Published October 30, 2022 – # of Likes = 2589

#worldpeace (Speech #4)

It’s been over two months now, since I stopped working, and keep getting sick, just the same as what started occurring before work, the incessant calls from Gap Synchrony Bank to pay a debt of $800 dollars, only $500 I last recall needing to pay, why suddenly with a job. And the debt was finally paid.

When things don’t go your way this is how you lose privileges in life, a nice car BMW x3 a home in Santa Monica, and forced to move home, and have less in life. When you are punished by your own family, that’s because they have decided that you have done wrong, and when given a diagnosis, pushed to work, because they do not believe in the diagnosis, this is for being treated as an offender for being pulled over 2-3 times, arrested, and for texting someone who did not want to talk to me.

It’s when you put your heart in the wrong people, that things go wrong for you, things don’t work out for you, and if you become sick, that is how you get blamed as the person, who a benefit from is not admitted to, and that’s how you suffer on your own misunderstood.

It’s hard to come back from a position in life where everyone knows you and no one admits to what theyre thinking and is disrespectful toward you, it’s hard to live in a world where everyone feels better than you, and everyone gives you a hard time, and it’s hard to know why.

When you are punished you are made to carry yourself in a down position in life, and because you are not shiny healthy and positive, that you have the risk of being mistreated as sick. Once you get treated as sick, that is how sickness prevails in your body and in your mind and gets worse, much different than anyone with mental health issues are made to think, most people back off if you tell them to, in my case because of who I know, people naturally feel good off of you, or made to think for themselves, and become angry toward you in the event that you get sick or don’t feel well.

As a dependent I don’t have much of a say in what happens to me self-esteem wise, or option wise, it will always be a matter of being well in order for things to go right in life. So speaking from a place of sickness, this is my first night with no sleep in awhile, about to walk on the treadmill for another hour, I have been on two 1 hour walks so far tonight, that’s pushing myself through illness.

It’s better to calm down, then to allow sickness to prevail, its better to be well spoken, then to be treated as sick in the head, and it’s better to write than to get voices. It’s when you don’t speak that there is hostility and misunderstanding toward you, and the purpose for sharing a detailed description of sickness and how I was made to feel sick tonight, in tonight’s post and the previous few posts, is to say that sickness is painful, and it only endures for as long as you allow it to, that no higher position in life, or connection, person, male or female, can repair, that’s sickness, it cannot be cured, it cannot be fixed, it a permanent condition (#schizophrenia) it cannot be helped, it will not make sense to others and it will happen again and again whether I have a solution for it, whether or not that solution is working for me, and not matter what I share good or bad, or of issue, that’s #schizophrenia, on top of that is sickness toward you which is misread as guilt, viewed as less than, race issue, disgust, unhappiness, entitlement, or dissatisfaction, that’s being directed towards you as though you are supposed to push yourself for others or those unhappy by you in life such as angry or mean voices calling you “pervert” or gay, or misidentifying you as “mentally ill” that’s when if you ever date (made sick) if you ever plan for marriage (sabotaged) if you ever work (ruined) if you ever get money (taken) this is to punish and hurt you in a way that you experience loss that cannot be replaced that’s so you become unhappy and sick inside and that’s an example of (people making you sick because they think you are making them sick, based on what sickness is occurring outside, then not reassured or made to feel better by you physically or mentally, treat you as though you are sick and that’s (sickness caused by loss, detachment, attachment, comfort, or discomfort). So it’s a difficult life but it’s not impossible, then lesson is once you share your story publish your book and edit it as much as possible, and earn money from your writing and not write for free online so that you have a value in life that can distinguish your wellness from the wellness of others and not be mistaken as sickness or not having helped advise or improve the communications of others, or feelings toward one another.

What cannot be fixed is putting someone in a condition of “schizophrenia” and calling it hereditary -so publishing grose photos of me online was to “cause me suicide” knowing my family’s story, to hurt me or injure me with the goal to connect me to criminals or low lifes, and to cause me mental illness and physical illness, that is because I am half-asian and because China spread COVID, therefore I am also suing China for trade secrets and non-competition clause violation to not use my work or my identity in any of their products or science for discovery on schizophrenia or what to judge other Americans by their likes unrelated to me and my issues in life, surviving as they are with or without me. People who don’t respect me, will read my work and because they are not put on blast and suffering mentally or physically think that Im scary because Im hurt and put in physical and mental pain in life, usually who contributes pretends like they didn’t do anything wrong and act like everything fine and okay, to make me appear worse off, to my own doing not theirs. People can be hurtful but I never allowed anything from my past to change how I am around people, Im always okay by people and don’t easily get upset, it’s when I am judged that I get illness, and that is why my body is in so much pain and Im in so much mental suffering that I was made to feel suicidal, most people would be hospitalized in this much pain (over exposed) or mental difficulty making and creating arguments to undo the harm that is being caused toward me, unnecessarily and not deserved. I also don’t deserve that the LAPD Detective Franklyn Chamurro, used the name of my Best Friend’s baby shower location and curb replaced, then put his name in the State of Texas (maybe not the same man) with a company in the State of Texas, to appear as though being my Detective assigned that’s to communicate to people hacking me that my Detective “Franklyn Chamurro” is in Los Angeles and Texas after a “school shooting” to try to connect me by search online, or wrongfully accuse me of searching or stalking to call me “pervert” if its information found upon looking, that’s treating me as though I came on to someone and was not worth meeting in life or grose dirty and mentally ill, no someone was grose dirty and mentally ill toward me, and my pictures stopped showing up pretty, that’s because my feelings were hurt, so please don’t accuse me of being someone from a mentally ill background or physical illness (running everyday 2 hrs) and mistreat me as a condition or “open and obvious condition” or illness that another stepped in, my book was written in wellness and it will be published with my identity known, and I will do my best to attend the Shorty Awards and meet others in my field and present my work, with or without an ongoing anti-semistism campaign ongoing, and I will seek votes for the award, and not continue to off speak or be hurt by Kanye West’s unwanted intrusion into the minds of others to confuse or seek to establish hate toward me or Jewish people in general. And I will date whoever is on my team in life and kind to me, I cannot date who needs to be convinced, it never works and they become angry toward me, I cannot date anyone who wants me to like them, so that they can feel good and get more attention, I cannot be used and drained, and then punished for being made upset in the event that another woman is made to feel good, and make me feel bad, by making another woman feel good in front of me, to hurt me on the basis of talking to DA Todd Spitzer, it’s not your story to tell, to hurt me in defense of his wife, I have suffered in life and no one is helping me, and that’s not funny for everyone to see me naked and for everyone to call me pervert, that’s not true, I can “get off” to myself, I feel good, it’s people who don’t make me feel good, that is why I don’t offer myself to anyone, in the event that I am well I talk to people, which means before meeting this person I did not view people as able to give me sickness, if I was willing to talk to anyone, that means that I was never coming from a place of value or view people as less than, I just wanted someone to talk to.

2013-2022 I’m at peace in public I don’t get in any fights or confrontations with anyone it’s only by phone and computer slowed down freeze or things don’t work and have difficulty making things work on my websites and have to review typos put in there will be things done to hurt my shine in life or to hurt my health so that my work is not viewed as special unique or of value.

Now with schizophrenia it’s like people cannot tell if I’m well or sick mean anyways and that’s hurtful to be connected to people in life who I can’t see or I can’t know by name talk to me.

No you speak easy! And I’m fighting each one (offenders, bullies, negative voices toward me) and everyone one of you until it stops. #stopbullying – It’s not fair to me to have done good work done nothing wrong to be hurt like where I am in life matters. I do my best maybe I’m not rich and popular but I feel good in what way should I be offended by anyone who feels good even if not me that’s not the issue the issue is they see me as well then treat me as sick to cause me sickness in what way is that okay?

No you misinterpreted Taylor Swift I sent her audio recording of my voice singing!