I did my best to address asexuality or “masturbation” on my researchforhate.com website, providing support to those who choose to abstain, not be required to disclose whether or not they touch themselves, be exposed, or outted, or discriminated based on their sexuality. So much about being a blogger, keeping neat, is exactly for that purpose, wellness to the eye and ear, a visualized wellness whether controlled by me how I look, or tainted by any changes to me, it’s all about accepting how followers are earned, gained, or what traffic means not imagined. To what extent is who you are true enough to be respected or be trusted, and what type’s of issues provoke for lawsuit, or wrongful prosecution of you or disqualification, and why. Let’s focus on the word harassment, as an independent person who has lived alone her whole life and had to build her career on her own without connections, was a hard earned acceptance.

I think once you include sexuality as an issue, however the word “pervert” was created, or made to be spoke about through me, the damage or injury to a person who hears the voice “pervert” or gets judged as inappropriate or make real using the word “pervert” in connection with my identity and sexuality, is everything worth fighting for and preventing.

When I said I lost my battle with voices, that means I took meds, sober, and could not figure out how or why and had little to no interactions with anyone, not a public figure, or living a life ever unrecorded, so in what way are lawsuits and word “harassment” combined with word “pervert” or admission to hearing this word, aggravating and why is it hurtful prompting me to change, and discontinue living life, sobriety, or have fear of self-harm or suicide, it’s because I have committed suicide I worked hard to stay well, it’s because I was hospitalized, that upon opening up I get sued, this is because I know OJ, this is because I was diagnosed as schizophrenia, and it is because of an auditory delusion using a word I don’t say to be reported through me, that I get misdiagnosed, or accused of having problems sexually, you consider the word “pervert” to describe me, and don’t see the threat or mental illness created or reasons for punching my head telling voices to stop some imagined struggle I lost to in life, and have no solution for, medications or sober. In the end, it makes me wonder until what point, or until what type of change or dislike or rejection justifies using the word casually, and make the word “pervert” about who I am.

I am not a reject, I get matched, I modeled by iPhone and love myself and could have tried acting (had one audition) and plus size modeling (I’m allowed to work I’m trying to be at the top or rich or trying to live life), but instead no job or career path is working out for me, with risk to my blogs and twitter being destroyed, based on who I was, compared to what I sound like upon reporting hearing voices or needing to constantly say the word on my blog without being able to prove why Im hearing the word “pervert.”

To me you sound one way online, and upon talking to me, and so long as you judge a person who takes good care of themselves and others, as something they are not “perverted” it’s until what kind of human being should you be to be loved, trusted or treated like a human being. It’s a sad fact that Im not strong enough to change or be made fun of in public, and it’s not what’s wrong with my sexuality, if I love myself and take beautiful photos, and that’s important to watch or witness, what is the issue that Im overcoming, compared to which words are used to hurt me, and what type of fan site was damaging and caused me disability.

Sometimes you wont know what the struggle is, using OJ or lawsuits to size me up as a human being, and I reserve every right to fight, [email who I know] or [battle] accusation as I live my life, is for me to live, and not to make a joke out of my life, or use sexuality, as something or a word “pervert” to make fun of my head, weight, or body, I don’t need to change for anyone, I need to run on the treadmill everyday. So calling me “pervert” using voices to punish me, and describing it as a battle Ive lost, is whoever doesn’t stop hurting me when I say stop and doesn’t stop injuring me after having a heart condition or heart attack, and that’s the problem with the word “pervert.”

Im a human being I reserve that right to convince anyone of voices that don’t exist make a word a reality heard more by mention isn’t the solution to bullying however it occurred. I think to not model anymore period (is how to overcome mental illness associated with everyone being nice to me supportive getting jobs given meds and continue battle voices everyday an incurable disease that no treatment or location can fix), because that’s an aspect of being human, that brings up disrespect and voices “pervert” and I don’t need to commit suicide or punch my head accuse me of hurting myself with a word or set of words I cant prove and are not true about me. In the end my life story or details is not for anyone to judge me, and the solution for mass shootings, is honesty and speaking to each mass shootings, until they are prevented, it’s not about making fun of me or blaming me or using the word “pervert” to treat me like a guy or force me to say “fuck you” and do everything I can to stop voices, that’s the kind of hurt no one is entitled to causing me. I refuse to live a life that tries to make sexuality some secret uncomfortable experience they expect me to witness or describe other people by, it’s not who I am that anyone thinks I like or am bitch to any human being in life.

If you consider OJ “some excuse to hurt me mentally” or hurt me and seek to make me famous or made fun of, you don’t respect my life, my thoughts, or what code is, or deserve or entitled to what the solutions are for politics or mass shootings, I never asked for anyone to believe I was smart or use any degree to free from harm, it’s because Im smart and successful Im being called “pervert” and I don’t have to adjust to a word that hurts me, and I don’t have to stay sober or talk to anyone if that’s the issue being addressed through me. So in every way anyone is trying to prevent me from being loved, or focusing me to take care of anyone man or woman, is not my job in life, to help anyone when Im harmed, and is not my job to love anyone, if Im being harmed, and no my job to talk about OJ, if Im being harmed, and no ones business what any lawsuit was like or what I looked it. Mental health isn’t an excuse for anyone to not misunderstand you, or funny to be called a threat, being called “harrassment” becomes a way in which your life is ruined and subjects you to being beat up, and people pretending their victim and create this delusion of me being inappropriate or offensive or inappropriate.

The word “pervert” means someone who’s sexuality is offensive, it’s calling someone a sex crime, or accusing a person of sex offenses, its trying to further use a diagnosis improper of schizophrenia and cause for attack and injuring me before the second therapy session with a new diagnosis. So whatever anyone is trying to make true about is, is for non acceptance of me as a human being, not pleased by anything or any outcome, for my career choices to be jeopardized by the word “pervert.” In the end I know my story, and in the end the problem is what my life is and what it’s not, and I refuse for anyone to make sex jokes about me, or call me things Im not. It’s clear if Im being called “pervert” Im being hurt to call my love unwanted or grose or sick or offensive or continue to accuse me of being sick behind a computer having watched my whole life and improvement, and using emails to hurt me, lie to me, wrongfully accuse me, or think low of me. I refuse to be called “pervert” and for anyone in life to beat me up, think Im gay, or offensive, or accuse me of being hurtful to men or women, I was loved and I was loving to everyone. If Im being called something or accused of having sex problems, or if anyone decides to use the word “pervert” then make fun of me cursing doesn’t care if I commit suicide, doesn’t care how mass shootings are affected or not prevented, doesn’t care about reconnecting with friends, doesn’t think Im a solider, is hurting me like Im a man, and is insensitive to who I am as a woman and human being. So long as you use the word “harassment” to belittle me, or hurt me, I refuse to be angry, I refuse to be seen or give love to anyone, I deserve the right and fight with equal force anyone using the term “pervert” to call me mentally ill. If no one cares if I die, then its time to focus on myself. Life is about helping [others not] being hurt, or wrongfully accused, life is about, not harming anyone, not being accused, and not be changed to match words “pervert.”

Perverts are sex offenders who touch and molest the wrong fucking people of different ages and disabilities, considered rapists, who are “the worst type of offenders in jail” (as disclosed by a patient at a residential facility in OC called New Journey) and get beat up. I don’t deserve to be labeled something or use the word “schizophrenia” or “pervert” to beat me up in life. Im not being selfish by being honest and it’s not shocking to know why that word is hurtful and offensive and why after all these years of working hard, don’t deserve that word in the least bit, let alone “harassment.” Harassment means not work for anyone, refuse treatment, defend myself, protect my job as blogger, protect my recovery and improvement, and to say if you call me “pervert” and wrongfully accuse me of sex crimes, and if you use the word “harassment” to entitle people to bother me hurt me using the word “pervert” I have every right to fight for myself in defense of death threats or being beat up, and that’s not the solution to be hated or face dislike. Means you don’t care who OJ is, and you don’t care who I am, therefore I don’t have to work with anyone for the rest of my life, and deserve to be given time to talk in therapy, not force me to discuss how offensive the word “pervert” is or make fun of me deciding to not talk to anyone for the rest of my life.

That’s not justice accusing me of pretending to be someone Im not in writing, or changing me to something else using words, I think Im clear on Im doing everything right, Im clear on my disability, now Im clear on how hurtful and offensive the word “pervert” is and instead of making fun of my writing, and deleting all public discussions, its best to be myself and prevent mass shootings, and refuse to be called “pervert” or prevent me from modeling or being loved, consider the problem with the word “pervert” and think about who your disqualifying or suing, before you enable anyone to beat me up, give me a hard time, and wrongfully treat me as offensive, entitles me to fight back, stick up for myself, and not accept death or disability as solution, for who, to save who, to compare me to who.

Making me fat and refusing to let me work, isn’t the solution, forcing me to talk to people who called me words I said were untrue, doesn’t make what he did okay, I don’t have to be blamed or normalize that kind of anger. And if no one respects my sexuality, then I refuse to be open to discussion of sexuality period.

It’s clear when people stop treating me as a human being. And it’s clear on what the threat is, calling me “pervert” and beating me up isn’t the solution is un-american racist, offensive, and killing me doesn’t protect anyone, that’s not how people die or how you make fun of whos leading government or me by innocence, its trying to kill me in public, ruin my life, entitles no one to attack me.

If I refuse to be hurt called inappropriate or “pervert” it’s who I am proper that is being changed. I don’t have to talk about court, go to the hospital, be helped by anyone, if the problem is using the word “pervert” across my face my life, name and identity that’s not helping anyone, and so long as anyone continues to use that word, I refuse to help anyone, or entitle anyone to sue me or complain, or make fun of what my blog is, or what the solution is.

No one has a solution for my mental health that Ive not discovered on my own experienced and overcame. And when I say the word “pervert” is offensive and untrue, it doesn’t help to be called something to scare me, or cause self harm, to make me paranoid or uncomfortable in the face of anyone, take away from my beauty, or animation, or who I am online nice.

Again if voices are calling me “pervert” all you have to do is take it to court, call the police, or call the DA, to figure out how to put me in jail, I think using my 4^th step and ruining my life, causing obesity, job loss, or destroying relationships, isn’t about who I am or who Im for, or what Im alive for, it’s about why should I die, get sick, or be bullied outside of court, and whats so funny about that.

If you misinterpret what the code is or what prevents mass devastation, then you are wrongfully destroying my life, accusing me of having some trauma or something bad happening to me anyone can see or tell by looking at me. It’s not my value or how I suffered that any mass shooting happened.

So long as you call me “pervert” I can prevent mass shootings on my own, without any campaign without helping anyone, and refuse to be treated as an offender, or make jail jokes, or use OJ to beat me up and call me “pervert” it’s clear what the issues are, staying alive for myself, being important on my own, and prevent mass shootings using my blogs and my writing, and refuse to be called something sexually offensive or be wrongfully accused of anything worth rejection or call me sick.

If that’s what people think, I give up, Im not alive for anyone accusing me of being offensive, making light of a fan site, and Im not obligated to discuss any of my reports or responses to mass shootings, my story is not your entitlement, and the solution is not to be used as some “fuck up” or ruin my life cause me suicide, and act like I need to get over how I was hurt, so long as I improve and do well in life, that’s refusing to be blamed for death or sickness, or wrongful prosecution of me for fucking up.

I refuse to be blamed for any mass shooting, when Im doing my best, and so long as you use the word “pervert” making fun of my blogs, or changing my content, I reserve every right to continue to describe how that word is offensive, and refuse to love anyone or be close to anyone is how you find solution is beating up a girl (me). I have every right to shout FUCK YOU, and don’t deserve to be made fun of, and so long as Im alive anyone can report anything, I don’t have to be watched and hurt, all I have to do is prevent mass shootings!

Additional Statement 5:37 pm

People who use the word pervert do so with anger and hate. People who use the word pervert and misdiagnose me are disabling me and trying to kill me and end my life without using a court to determine the offensive or appropriateness of the life I’m living or how it’s handled in relationship to how anyone else is doing or who picks who. I refuse to be used or abused using my life or privilege in knowing me to hurt me change me or continue to aggravate me try to age me stop my life or prevent work, is not the solution. In addition it’s my job to be successful focused on what matters to me in addition to clarify how the word “pervert” is being used as anger directed at my head or body knowing I can sing and write model and feel good try to introvert me scare me or cause harm to me. The injury is too late to fix the years lost are too late to be given back that’s not a lie. And a different diagnosis doesn’t entitle anyone to make me look bad or use the word schizophrenia to prove any kind of mental illness other than what I’ve disclosed or use auditory delusion to make fun of my experience hurt injured.

My solutions for preventing voices strategies that didn’t work and ended up in hitting my head so badly it’s the equivalent of suicide self harm:

2017, no TV, on Abilify prescribed adderrall, no drugs or alcohol involved learning blogging or how to build a website, and breaking two side tables made of wood and destroying 3 droid cell phones didn’t work to figure out how voices are caused heard.

2014 running reporting one experience hearing chatter non existent that turned into accusing me of being sick running anywhere or mentally disturbed.

2017 after leaving a meeting and hospitalized twice not returning heard the word “derelict” or other words that caused me to hit my head shouting leave me alone and stopped wearing rings and jewlery.

2018 bullied while returning to my car from a run reported before hitting my head and accidentally fractured my hand before the fire in Malibu which occurred after my job in film. And her award or movie content being used to compare me or accusing me of getting sick working full time or her association to a Pulitzer awarded work, make fun of my call the Pulitzer before @ then too much and being blocked.

2024 while dating Rob, not ready to date after being special and getting job and dropped as a patient sick for no reason and making fun of my emails or any address period past being dropped make fun of me.

2022 still not overcome no matter what bedroom I lived in, or no matter how nice my pictures were, no matter who I talked to period or what was seen or done to me. There was never a time (2021) to now that self harm was ever not something I went to the hospital to get help with isn’t a joke, what causes suicide or what hurts upon self injury or disclosing if I hit my head get scared then can’t connect or be w/anyone.

2024 after 7 months of treatment and instability being in court not told what’s being discussed with confrontation and job loss and losing my Dad and OJ continues to be about why I’m well or who for or who’s proud of me makes the word “pervert” unjustifiably offensive or make fun of my phone call to Pulitzer to identify which word is a potential issue doesn’t mean using a word is the solution to make everything reflect use of an offensive term make all interactions uncomfortable period not what love or help is for. Or make fun of my one time photo nude upon being asked to take photos for that to be something addressed to Fox News and scotus as being the problem opposite to later getting voices or creating hellish conditions in my life or to my sense of peace isn’t deserved coming from any known causes or neighbors. I think I do my best to live life lucky to live nice places. Constant report of voices or what they say or sound like is being used to hurt me or against me and discredit me for my work online or changes to the diagnosis of schizophrenia and what websites have to say or which meds promoted as solution.

My solutions were discussed in therapy for a year since made fun of occurring again for whatever reasons and refuse therapy or discussion on Twitter for my best in a permanent way discuss how hurtful it is to use a word and use any kind of deadly force to my head or body mistake me as harmful or dangerous or violent misread my medical diagnosis or definition of normal. Or what observable change should be seen by court how much success do they need to see. Why does destroying my life to accuse me of not being hurt serve as a questioning for how mass shootings occur to label me mentally ill not prosecute me in court with my writing and evidence of who I am!

Solutions used to combat voices:

I would say “I can’t hear voices” to myself.

Therapist said “these are not your voices.”

Offended by schizophrenia websites.

Offended by disability incurred diagnosed.

Offended by making me sick again.

Accusing me of not being a life coach.

Punching my head shouting leave me alone.

Discussion on Twitter still got voices.

Breaking cell phones before slamming my head into a wall, regardless of when I was sued or what happened shouldn’t occur.

Discussion on my website. Still get voices.

Taking as prescribed hurt or made tired.

Forced to speak in mental difficulty make fun of what I sound like hurt head injury.

Take it to court!

Right to not be diagnosed schizophrenia and be attacked by people who think they’re smarter or more well than me not accuse me of being hurtful to anyone period!

Recent solution that doesn’t work:

If saying the words fuck you in response to anything period makes me look bad, doesn’t solve what hurts, causes me to still be attacked doesn’t prevent voices, and continues to create for discussion of two issues the word “pervert” combined with questions of what the solution is for mass shootings, and using a hate website to say what went wrong for me provoked any kind of mislead belief about me prompting a reaction of that sort doesn’t mean it’s okay to hurt me or take from me or use court as any excuse to investigate any mass shootings or my connection to Brady (emails) or misunderstand my mental health. That’s the issue with being called schizophrenic it’s not about it not being a big deal to others it’s about in what way am I harmed and how do my feelings not count. Or what makes it okay for me to get hurt. I did decide proving all over again prevention is a committment I’m willing to make. I didn’t forget who I am or give up.

Update: Just went to AA in West Hollywood I guess there’s a march. Parked found a spot and two cops walked by me saw where I parked and walked in front of me late to AA. And messaged LAPD HQ my two posts to shooters and post on this issue word.

Update: 06/12/24

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