How is peace made amidst chaos? Like all dark places in life created by evil and violence, the sky will not be clear, the future will not appear in clear light, and the present will feel awakened to a state of saturation, when one is made to be consumed by what is around them, either you become whole in your shell sheltered from the chaos, or it consumes you either way, in any state frozen, you decide, whether to leave upon concern made by a loss of senses, or blind spotted, or you stay to await for clarity, I think some don’t recognize when they are in danger, and all they have are their senses, not all are strong enough to simply trust their surroundings, there comes a time, when you are less immune to your surroundings, and become easily scared or paranoid to be places in large groups of people, its not for everyone, just something that I experience, theres no gift in feeling not well, the issue will always be whether you recognize why you are not well, and what to do in the event that you do not feel well.

I think on my own I was able to get through a lot of sickness by staying proactive, and writing from court, and including everyone in the process to feeling okay and not in harms way, and sometimes overtime your condition can be improved, and sometimes by what your life looks like, others lighten up, but its not for entertainment, to write from a courthouse, or to sit outside a DA’s office, eventually public displays aren’t necessary when voices occur anyways, so this is a new condition, how to make myself feel safe, without putting myself in harms way, and figure out what will make others feel safe, if Im not video or modeling, and taking selfies.

For example, I don’t think anyone else knew what to do, and Im sure everyone by incident sought to blame me, as an unwanted figure, considering me as inappropriate, and Im sure that’s what the terms “mentally ill” “pervert” and “schizophrenic” are for to simply excuse people who don’t like me to explain for them not understanding me or not being impressed by me, I think it’s a demeanor of things being okay and a closeness that is sought, where if it does not occur, people become offended to how you look or your appearance in front of them, worse yet, upon improvement, seems to also be a cause for distrust or offense. No one is put in a position in life “introvert” to make anyone feel sorry for them, lost confidence, occurs when you do not feel good about yourself, and that can happen for any number of reasons, that’s being observed, without hearing from you or talking to you to know what is wrong with you, it is assumed that you don’t feel good or introvert because you feel like something is wrong around you why you are diagnosed as someone who has something wrong inside of them, that’s judging you as not being a source of wellness around you, to treat you as though you are not well and accuse you of being capable of making others around you not feel well, to misdiagnose you as a source of sickness.

The best way to cure a situation in which there are multiple public responses and reactions, would be to start to what effect are you being blamed for the conditions of others, and to voice a place of non-judgment when it comes to where people could be coming from in terms of their own sense of empowerment and luck in life, you know when things don’t go people’s way in life, that disadvantage in life, can make people less inclined to help others, and revert to old or new standards for determining whats important, and that’s understandable for people to be hurt by sources they consider not worthy of respect, or consider hurtful to their ownership and control of outlook and feelings had by others, I don’t think people choose to be sick, or to make people think they are sick.

I try to understand why someone is sick, and figure out the issues leading people to react or respond in a way, congruent to whom and why, and by what other issues made public, are creating for responses aligned to a subject either resonating to the present times and the issues related to known causes for turmoil, and consider to observe by what discussions others improve by. I think the less bad you make people look, the better they feel, the more attention is brought to people who are suffering, the more hurt they become, and the better off people are, the less necessary it is to question them, and the more things that go wrong, the more who is not well is questioned or blamed for the reasons or coordinates for what causes for things to go wrong. Which cannot be determined if no one is working towards prevention, and that is a risk that I took personally, to really get into the causes for prosecuting me, or for questioning the purpose for reporting or seeking help in the form of creating and making reports, based on what Im doing, how Im doing, or what is happening or going wrong for me in life.

So all crime creates a darkness, to get out of darkness, it should be determined in order of what is hurting, to make issues not continue to hurt, in lieu of more pressing issues regarding preserving the wellness and safety of those who do not need to be brought into feelings of controversy or made to feel serious or be scared by anyone who is situated worse off, and is not clear whether they are being supported or not, one among.

So this explains the lightness in response to subjects, that I should be threatened by or offended by or made scared by, to a person who already has multiple things to manage, its not that those words are not hurtful and harm causing, its that to express like Im hurt causes more harm than good, so that was trying to speak how hurtful, is when this platform becomes of value, so I don’t matter and am not real, when it comes to the wellness of others, however when people are not well, it is expected for me not to make things worse, and when Im doing well, it is expected for me to figure out whats not well and to take things lightly, in lieu of everyones concerns, to this is trying to see the good in the choices made by others, and in a positive way, if its not too late, it would be a good idea to get to whats more important, so that’s the benefit of taking things lightly, is that more important work can be done, not delayed, by correcting and learning of your influence be considered to elicit for negative ramifications to others, thought to be playing off or representing an issue believed or not represented by your blog and for what reasons, its always best to consider that what is wrong with people is based on who they are, and when there are people who you are not connected to only by story, would mean that yes, when I am harmed not only do I hurt, but that it also takes a toll on who knows me, to become less proud and to be made intimidated, that’s how a team does not exist, when anyone has failed to show courtesy and time effort and energy to show appreciation for that connection, is how a team is not made to include everyones efforts, and when effort is viewed to be hurtful.

So how is power lost, when nothing good becomes of a reaction, it is believed to be coming from a bad place, when you minimize the consequences for a reaction, that’s taking into consideration, to not allow for things to get worse, and to figure out a positive reason for illness, without ignoring who else is represented by my story. So I think it’s the pattern that its okay to see my family as pathetic, or not truthful, feels good to who does not respect me, and that that was thought of as a solution, and its not, my family isn’t calling for attention or credit, and I don’t think my family is one to ask for any attention, I think this is how I was used to make my family look bad, so that I would look like a brat, who doesn’t appreciate my families significance and importance as people and professionals, so that’s how you and your family get treated as stupid, everyone wants to hold the bigger hand, and sometimes people take it too far.

To be wrong can be corrected, to take it upon yourself to punish, causes a permanent pain. So that’s the difference between respect or not respecting, not respecting can be forgiven, whereas the not respected, shouldn’t mention complain or read into, therefore the feeling that is had, is recognizing that one was wrong to be threatened is how one becomes nice and connected to others, leaving me in sickness, which is what motivates people to be nice, because if they look like they feel bad, means that they think that they were wrong, why it is easier to make someone else feel bad and look like something is wrong, to let other people feel confident.

A non-issue is something made better and not a big deal, and then an issue is a big deal and hurtful, this is why when people are sick toward you, you aren’t supposed to question it or think too hard about where it is coming from, it’s a feeling someone feels entitled to, correcting you or identifying that there is something wrong with you, which if you allow yourself to be hurt by, can’t do anything to inform someone that they hurt you, a person who thinks that you deserve to be hurt, thinks that you do society a disservice, and does not see the value in your living life and the value of your work ethic, considers you part of unwanted presence. It’s not my job to get sick, for anyone to feel like things are good, and its also not my job, to contribute to anyone not feeling good, because I do or do not approve of them, I think my work has always been to help those who feel helped by me, and you really cant teach the value in knowing you to anyone who doesn’t respect you, they can probably find the answers to their problems focusing on someone else.

I cannot teach a person how to be to be loved, that’s something that people should figure out on their own, not by imitating people to be loved. I mentioned before in a #scotus list, everyone well except for me, I hereby declare that solution to be in error, if it is sought to prove that me not well causes or creates for risk, and to also treat me or examine me as though me working or doing well, makes others feel bad or jealous, I think feeling bad and jealously, is equally as offensive, as trying for a worse condition of gay or behaves gay and wrongfully accuse me of creating a safety feeling drawn to something gay that creates for a reaction in a woman feminine to feel safe in a gay way with me, say that I am someone who carries an auro or personality that convinces a woman, to feel loved by me, think. I think that’s a mental health issue Ive noticed in women, to misunderstand me inside, and my exposures, I now understand that its by what you see happens, just like what is investigated happens, and just like what I review or notice, will be something brought up again, as though that’s important, or has not been discussed, or think is a quick way to punish me.