Re: Kanye West, I wrote an article for Level 21 magazine, spoke about Mr. Pelosi’s attack, stayed positive and cut my hair, that’s not allowing anyone to suffer personally or allow a problem feared to escalate, at that time.

Whether its an auditory delusion, called schizophrenia, a make believe research team, or being called delusional because you blog and not credited for your stats, it is always up to you what people think and feel, that’s whats coming from you. The more you don’t care the more you get hurt, the less all sides can relate and appreciate your writing, the less threatened people feel about their purpose, interpretation, meaning derived from content witnessed, with appreciation for medical and professional improvement industry wise overtime. To me bullying voices, is something that causes me mental illness, and mental disturbance, and even though I can’t explain that without being hurt again, Im sure Im suffering based on a disbelief for how I was hurt, and without recognition for all I did to be proud of myself again after being humiliated. Maybe those are struggles that aren’t a big deal to others, or not witnessed, or for all I know what you consider to be code, to remind me and constantly cause me to relive what that website said, makes it impossible to recover, or go to therapy to be treated for PTSD, and there is no way to prevent bullying, convincing me Im sick, or being used as someone who is supposed to be well liked, get hurt, or accuse me of hurting others. The solution to bullying was to have a companion, a DA helped in the event of voices, but trust that no relationship, no guy, and no woman, can help me if Im bullied, and I get the point of “rubbing people the wrong way” its accusing me of speaking inappropriately, or in a language that doesn’t make sense or isn’t hard work, I don’t give jobs to people, whoever they may be, I do the work, to spare them the time and effort in having to start from scratch on their own. That’s how success helps others to produce, sometimes making things okay, requires continued discussion of whats wrong or what the issue is, and maybe I will never be understood, maybe self harm or suicide or voices is some kind of joke that’s become about accusing me of not loving myself working hard staying fit and modeling, out of some preference for me to sound ugly, change my voice octave, or characterize me as ugly and fat or mentally ill, I can’t make anyone look at me and like me, it’s about who I am as a person, I can’t convince anyone to not like me, Im not hard to love, Im not unaware of synergy or wellness, it’s clear that my health suffering through the discussion of the word pervert, or addressing the holiday of masturbation, not enough to pave way for acceptance or not injure people because of who they know Jonah Hill, is harmful to me and Jonah Hill to be called pervert. Get that being loved isn’t some dress up show face instant attraction, you have to be well, innocent, have a future, have worth, that’s able to sustain the comfort of another human being in knowing you, I think all sickness does is harp on whether or not you suffer from bullying or rejection, and I don’t think that’s my issue, focused on myself worked hard to get a job. That’s the road I was on in life, that’s what I had to do to get a job, and its sometimes not worth complaining about how you were harmed or your feelings are hurt, which doesn’t explain whats causing mental illness, or creating some delusional fight to call me delusional and change my writing from positive and helpful life advice structured, to hearing what I sound like hurt and upset, no one can relate to someone who after all this time, is suddenly sick and it being their fault for what they have done or said. Voices can be justified by any theory or hypothesis, to convince me, or others, of some quality about me to change my stats, or make fun of my inability to have a companion or date, that’s sickness, something you have to be well for love, it’s not selfish to say hey Im going through something not to affect another, it’s another thing to suffer from voices, while Im talking to an ex-pen pal, to bring up something that is a big deal, no matter who is successful now, it’s my interpretation its my growth and able to love again, nothing is about pretending Im famous or loved by everyone, will not occur until Im successful, recovered and earning money able to take care of myself. Sometimes being threatened or losing my confidence or being taken of meds, and disabled, isn’t the solution, sometimes taking me away doesn’t prevent mass shootings, and sometimes jail is no excuse for trying to make me famous for being sent to jail or make fun of a Shorty Award, if so I will continue to apply to Shorty Awards get permission of Brady to present my solution for mass shooting prevention, not some random topic joke trying to be hip. Consider bullying and calling me a pervert, are directly related to characteristics of mass shooters, and don’t forget Boulder CO was white and not racist, at peace, and don’t forget protestors saying the Jews control Hollywood, some pretend anti-semitism threat that’s not half true being on IMDb not offended by or scared by, including the flyers in Glendale, there were flyers at Boulder library, and especially not Kanye West, is no demise that Ive not spoken to the authorities about or suddenly didn’t support, or let anyone suffer or be held responsible for any aftermath, including what happened to Mr. Pelosi.