The next time I fall in love, I’m not telling anyone, I’m not sharing their picture, I will only share pictures of myself for others to go off of, not to share who I like to inspire others to act and react as though that’s a relationship to be destroyed. My relationship with Todd Spitzer was destroyed, because of my record, because I did not finish my JD and I’m not an attorney, because he is married, because I was trashed online by an Ex Pen Pal, and because he doesn’t need me or my support, and has since told me to stay away from him. I’m not allowed to work for Todd Spitzer who I believed in and thought could help me, and I’m not allowed to blog about him or anyone he knows, because he has since decided to sever all contact with me, which I’m allowed to share about in public, how I feel with no support, with no Therapist who recently dropped me after his office called her, and after my Psychiatrist dropped me as a patient with a job, that I discontinued working because he told me to go to a County hospital. What is out of control are people taking their anger out on me, and treating me like I don’t improve, I just listened to 50 Udemy tapes and improved and I am doing fine, they are telling me what I need to hear, they are not telling me that there is something wrong with me or talking to me like I’m schizophrenic, that is none of anyone’s business if and when I do get voices what they are saying or who I think those voices are, I don’t have to be apart of anyones research or science or experiment in terms of what the causes for schizophrenia are and I don’t need to be mislabeled schizophrenic so that people study me in the wrong, or mistreat me or shun people away from me in life like I’m a dirty subject. What happed to me in life is dirty and so it continues, if people think you are dirty that is how they treat you to see if you shout and sound dirty or are someone who is vindictive this is how people try to put you in jail to get you to fight or threaten people, me not being loving is not a threat, that’s me being told that I am not allowed to love Todd Spitzer, then I will have to find a new motivation in life for improvement and staying alive, which means to protect my sanity, my freedoms, stay out of trouble, speak well, and be allowed to talk to the police and courts, given this is a very serious campaign against violence, and for who my advices provide support of and in spite of which crimes have led me to openly assert that those are my current grounds for blogging. So its not to invite people to participate, its to gently assert that there are risks, and to not offend people including myself if you are coming up with ideas for solution to help others. Not to infringe on the ability of people to help others in life.