In case it wasn’t clear writing quotes for years and making cards, about what I’m about or why I ever got sued, the common issue is to not talk to anyone, and go to therapy, I have no other story to tell personally that is deserving of exposure or any condition needed to be explained by me. As far as Im concerned my mental health is my personal business HIPAA protected, and that Im not allowed to be watched or investigated as though my private and password protected photos are anyones business, or allege death in consideration or comparison to any of my work. If its not clear how my life has been made worse, since attending court and getting a job, it will be for the reasons by title or appearance online, that everything is taken into consideration, should anyone decide to hurt me for any reason, or accuse me of failing to be someone online read with 300k views, accuse me of endangering myself, or my family, or anyone I know and love, that’s not a good reason to be online, to justify attack or mental illness. It’s clear once the lines are blurred, and not in need of me getting sick or not liking what I have to say and continue to curse and humiliate me online, is something really bad that happened to my mental health, not preventable by sobriety, treatment, court, attorney, or therapist, or explainable by any medication. I think once life becomes too much or chaotic, that’s a time when you have to focus on your health, I think this whole wellness idea, of reading from me and be accused of having a deadly disease is not justified and is not the solution after attending law school to be called mentally ill or used as an example of what mental illness is, and discredit my education, degree, work history, or medical history is not what I deserve, even if I didn’t curse or didn’t sound mean, if voices continue, then cursing could lead to deadly consequences should I self-harm or commit suicide, this is a struggle unlike any I have ever experienced in life, and there’s nothing about mental health or voices that I should be familiar with or question as to how recovered I am or what my success rate is, it’s clear that for things to get worse, mentally physically, politically, or sobriety wise, I really don’t have a solution, for why Ive changed to anything unhappy or disliked, I think non-acceptance for me successful, and changes in care, or disability has only made things worse by not allowing me to get well and work, and I don’t have a solution for what is found to be true or the purpose of making me sound sick, or calling me hurtful and offensive things. If Ive done my best and that wasn’t the solution, and if moving home or going back on meds, required too much time and energy to figure out what to do with my life, or talk about court, then that’s a waste of two months I endured struggling, and any period of being tired or any phase of my development discussed, amounts to whatever Im expected to relive upon sickness, which doesn’t explain what is expected of my blogging to help others, and to encourage people to get help, and use my success to not instill fear, upsets, or complication to anyones life, viewpoint, sexuality, likes, views on race, war, fires, or politics, I think it’s a stretch to accuse me of not being well, and that to label me sick, to suggest to others that Im sick or disabled in a way, for them to not empathize with, not see as important or harm, it’s not for me to get anyone to read, to know me, look at my pictures, or watch me suffer or get mental illness from voices, I think whatever I have done to overcome this issue, will take a year or more to recover from and go to therapy, call my sponsor everyday, not drink, not speak in public or write in public at any government building, continue to battle illness on my own, and do my best to explain to the public what Im going through and why, and refuse to be disassembled or injured with some low expectation of me belonging anywhere anyone considers guilty or criminal. I think being watched and loved is one thing, being watched and viewed in the negative, means to love myself, ignore everyone, and not let any solution be sacrificed, as though Im forgetful or not a team player, I think voices don’t comprehend what sickness is and feel justified in hurting me and calling me schizophrenic and if that’s not the solution, then only I can be in control of what happens to me in life, or court, and cant afford to hold discussions on twitter waste my time and energy writing or be tired pushed or shouted at, isn’t world peace isn’t funny and is not how you treat a woman, nor does accusing me of being gay, after seeing me or who I loved, not proper to reinforce being called pervert and schizophrenic by someone who I don’t know, who keeps talking to me. It’s clear that the solution is to be honest, and my emergencies or disability inability to prevent voices, doesn’t require a med or turning my brain off, to remember what life is about, nor does ruining my life, cause me to open up in a way, that I should be accused of withholding anything. Writing everyday, losing weight, going to therapy, battling voices and continue to figure out a solution is the solution for not being mistreated as sick, and to misinterpret my medical records or whats on my mind, thought processes, or educational history, isn’t explained by hospitalization, and not being able to recover face permanent disability doesn’t mean that I need to stop figuring out whats wrong, or be accused on a level serious and scary, as though I need to be confronted or treated as stupid and be ignored is hurtful and also not the solution. I deserve to be well, and move on, work and get a job. I don’t deserve to be made fun of questioned, take my websites for granted, or be accused of being sick when Im not.

So being well and writing articles and being positive is who I was outgoing and professional and helpful. It’s never a good time to work, get paid, or model is clear on the basis of who loves me or continue to pester me with issues concerning my body type face or personality try to change me or accuse me of enjoying life or anyone period, I loved myself and enjoyed my blogs and self-worth, Im not alive to take care of men or women on the basis of sexuality isn’t my job or my campaign. I think its wrong to compare me, I think its wrong to continue to record myself or be seen by anyone, and I have every right to discontinue wanting things in life, that become ways in which I get hurt, simply means to focus on my health and staying well. Wellness isn’t anyones opportunity to check in or accuse me of creating a shared space online, wrongfully accuse me, or call my website or blogging sick. I think I was too open and too vocal, and too nice, and too welcoming, and too helpful, and at my expense am being hurt by whoever over whatever for whatever reasons not by any conversation or preference for me being loved, but with a preference for me to be rejected and not get what I want to be well and not end up in the hospital, to be well and help others, to be well and not get sick that’s what I want. To confuse who I am or mistreat me and just let people watch me with hate means clearly theres no good time to work or be loved, and so long as complication to my health is caused, I don’t have to help anyone other than to be honest, and be clear when Im not doing well. That’s the most medically sound solution for being hated and not know where its coming from. That means don’t message anyone, don’t talk to anyone, don’t have sex period, don’t work and don’t apply, continue to fix my life, it means not staying sober pissed off by voices, it means not being allowed to drive to court or speak to a judge, and if it means I should be killed or die, I certainly didn’t ask for it or deserve it, and I certainly didn’t endanger myself or my family look bad online.