What’s outside of my control, is what my attorney can do for me, the Judge, the party suing me, and what is going to happen to me in the future and no that doesn’t mean sickness and suicide, that’s something that’s in my control. What’s not in my control are things that I cannot decide, that will be decided and argued by who is talking in court, which is not me. I have to continue living my life no matter what happens to me. Lawsuit doesn’t mean stop living life, it means a limit has been set as to who you can talk to and why. It doesn’t therefore matter if you loved and supported a person for 3 years in private and in public, in an acceptable way, once your love is not needed, or legally being made to appear as though your love or support is unwanted, that will be for the judge to decide, in what way is my support helpful pr unhelpful, and in what ways did both parties improve and not have been hurt by eachother, or the film entertainment and music campaigns of others, which went by what I said, that this was who I loved and why I loved him, either supporting my infatuation or not believing that my love was real. I think love doesn’t seem real once you date and if someone has sex with you, that generally ruins love, and whatever feeling of feeling at peace at at home with another person is lost once a person has sex with you, then you feel uncomfortable and you lose your feeling of feeling good at at home with yourself, it’s a comfort that another is provided that you lose, that’s what sex is, its your confidence given to another, that makes another person feel good, that’s sex, in exchange for being loved, you give love, and sometimes upon giving love, we lose a piece of ourselves, that stability is called confidence, either you give love to people who make you feel good, or you get hurt giving love to people who don’t deserve you love. Therefore this lawsuit brings up the issue of the value of my love and attention, not having a paid job at the moment and only an unmonetized blog without being an official celebrity best friend and published author, there is no monetary value to my name, therefore my influence is unknown and the category of the number of people helped and who have achieved success by my blog is not recorded and unknown and the basis upon which others assemble for the positive based on my assemblies in life is also unknown and not monetized, therefore it is not fair to miscredit me and at the same time not credit me for what has been assembled and of monetary value to others. I think in the haste of profiting off a system of labeling people criminal or associating them to criminals. Its become a free for all, of devaluing me, and using me, without permission or contact, to create something of value directed at me, or with mention of me obvious, which is also not the solution to building value elsewhere, cannot be based on a criminalization of people to use them without their permission is not a proper basis for criminalizing a person. Just as you cant convince people what they are thinking or doing is wrong, at the same token it would be hurtful to convince me that what Im thinking or doing is wrong, no matter what the diagnosis is. It just so happens that two simple rules are serving as the basis for hurting people myself included, thinking that “feeling” is what is going to happen “reinforced” or that thinking is “wrong” or means that something is going to happen therefore when Im not writing, people are not sure what to think or feel and therefore think that they don’t know whats going to happen, or why things are the way they are, and are not feeling anything, because they are not hearing from me hearing what Im feeling, which is the system that Ive been placed on, whereby if I don’t provide, then people don’t know what to think, people are not sure of how they are feeling, and if I get sick, people get worried, or question the basis for me feeling sick or ER. People think ER means suicide, or 5150 means inappropriate, it can mean many things, if you cant function, work, you feel sick, you feel powerless, theres nothing you can do, circumstances are causing you to give up or feel like youre dying, then yes go to the hospital, like I did. That’s quitting blogging, its to allow myself to look like a joke, and its to make people think that I give up or not credible, what are awards for, its about being presentable and approachable, and if you cant be those two things then you cant win an award, it is also based on what you say you do, do you continue to provide solutions based on what you have promised and have provided, is that help continuous. In addition, people are not sure if the job I was offered is real or not, and need Bank of America to do a second review of the check and contact the creator of the check, they tried to close my account and called the check counterfeit, if the check is not real they can talk to who provided me with the check, on the basis of me not having any money, and not depositing any money to my account and owing $12, after I had a job and was depositing checks, they tried to close my account, because no funds were being added. Im sure when people are giving you a hard time in life, it is because they think anything or something is your fault, so that’s how life is people treat you like there is something wrong with you based on how they are feeling, and that’s how people are, something could be wrong with them, and there can be nothing wrong with you, but on the basis of what they think, seek to make it true about you, that’s why you cant let people hustle you, prosecute you, and make you look bad for any reason, or bully you for any reason, that’s not the solution, and writing and being intelligent is the solution.

Published 04-17-23