04-22-23 — I’m sorry for shouting recently, that happened twice on my Twitter and I have never shouted at anyone in my entire life, and not especially online, so that must be the “snap” that explains why I’ve gotten voices attacking me, expecting me to sound angry or ugly, whatever breaks, is not your character, its your ability to function and to speak to work and to write that is your brain, therefore this brings up the important lesson in attachments in life, that if you do not feel good by people someone who does not respect you who goes through your computer may feel good watching you and controlling and slowing you down and ruining your website, and they will see clarity, but you will not and that’s mental health, you can look at me and read my work, but you cannot be me because being me, is stressful, there are many symptoms, and you need to take meds to deal with all the physical disability that you encounter as a result of having to worry about things you shouldn’t, like whos watching or reading, or who is slowing you down, in the end it is you that is one paper and in photos, so that’s who will be transferred to others, not my physical health or condition unfortunately, mental illness is inability to assemble thinking thoughts feeling or work, it’s a complete disablement of your ability to communicate, that’s what results in tantrums or self-harm, it’s the official breakdown of you physically upon bullying or torment, and that’s what causes you to hit your head, or me, its too much stress up to the head, to hit the head, or too much aggravation to the heart to make the head snap or brain crack to see what you sound like in pain or what you have to complain about or how you talk about the reasons or from where it could come from. Ultimately science doesn’t know how people become writers, so Im sure that anyone reading also does not know how a writer is made, maybe it something that you should try yourself, before judging someone who is a top blogger, who is able to write, it’s a skill, no matter what meds you are on, and you either are able, or you are not able based on your words, is how others will feel. So how am I able to write normal, that by virtue of the fact that voices are wrong and at peace when I shout, proves a point to them but is not who I am. Im not offensive I keep to myself, I don’t bother others, and I report, and live a disciplined life, there is nothing secretly wrong with me I don’t do anything wrong in public or in private, until recently shouting on Twitter, that’s after being sued and attacked for 3 months terrorized by my attorney and threatened trying to scare me that I started to take care of the problem myself, I am not guilty of harassment and no one has the right to scare me hospitalize me or put me in the ER or jail, no one has that right, not a pen pal, not my attorney, and not a doctor, no one is me, therefore whats too much is being treated l;ike Im too much when Im proper, and for people to mistreat me like Im difficult when Im proper toward everyone, so whats improper, would be mental illness, when your brain stops working and you hit your head or shout and that’s caused by voices bullying you, is how that happens, its not genetic, its called stalking and hacking, people connecting to your body, and expecting you to read them or to write what they think and that’s a misuse of a human body expecting me to take care of someone else body or mind or to get sick, don’t steal my heart, don’t steal my identity, and don’t threaten me, and on the basis of someone making me suicidal, I shouted about the issues, how would you feel if I talked $hit or didn’t like women, or didn’t respect you, how would you feel if you got pulled over and sent to jail or didn’t finish your JD, how would you feel not hired or let go from internships not paid with promises to pay you, and how would you feel put in the hospital off adderrall if I go through a lot and change and try to do less, and people complain then that’s why Im back on adderrall how could something be wrong with me off adderrall then it is your senses as connecting to me that you want predictive power over, and Im not an offender Im not going to attack you, Im not going to F you, I will not think of you, I don’t care what you look like, Im not checking you out, I don’t want your body, you are not God, you have no right to connect to me change my body, Im not your child, I am not the love child of any couple who is having sex and then treating me like theyre my mom, when I am the one who is taking care of everyone online for years and writing to the courts, while everyone else is paid, why I am the only one prepared to help others navigate through a campaign and support eachother and stick up for eahcother, and let go, or focus, or achieve, or try harder, when things are good people can think.

So Im sorry for shouting at women who did not like me and just wanted to talk to Todd Spitzer and Im sad that they know of me or met me and didn’t respect me and didn’t want to help me, and its sad for people to not talk to you and read your blog, no not everyone is reading, and who was reading doesn’t expect for people who meet me to be so selective and accusatory and prosecutorial over what, if its not my fault then I don’t have to address crime for the rest of my life, and I will not use my blogs or my story to explain or try to prevent or negotiate any reasons for any crime at any point in time, and maybe you can ask the women who attacked me to write two websites and to explain how a campaign works, and to explain gay to everyone and what is gay, and what is womanhood, and how to get jobs, not attack me on the basis of who you are or what you think I am not, I loved Todd Spitzer, I was the most chill I was the one who was modeling for him and being loving, and instead you attacked me like his Campaign Manager was his girlfriend, when she was working and a stand in in life, I was the one with two blogs popular and with connections in life in the form of viewership that people were participating creating content using a basis that has been to court, calls the police, and FBI, so they know what they can say.