This is why I’m in psychiatry and therapy once a week, this is my right to privacy.

If you need to complain for any reason, find any writing untrue or unintelligent, if my truth and discussions are anything you don’t trust or find offensive. Please feel free to submit your complaints to: https://wordpress.com/abuse/. I have done my best, need to protect myself from harm. It’s no longer a game about pretending like things issues or words don’t hurt, and be clear on my boundaries as a writer and publisher, that I deserve to be paid for my work, not continue writing for free (I deserve to publish books, I earned that right), like it’s not possible for me to be hurt. I have done my best, it’s not my job to change.

Due to recent suffering, relapse, and self-harm, it’s clear to discontinue writing on X for the time being, set it to private, discontinue sharing photos or participating on Instagram. And to focus on my mental health, and see a Therapist and a Psychiatrist who do not think I’m schizophrenic.

That is my right to improve and be treated, and is no one’s right to prove me wrong, or create for conditions that I can’t fix, can’t solve, and which no meds can prevent, I am beside myself, suffering.

Let’s be clear on my writing, and who I am and what I sounded like, and in what way I’m suffering by insults and diagnosis, that encourages bullying, a negative take on my life, and results in negative judgment of me. I deserve to be at peace, happy, care free, working and recovered. I refuse to be judged for things I was, in an effort to prove that I am something else different. If the purpose of writing is to help others, and if I am harmed, let’s be clear on what the truth is, and what’s hurtful. Then let’s revisit how after several attempts to address voices, they still don’t stop. Then let’s address my privacy and figure out in what way am I disadvantage or why anyone to convincing anyone that I’m mentally ill, inappropriate, or offensive, then defend myself and refuse to talk to anyone. That’s protecting my peace, once you start hurting someone, to change my center of gravity, health, and writing, in a way that cannot be proven, that’s a waste of my time and energy to change my writing from positive and helpful, brilliant and original, to focus on what hurts and why voices is a disease with no cure. I think my recovery proves that you can overcome hellish conditions, in which you fear for your life, want to commit suicide, self-harming and suffering, no one can help you at that point, you can go to treatment, but ultimately it’s up to you to be able to get a job and have a life again.

So let’s pretend voices are people, who actually don’t like me, and have decide to call me that. If I’m doing my best and know why Im alive and what my job is for, and who is being helped 300k, then I’m under no obligation to respond to hate, prove them wrong, be changed, or suffer based on any negative opinion of me, that’s my right to defend myself. Saying FY simply means if you hurt me, it’s not my job to be liked by you, needed by you, respected by you, I don’t have to be in your life, you don’t have to know me, and you can go on living life, without reading, or following my life. I’m not out here, having celebrity friends in life, where I need to be questioned on whether or not Im doing anything wrong in private or wrong in public, eventually defamation occurs the more you allow bullying to win. And if I have to spend the next 1-4 years defending myself and battling disability and voices, then that’s how long it takes to not be attacked, be well liked, and to achieve solution. The more you let people create excuses to be angry or aggressive toward me, it’s better to not be hurt by something you can’t solve, what men or women want, and who they think I look like or question what’s real. I cant afford to be punished off day meds, I can’t afford obesity after running everyday for years and losing weight the hard way, isn’t a joke, or the heart condition I suddenly have. I am clear on what treatments I underwent for what diagnosis, I have also been clear that I am writing a book on battling schizophrenia to the best of my ability, to help inspire others struggling, that they can work and live life normally, and don’t have to suffer in silence, and that help is available.

It’s not my job to struggle in public, be humiliated, change my writing or numbers, or content, or waste my time and energy upsetting me, and think that writing is made by someone prompting me. Writing comes from me, I don’t need to be controlled, affected, changed, or injured, to change my content to match what issues are to address by “bullying voices” its an incurable disease called schizophrenia which has no cure, shortens my life, and is convincing me I’m going to die, is that word.