In the age of crime, violence, mental illness, economy booms and plummets, and epidemics and pandemics affecting the entire Country, what do we need less of a reminder of, things not working out and on what basis, usually what doesn’t work out is something that causes a pain or feeling of loss to people, its an overall condition of things being well and being being well by what is going well, that is the overall feeling of things being good so good that people feel good, and that’s what makes the world go round, everything else is an FBI charts and graphs study on crime, therefore what writing is not, for experimentation of history reality, race relations, story, or religion, I think those systems will always be in stone and work by themselves, I wouldn’t say that any one person has a system that works for others and doesn’t work for themselves, then what is a job, a job is a place where you live and thrive, so that’s my writing and blogging, and upon me being well others are well, so whats not a job getting sick, so what the joke about getting sick, that a job should end or that who you are working for rejects you, then what is life about, who’s fault is sickness or limitations and how long should you be able to stay well places in life and for what reasons is a person made to feel sick working or doing what they love, what are the causes for not belonging, if you’re not present and able then you cant work, and no one can tell you how that condition happens to people, not mental illness and not schizophrenia, ability to work is based on nice profile pictures on linkedin it means you’re able, so what does disability say it says that your mind is gone and you’re gone and that its over sex or something stupid something to blame you for, so whatever is the issue that comes up for someone else who knows you, becomes something that you are viewed through a lens of what another thinks and that’s how you lose your identity and that’s how you lose your wellness, when someone upon observation of you connects with everyone without you, so that they feel comfortable and spoken to like humans and you are ignored, then what causes mental illness, I think in the age of riots racism crime and gun violence people don’t know what to say and what people are well by is something people are naturally threatened of being taken, you know no one can take your money your job your life your home your friends and your loved ones away from you, there is no system of an entire family being rejected on the basis of any child who is mistreated or rejected, and ultimately justice will be served when a person can represent themselves, and no one is needed to help them in life, and that’s how you know who’s gone or why people are gone, and that people are not gone because of who you think is gone, or grose, misguided, not focused, having sex, making bad choices, a life that’s out of control is also not a life that’s working everyday, therefore what is the type of comfort that a person should feel in a job how long does it take to adjust to working full time, without pressure 3 months to know if you can keep going or if you’re not gonna make it, so if that’s the time frame to be paid full time basis and earn a living supporting myself, that one opportunity for me in life was destroyed on the basis of things not being good enough or right in the minds of others, and that’s gun violence, something that people know you support brady, but no one supports you doing any volunteer work or philanthropy its something that people think is too serious. What’s serious is mental illness and schizophrenia, what’s serious is not what my issues are it’s the issues that are created on the basis of crime and gun violence, I guarantee you that you will not be able to solve a violent offender by hurting me, and that by hurting me you will not turn me into a violent offender, and I can guarantee that if you hate gay women or bisexuality or femininity chances are no one is feeling good by you either with that kind of attitude in life, and chances are if you are calling people pervert, you are unhappy, you don’t like your life, you don’t see the value in others, you think peoples bodies says something about them, and your image of crime is an ugly face and a ugly body, then you don’t know what guilt is and when a body gives out on them or why, and that’s not what a woman’s body is for determining who let what go in life, a person who is organized and works from home and goes to law school didn’t let themselves go what go let go was the radio and music and barfed so a flyer campaign was a nice gesture in faith in music loving music my whole life. Not a gun violence code school shootings joke, chances are if you are not affected by school shootings you were never made to care and it didn’t affect you and an avoided subject based on your life being good and not wanting to think about anything bad happening, and that’s okay you don’t have to think about something to care about an issue and a problem can go away caring, and whatever the solution is its not treating people as small, or turning people into “abuse” jokes, or “rejection” jokes, people who committed school shootings, who are either dead or in jail have chosen to live life in that order because of what their life looks like what they know or what they say caused them to hurt others, and that’s a school shooter, a woman who is hurt or bullied is not hurtful, I don’t watch porn, and I’m going to stop studying gay and will not explain it to you, and be feminine I’ve been working towards being a proud woman my whole life, I don’t need to masturbate or love anyone or work anywhere to love myself and to be loved, and being uncomfortable fat disfigured and getting voices is not worth being gay for any reason that anyone would get bullied, that’s not genetic what’s genetic are people who don’t get hurt think they’re smart and then hurt others and hoard money and complain and drink and spend money do drugs and live lavish lifestyles and you think they’re been through a lot, then complain about someone who has less and act like I’m anyones struggle in life, you don’t know what my life looks like because no one recorded in public the times I was harmed or who was harming me, so don’t mistreat me like I’m being anyway harmful to anyone, what’s dangerous is code and disrespect that’s what stands out as being wrong, people with money pissed off and mad at people who don’t have money or who ask questions, you will know who is offensive or drug addict when someone on drugs or alcohol tries to build a blog and no ones reads it, then you will know how F up the system of respect is, that people have money and get F up, and don’t end up in hospitals, and you hear people say the F word and think that’s tough that means they know the limit, what is the joke is not me drinking I don’t drink Im not guilty of driving under the influence I don’t drive drunk, I don’t have sex, I don’t date on apps, and I don’t do a lot of things so the dirty life is the life that ruins the good life on the basis of targeting people who are well and ruining their life before they have had a chance to live life and work, so you want to know my opinion on minimum wage improvements, that people who are paid should be respected on the basis that they respect others, and the more happy people are, the less offended and pissed off they will be thinking they’re doctor and labeling who’s gone, criminal or deserves or belongs to be where, so what’s funny is not what’s about me you think doesn’t belong on the news, I don’t deserve to go to jail put someone who does drugs and drinks in jail and stop putting people in rehabs make them go to jail then you will understand how mistreated a person is, I don’t need help and to be told or shown the way out, what I needed was someone to talk to, so me building a website and being successful means that don’t take me the wrong way, you have your money and your job and your life, and don’t affect and infect my life my job and my source of livelihood writing, or criticize who I love, that’s not pedophilia I’m almost 40, why the F would I model and make anyone masturbate to me, why the F would that be the solution to gun violence, why the F would you take someone of value and make them give love to people who are mentally ill giving up and buying guns and being a F up human being, who’s responsibility is that. So don’t compare my success as scary, stop gun violence and school shootings and start putting people with mental illness in [treatment] if you want to stop mental illness and put them on schizophrenic meds, that’s what they did to me, its not my problem, or my medical evaluation that should determine who is wrong or on drugs or gone or unintelligent or the problem, that’s society’s job to pick and choose who to jail.

Published 04-20-23

Updated Statement: Clearly based on my experince and recovery people hope for the best for those who suffer from mental health issues and mental illness voices or suicide, since I was able to overcome disability on meds and by careful adjustments to reality and improvements I am now able to work and manage a blog and also stay out of court and not get in trouble, which is what most people would wish for if they ever had mental illness, to be able to be represented and to be able to do things and be things in life, that they wont get in trouble over what anyone thinks is wrong with them, thats not what punishment is for, people not comfortable with eachother cant help eachother cant work together and wont feel good together, and thats a judgment call, not the truth, as far as Im concerned the Santa Monica courthouse doesn’t like me because of my flyer campaign, and they were the ones that published depositions and embarrassed me and my family caused me suicide. That is why when sued at their courthouse that caused me suicide at home and self-harm, voices.

05-14-23