To: My International Audience

Thank you for following. I was born in Santa Monica CA and have lived in Los Angeles, for my whole life, except for 4 years while an undergraduate at CU Boulder. I have traveled to Japan, Philippines, Portugal, France, and England. I am honored to have you all in my audience, although hard to keep track of analytics, thankfully Cloudflare has notified me of my reach worldwide. I actually started blogging having published a world peace speech, I only thought fitting due my combined heritage with my best-friend, who I have done my best not to name since beginning blogging, or campaigning for that better, out of respect for her privacy. This is something I am totally doing on my own, being out in public, taking chances to write professionally, and get some experience publishing and writing in public, with the hopes of publishing a book one day, if not yet, hopefully at some point in the future will be in a place in life, that it will be a good time to publish, until then still gaining much valuable real world experience as a blogger, and former applicant to Shorty Awards and other blogging organizations that recognize bloggers for their work. I’m a work in progress.

To: Criminals, White Supremacists, Gang Members, Incarcerated, Record Holding Individuals

I have stated in a previous post, that maybe it would be best to address the different types of audience members individually, and you are all of whom that have inspired the making of this post. Please bear with me, as I try to address you all individually, under a combined heading, I’m sure all of you wouldn’t get along, or are similar, but from the standpoint of the average person, who works, or reads my blog, or is still in school, who has not been in jail or sued, then you all would require a different address from me, aside from the usual life advice that I provide in general to all. I hope this post illustrates to all those concerned, that it maybe be wise to pretend that everyone is the same reading the same thing and that should suffice, or that my analytics and Cloudflare informs everyone that every reader to my website has a recorded IP address somewhere in Cloudflare’s system that is measuring readership. What is enough? I don’t think that enough reassurances can be provided by analytics, there will be no point in time, where I will ever feel completely immune from consideration when analyzing news, or my blog content, I’m sure that not being a journalist, makes it unclear to what extent I’m willing to address topics and to what depth. I only hope that my honesty and experiences getting in trouble, or struggling to get a job, or become known online, is something that you all can relate to, putting yourselves together, staying out of trouble, and not engaging in criminal behavior or violence toward yourselves or other individuals. I know as a person who self-harms, this probably makes me look bad, and runs counter to my selfies and modeling photos, people will think what they want to think, and sometimes the basis for respect are based on those things who you are and what you have to offer. I’m sure by the standards of a criminal, who sizes up people, I’m sure the average person or bully does so similarly. What is it that you have to say, can it make me money, what code does it speak to, is there a potential for financial gain, is this life advice based on religion or wisdom and where it is coming from, what education or books. There are so many things about me that need to be known before I’m respected. I am sorry that I may be white, but I’m half Filipino and Jewish which is counter to White Supremacists preferences or ideals, that I not be Jewish, or not be a Woman who is treated as gay or bullied as pervert. I’m sure this problem has affected my reputation and what others think of me, so while the average person, or victim, may not consider me helpful nor sees the value in individual addresses, I think its best to be clear at this point in time, to all, who could possibly be helped by me, and not exclude you all from consideration, since there have been so many acts of crime in the news, it only makes sense to be online with a clear purpose to help reduce recidivism and the impulse to commit crime.

To: Men, Straight or Gay

It is clear that by being bullied I am suffering from maybe a middle school sense of humor and issue or introduction to a word, most referenced by men, in a typical social interaction, that is usually not considered harmful to anyone’s health, to call one another names and make jokes. I grew up around my older brother and his friends, so I am familiar with them making fun of each other and that playful bullying, that is not taken to heart and they are still friends anyways. Since I work alone, and sometimes get voices, and experience bullying on occasion, and not close to many people at all, having worked alone and studied alone all these years, it’s just not a type of interaction, delusion, voice, that I am familiar with, or have experience interacting in that way with others, putting one another down, or anyone I am not friends with or close to, ever think what would they have any interest in what I look like, body type, face, voice octave, personality, likeability, attractiveness. I’m sure for all the reasons I am popular online, it’s not limited to connections, friendships, or what I look like. I’m sure that there is more to appreciate about writing, beyond what the writer looks like, so it’s safe to say that it’s not that, and if its not because of what I look like, or confused as to whether or not I’m attractive, date, or wonder who likes me, I have been liked enough times, that that is something I’m not wondering about, looking for, or concerned with self-esteem and confidence wise. I’m pretty focused on my mental health, which usually keeps me away from being close or social with anyone, beyond blogging, so those are things about me, I hope to share out loud, and not be mistaken as a hot or not joke. I’m sure I’m not hot and not pretty (I just try hard to keep myself in shape and stay put together), and I’m sure that’s very clear based on all the weight gain and weight loss, and time self-improving.

To: Woman, Straight or Gay

Right now is a pivotal time in women’s health, and women’s rights. It wouldn’t be helpful to not also discuss the #metoo movement, since I have been sued twice for Civil Harassment, simply makes clear that I’m not comfortable helping women or men who are victims of harassment, and although in the past I have worked at places that provide assistance to victims, I’m afraid that my record and identity has been changed to not allow me to provide services to victims of harassment. So this is good to know, so while I’m writing to all online, I am sure that I am not someone who is capable of writing about the #metoo movement, since it does not include me, and since I have been characterized as someone who is “harassment” which is beyond me, but if that’s the truth, and if that’s how they felt, and if that’s not my personality, or what I intended, then I’m sorry that these individuals, who I confided in and became close to, decided to drop me from care, and I am sure have sought other resources beyond me to assist them with their best interests in life. I will however not change as a blogger, and do my best to be independent of others. So while I may never talk to anyone again in private, that’s a personal decision I have made, and that also includes not subjecting myself to being hurt online, if my condition or symptoms are causing me to be sick, then that is something that I will not share about, including the conversations that I have in person with the people who help me, that’s my privacy, and everyone has theirs, so hopefully we can agree, to all leave each other alone, and not become too invested in anyone period, including me as a writer online. The closeness you should feel is toward yourself and those around you. I’m just a blogger, and I’m sure as a writer and a person who reads, I don’t expect anyone to remember in detail anything that I have said, so will always do my best to be brief, and if I have time for detail can write a research paper with citations on a original concept that I come up with, or is posted online.