things, in the end its best to stop making making fun of me accusing me of being guilty improper to hotline counsel disclosing my connections without having sex and being sober, about me offending anyone, you maybe cant forget in what ways anyone’s sexuality is offended by the word “deviant” and finishing training make me insensitive to helping victims or insincere a robot lifeless sponge joke, accuse me of getting sick helping others, or make fun of dating and working on a hotline. Sometimes you can work hard put a lot of effort into an honors thesis my Mom and Aunt appreciated Mom said sounded like her, and lose your only copies isn’t a fair way to tell me I don’t care or don’t deserve to work or help others a mental illness joke or random wellness ability to help others I was ever unfit for or had issues personal that made me belong not challenged by the job not immune to anyones struggle that was research you invaded disrespecting my privacy making fun of my research paper or use of the word vicarious, in the end its not me insensitive accuse me of not being sober or going out or doing cocaine and facing disability unfit to work for Boulder DA a problem that prevented me from working or working at another job. I don’t appreciate changing or battling voices continuing to knock me off center fight me expect me to crash like a road rage shouted at joke, this is not how I should be living life forgetful or the problem, Ive done my best, if I earned back my life, and for whatever reasons Court decides I need to be punished more be in a more rigorous program, accuse my life as being easy or recovery or attending IOP unimpressive or unproductive not accommodating a hectic schedule complaining or comparing myself. In life you have to work hard to get well, so this isolation regroup me work a job situation of needing to observe me for longer period of time socially is not necessary to my survival in life or my issue, offended by woman not inspired by women who are nice to me not respected for anyone who is plus size trying to help me with bullying is how someone who is plus size doing well tried to make an embarrassing experience shared that I don’t need to be hurt by. I liked that IOP I did my best to attend I don’t know why I had absences couldn’t get days in a row, I didn’t relapse, text anyone focusing on fitness.

Whatever is the issue I have to do my best to help everyone, whatever anyone doesn’t care for me anymore, accusing me of saying offensive terms relevant to my body or face or sexuality suddenly be unaccepting of how hurt I am when you force to be social with women while calling me names is why I didn’t talk to anyone stayed away, its not about being in my phone I was so busy barely had time to chat working hard. You don’t care what I don’t know, or what any joke was fighting over my boyfriends time ever so needy already taking naps, that I interfered with his time with friends, they were my friends too, experienced filmmakers, that is the life I lost upon getting sick, in any order it was shared are not facts about me that should be used to hurt me make fun of me or become ways you try to report me make fun of me shouting a homeless kicked out joke social service helped person, not my choice, voices are permanent I have now accepted its been this way or years and never made me a soldier or accuse me behaving like some weirdo offensive to any neighbor is not any struggle anyone had to watch hear of to make proud becoming better, is how life is misunderstood, or what living in shared home is about.

Please accept my best, its not about any numbers or titles or admission on my resume, it didn’t matter how I got a job, or being told do not contact this person or your going to jail but you can blog something about anyone else getting to manage my case and be paid highlighting a race ethnicity issue fake advice or anything I didn’t take seriously. I was scolded upon taking a bumble photo not texting it then doesn’t matter how she knows or what Im doing wrong just to remember what the issue is or what the Attorney General is for scaring me making fun o me calling the Attorney General, isn’t about my case being challenging to submit documents or disability to appear or not appearing intending to help me in any way accuse me as meaning the word “PERVERT” suddenly make fun of me represented or make fun of what happened in 2017, for as many times as it takes to be trusted again, Im not in charge of how or when lawsuits are made I just have to do my best to stay well, things not working out isn’t anything sad or sudden that means my life is over should’ve appeared in court, I don’t know when voices happened or how I saved pictures to my phone, stop hurting me making fun of what was scene not care about my timeline or slamming my head into a wall or shouting stop punching my head I don’t have to do anything to get voices to stop that involves hitting my head being injured make me scared or not recover or disfigure my face or head or any asset body type. In so many ways I lived honestly, in so many ways I shared in public carefully what Ive reflected on not let a Shorty Award be about disqualifying me in public face a sudden change upon being popular that’s supposed to be about me, or not accept being on meds, running not doing any cocaine.

In any way anything Ive said is accusing me of being insensitive having some unracist acceptance of me, or race awareness by story that means anything cool about me getting jobs or among which races, make their work history relevant to who accepts me respects my hard work, you couldn’t get over what life I fixed beyond a resume through website that helped me to a get a job, or respect a public sharing with respect to knowing a famous family untrue or change me to not good with the public using anyone to be famous or using OJ to anyone, is not the solution, insensitivity regarding not appreciating why sex tapes were made, privileged to be famous by writing, nothing I needed to experience as connected to OJ or forgetful or not an argument copyrighted with the government that took many months and paid fees started with just one post that was the post I picked. I don’t get to be wrong or get to be sick or deserve to make fun of what makes me unfit or how anyone can tell if Im sick or not accuse me of turning into some addict or masculine street person who isn’t proper isn’t me changing because of anything or prompted by any job or dating, why would I work so hard to belong in a program take advice that Im anywhere not grateful need to be reminded about what happened to me or what Shorty Award submission was taken down isn’t untruthful or an improper disclosure of the only people Im talking to make me important or deserve award.

It’s hurtful to stop living life make mental illness the hidden issue brought out of me that’s offensive or accuse me of shouting anything insulting while being called PERVERT, again since you don’t respect how I was hurt or what trying to be helped is like, I don’t have to be made fun for any offensive website you seek to make the code or true or accuse me of sex offenses living stupid not smart or not special, it’s whoever sounds whatever way, it’s my hurt and my trauma and how I fucked up in life and now mentally ill and suicidal that no job works no diagnosis of COVID matters, or need to suffer losses like the best way to look at a funeral is not fat and offensive not famous made fun of for who I know of importance, isn’t the difficulty with facing suicide or disability not able to work or how my life should turn out be decided by any pen pal to hurt me so no one loves me no one is grateful for my presence no absence matters or overcome, isn’t about my being labeled a F up, or make fun of any friend or any disclosure helping a recovering heroine addict about me being uncomfortable to be friends with someone who hurt one of my friends, make me sick or offensive, that’s not whats wrong with me, or what being given a home means. Or tells me what life I belong in less than wherever my family is make fun of me being stuck in bed in my room, not helped by people visiting my room, that’s not my fault, I shared how important my Dad was and anyone decided to read whatever and accuse me of guilt or my Dad of guilt suddenly try to dirty my family or change anyones attitude or happiness sense of peace, no one deserves that in any way.

It doesn’t matter whether Im sober in a program writing on Twitter or whats been said whatever is not believed is whatever truth people accept so forget in what ways I was special, I don’t need Taylor Swift or use states Texas and California as some offensive take on life or responsibility period, it’s not my job to take chances be made fun of for my approach to life, like Im supposed to not have overcome suicide and sickness or disability diagnosed schizophrenia, make fun of me continuing to model still love myself stay fit not be accused of taking grose photos demanded the made public is not helpful to make fun of how anyone’s threats can be prevented and lose. I don’t’ have to live life again or suffer from an issue of trying to label me as an offender or insensitive to school shootings, not helpful or pretending to care, make fun of how difficult it was to stay well, or be strong. I can only do my best to be honest, there sometimes are ways you don’t exist that people can hurt you and decide that you’ve done something unforgiveable and if that’s what court means, and no one thinks I needed help then continue to not talk to anyone never apply again, not work period if the joke is mental illness or fitness, for as long as it takes to try to kill me hurt my head watch me shout is for however long voices decide to ruin my life or image, this is a battle I lost to suicide, an experience I was punished for, no matter the timing, in the end its not about whats wrong with me inappropriate to message anyone, its what about means I should have anger unhappy or be unattractive not at peace, Im not on drugs I don’t appreciate making fun of my head or a scratch on my head or insensitive to Leo getting cancer or visited at my home.

Whatever the issue is whatever the code is that no one considers offensive to me or Sydney or hurtful isn’t me imaging delusional forecasting my life not working out suddenly stuck with a problem I cant fix that show me in a way opposite to who I am, and I cant fix that. So long as you make fun of treatment or hospital make fun of me is whatever result or thing Ive been through with someone supporting me or learn about is when I get attacked worth checking for or letting happen. It was hurtful it hurt me I was at risk for heart attack and Im not famous not special or lying or complaining to anyone mentally ill DA or Justice Roberts, away from my family suffering had difficulty living again, about a return to live that is meaningful to friends who know me or things you continue to compare me to who hurt me and make fun of my understanding of code. All I have to do is be honest, I don’t deserve to be put in a system for the mentally ill or offensive living with disease untreated putting anyone at risk meeting me or seeing me, doesn’t make me a race joke or insensitive to suffering, in as many ways as anyone decides for things to not work out, is however long it takes until things get better and work out, all I have to do is live my life, be honest, try to get well, figure myself out, accept why voices hurt, accept what anyone thinks means Im an offensive pervert a waste of life make a fan site okay or not be shocked by a vagina photo or how Im viewed. I don’t think my analysis of a scene from Elvis if about a shocking website with a Vagina, something you decide to be true or said wrong about me as though who I am on Twitter doesn’t prompt attack of me or accuse me of having problems in life, or explosive characteristics that make me not beautiful decide who Im for or what anyones accepting of, its no sex period, if you didn’t see me work hard, and you think the death of my Father is photo op visit by The Simpson Family, that’s not whats wrong me proves Im important or legit, losing weight and getting well is about not being accused of being offensive by any type of sex period unwanted make fun of my life or any hookup.

In every way things should go wrong with a job, a post, or location stated, or type of crime occurring my fault or because Im there blame my Instagram is disregarding missing an exit close to the high speed car crash by a nurse nearby mean anything bad is happening that Im lead to or can sense is wrong with me or endangering anyone of importance. I don’t have to share on Instagram anymore not be trusted or wrongfully accused, again if Im working hard to work, Im not doing anyone wrong, Im not the gang leader street offensive wannabe black identity crisis dissimilar to my race or sudden disability and hospitalization is being demanded and care being dropped, based on having a job and working my way to full time, made fun of for long it took to get used to working, like Im able and Invega is the joke on Invega with a job, about my losing support unstable not working anymore going to the hospital any difficulty I suffered or investigator demands that was ever intended to hurt me or anyone, or prove my Twitter is putting anyone at risk of harm including my family.

I just don’t think saying the Judge didn’t credit me for 7 months of hard work not rigorous enough how I should face the rest of life being watched or meeting standards or falling below standards about me pretending to be recovered deserving of help or doing anything wrong in private to anyone Im told to not talk to, not modeling or having sex period, mean where I am has anything to do with me being sick by location at home, at a job, in a group home, I listen to rules, it doesn’t matter who I am life isn’t about me, known or unknown and just accept whoever I am or whatever you remember is also not something wrong with me that should be fixed by a man or woman, worry for sex happening or make fun of sponsorship isn’t code for how to be liked, that’s nothing I have control over or what job I keep or how Im viewed, whats important is that after being hospitalized I didn’t stay in contact and didn’t return to a meeting is how a friendship ended.

I don’t deserve to be ridiculed forced to be called schizophrenic and watch me live life like something psychotic about to happen that belongs in a hospital not able to recover a UCLA IOP patient representative. I did my best to be honest was stuck with whatever issues I was made to share out loud, means whatever life is worse for me now, make fun of what I sound like challenged like Im not proper talk in a tough masculine way some secret change about me or having identified whats wrong with me accuse me of having issues with woman, being less than, working hard to have friends, if it took several years to recover from self harm or voices, it will take 2-3 years to recover from any disability considered my fault some meaning by movie that I take insult to that means the code is all about describing me as offensive isn’t how life is decided or website deserved or any code I should be threatened by like Im watching life a hidden joke or accuse me of being an offender didn’t appreciate being viewed make fun of my request to not been seen for love make clear a preference of how hurting me is not for love period, or make fun of his son’s reaction. There can be anything unreal about me that makes me not special or any experience in life you expect me to relive until it doesn’t matter what my story is doesn’t make me at fault guilty or not preventative of anyones suicide the disappointment prosecutorial or portraying my life in any way that anyone is made to look improper including ex or my outfit bought at Neimans, that’s the life I lost.

Sometimes being helped is not about me. Sometimes I cant control how I look online or how my life is ruined or whats causing me suicide difficult, lifes not about whats a big deal or asking for credit not making a big deal about a hate website a SEVERELY PAINFUL ISSUE, with a liver exam and at risk for heart attack, or after treatment make any issue not fixed unreal self-harm, or whats happening to me that means anything to anyone who hurt me, matter what meds I was on, or how I was forced to be seen grose, and make fun of my body accuse me of not being hot or deformed and ugly isn’t how I deserve to live life insensitive to my value as a woman, an offender joke. Sometimes pushing for offense or forced coding to his website and forget Im alive makes it pointless to talk to anyone treat me not able to recover jealous about ability offended by anyone who sounds smart some place worse like I didn’t make it and whatever I survived wasn’t a big deal. I don’t have to hurt again and made to look stupid to make words true or any movie about me some preference for how the world should work some forecasting impending doom of life not working out suddenly overreaction to bullying that my hand should break self harming, injure my ability to write. Im not unaware or avoidant of the issues or why declaring me a offensive or wrong is supposed to explain for any mass shooting Laguna Woods, to Texas a School Shooting, using demoralizing me ruining my life some public struggle offensive or issue insensitive approach to studying mass shootings accuse of not be helpful or preventative. If offense is the risk and punishable to any victims of a mass shooting, I don’t need to remember issues or make mistakes to make a lawsuit happen and accuse me of committing suicide for any reason suddenly my life is over upon being sued, so much can happen in life on the drop of a hat, I was never a suicide voices pervert joke, I was never running in defense or proving sex isn’t my issue or make believe to have experience talking about life with no therapy suddenly my story or condition needs help that I should be offended by how, is not about whats wrong with me and how I was punished protected or saved, there a good ways of sharing your life and there are other ways you life can take a turn for the worst and no downfall or necklace suddenly devalued me from meeting anyone period, any people who knew me who should not be affected my punishment is not the mistake of who put together a lawsuit, is not my business to explain voices or how self harm happens or what slamming my head into a wall was about, if voices are not believed and Im sober, and make a public document to court that its not okay to make fun of me see me naked not dating accuse me having sex in my Mom or doing anything bad is wrong.

I cant work any harder to explain life any better than I have lived and all I have to do is accept in what ways no one cares, not be made fun of for what positive reviews or support means, make fun of how it feels to be bullied shouted at, like Im some make believe person stuck in my room mentally ill checking around to see how people are doing experimental not brave enough to speak or confident enough to help, please stop hurting me please stop using lawsuits to end my life, and please stop hurting me with words. Again I don’t have to prove who I am or change, to be stuck worse that who I was and I don’t need to document improvement or have social skills, to let me know what court is for and what Im doing wrong or inappropriate. Stop forcing me to accept Im delusional use my words and life now to shock anyone to use bullying making fun of me overreacting to bullying breaking my hand anything that frustrated me that tells me I don’t belong or should use rejection to mean I should know why. In the end Im not talking $shit about my State or any State or about anyone period, Im allowed to give up not wonder what life is about or what changed about my life suddenly made me sick or give up and make fun of me being under something impossible Im expected to be immobile hear voices and slam my head into the wall accuse me of suicide or self harm that’s shocking to anyone explains a lawsuit. Life isn’t about retelling all the ways I was permitted to blog and all the conditions and what it means to be punished makes clear who I was what happened, and what took a long time for me to recover from anything about not feeling good that I should be familiar with or disposition improper based upon what is going wrong preferring that I should look bad be old rejected make fun of my face or anyones face. I don’t get to decide what my head and body looks like, its hurtful to see me naked and force me to be ugly and then use words to make me sound ugly watch me get rejected and victimize me or who I am.

Again Im not in control. I did my best. I don’t get to decide whats real or not and my experience with voices doesn’t have any solution that makes it fun to cause me to relive dysfunction make fun of what I sound like with no support some kind of connect and be helped reject jokes, then accuse me of being sick not being treated, or accuse me of being paranoid about what being dropped as a patient means, to for whatever reasons be observed with something going wrong an important appointment missed with a job, mean anything about my ability or explain for what I should sound like compared to what I sounded like at work. Ive done my best it matters to me for everything to go well, I said I was treated I lost ability and didn’t know if I could work again some idea of recovery not told is possible, make fun of me in treatment accuse me of having issues a jail pervert joke the worst type of offender who should get beat up in jail, isn’t how my life should be decided.

Again I worked hard to overcome mental illness got through a fan site that couldn’t be taken down was treated based on my disability, I told you help was expensive I was honest about what I sound like talking about names or struggles doesn’t make easy to help or someone I prefer to sound like opening up, isn’t a fair judgment accuse me of being close to manager of a residential program, someone who has heard me sound weird, or a therapist whats wrong improper about me.

All I have to do is not talk to anyone and get well, sometimes the best way to overcome mental illness is not to be sued and be made fun of over what you think is real, and sometimes the best way to be respected for being dumped and become a runner, is about learning how to lose weight, not suddenly compare me disqualify me, make me not be loved again, not strong enough for marriage, making running or voices or mental illness, about calling PERVERT and making fun of people who knew me friended me and introduced to my boyfriend, is how anything bad happened.

Again my story is not the code for me to get sick, my disorientation or suffering ignore all the times I walked to the hospital live nearby, undatable. In no way can I defeat voices so long as my story is a shocking account of mental illness or suicide that you accuse me of being offensive rejecting anyone of having sex unimportant or fired, isn’t what voices mean.

Ive done my best to be honest, in the end all I have to do is stop living life and write and not talk to anyone ever again, and not be made fun of for my health or who I match with or made fun for my goals in life accuse me of lying not connected to any organization I shared proof of my worth to trying to overcome illness just to apply.

My therapist said it was okay to write in public in court, that was helping me, no matter where I am or what my writing looks like, or whats in my mind, or what Im struggling with, Im allowed to not be hurt accuse me of making a big deal about a hateful website you ignore me injured to, isn’t a trauma or difficulty in typing that means Im stupid cannot be helped.

I have no way of being helped until I get help or figure out whats wrong with me, again Ive stated that I was helped I don’t deserve to lose progress be made fun of for when I was helped or for how long, my only job is to get well. If the threat is not knowing when I misspeak or shout and keep reading someone commenting on post telling me what Ill regret means to not love me, isn’t my issue about who I am or who I am not, accuse me of devaluing myself trying to be important or famous forgetful of anyones peace or innocence, I cant fix what there is to dislike or suddenly ruin my life. Instead of focusing on what he sounds like and make fun of whos watching me confused about whats upsetting stop comparing him as forgiven recovered accepted as reacting poorly did everything right gets to be well right minded and accuse me of being jealous or flipping out at being stupid or not smart anymore. I just don’t think anyone understands whats okay or how a hate website didn’t take years to overcome, isn’t something Im guilty of anyone famous singer or popular brand is addressing in what way a School Shooting can happen and in what way does labeling me as offensive not harm, make words true or make fun of who gets away with what should be my fault, some imagined disability, Im not anywhere better that makes me entitled or ungrateful maybe its my disability or recovery lack of evidence of suffering or hardship that isn’t good enough so be it. In any way anyone decides to believe his website is true to expose in a way ruin my life a public opinion to end my life, meet me, hurt me, and accuse me of being stupid not important, how I should be treated. I can’t fix how a School Shooting is caused and I don’t deserve for no one to care whats true of have time to being corrected not meet standards isn’t about being helped or whats true or what diagnosis hurts me or anyone not true some suffering I should be aware of no matter what hate website is shown, please don’t accuse me of not working hard to stop someone from attacking me, and please don’t accuse me as moving on or anywhere else in life better by look or people type or make fun of me see my vagina pretending to be todd on a fake todd about how I should die or be memorialized played, again I don’t get to decide what anyone does to me, all I have to do is get well. Im sorry you don’t see me as working hard respect dysfunction recovery as matching who I should be sound like to justify that Im being punished a gay offender life expectancy joke not belonging not changing force me to assimilate make fun of me as a woman forget who I was for 4 years and cant get over speaking to another attorney make anything Ive said make true how I should know Todd’s preferences, I cant explain in what ways I should be watched social, made fun of, be worth it, compared and not hot, or embarrassing or have a record that’s permeant and use the words harassment to make true or untrue whats a threat, in the end its not about what words are true or whats a team effort or how life is decided or why Im not protected all that matters is to stay away from everyone be alone, fix the issue with voices, until the voices stop, and let myself die by suicide accuse me of dying like The US Supreme Court is causing me to die, accusing me of being guilty or responsible or withholding information, accuse me of communicating with anyone dangerous looking weird online.