Voices is an unrecognized struggle, by which your story isn’t treated as cute, and you are bullied as though your memories or recollections are not stated with sensitivity and care, that’s being disrespected in life, when coming from a story of value, what you have to share of value, is used against you to hurt you and mistreat you as mislead or misdirected by any other life other than youre own, who are you proud for and who are you strong in spite of. I think it would be wrong to use my memory or experiences for insulting me as “schizophrenic” or “gay” at this point in time, when you have made my life and my sense of being a struggle difficult to comprehend and prove with my own mind, that’s the point at which I should not be mischaracterized as belonging to any other groups or not belonging on the basis of what I say or where Ive been be excluded from consideration as someone who cares who worked hard and never immune to the difficulties of others, and not a turns into joke, about my work experience either. That’s the problem with reading my work and sharing my life, an being called schizophrenic, its something that has not occurred yet a condition, which is projected to occur, and when it occurs the worsened stage or assumed end potential of what a person is capable of, without recognizing their improvement after everything they have been through, recognized as someone who learned of their condition, and improved on the basis of recognizing in what way they could have gotten sick, and also not to relive any circumstances that would result in them being hospitalized and getting voices. So its not that Im rejecting of those communities “homeless” and “gay” I don’t wish for my life and my struggles to be categorized as something to later accuse me of being places I don’t belong, or a group not made stronger by me or my life, or how I have lived my life. Whats even more hurtful is to love Todd Spizter and be accused of harassment, and mistreated as gay, which is not true, therefore the conflict of interest is based on what my sexuality is and what my diagnosis is the the cause for mistreatment of me, and misdiagnosing the issues of comfort, its clear by sexuality and disability women will not be comforted by me made stronger by me, if I am harmed or not loved, or shouting, and men will not be comforted by me made stronger or more proud, by my life getting worse, so what I learned is that by selecting to go to the hospital, what hurts my head are voices and the issues are described not respected for and wrongfully mistreated as though Im hurtful to anyone I love or anyone in common known, the lesson is that who you are in private and the progress that you have made, can be shown and be made in public with or without love, modeling or dating, and what gets worse are voices, if so further convinced that you are anything bad seeking an end result, or something being made true about you, as though terminology used to degrade you is an end point or an eventual happening of something later being made true about you, like some directorial experiment of shouting at you and you turning into something less or reinforcing voices by becoming something to be viewed in private or recorded in public, as something to dislike. Based on my experiences I think taking things down to having nothing is the solution based on who I was well nor respected as having struggled or recognizing the seriousness of things and what is climate of those around me, tolerant, or not deserving of a difficult time, so that much is not understood about you, in times of lawsuit, its sought to be proven what is wrong with you, and to vierw your improvements are delusioned or someone who is told to stop and doesn’t stop, and then gets voices that don’t stop when you tell them to stop, a harassment joke. Im sure I wrote statements in the past, whether they worked on not to explain before things became difficult for me medically, is not the issue, the issue is in what way am I a joke for ruin, and in what way is what is done to me not deserved or should not be a justified treatment of me. In the end who am I with no one and no job, and how am I able to overcome a difficulty, without self-harm or becoming suicidal, it would be to not suffer from mistreatments in life hard to me head, and also be not mistreated as a person who says anything that’s hard for anyone else to hear, I think discontinuation of my weebly website, is relevant to the voices Im getting, and the upset portrayed and sought changes to my face are a reflection of making fun of whats in me or what Im controlled by or influenced by so connecting to not one is the solution. Because it was not respected for me to be out in public, later getting voices, and getting suicidal, means that voices need to be stopped, and hospital is not the solution, and what was mistaken as hardship or criticism was judgments made by women, expecting me to get sick, or get well by their judgment, I think by the time someone doesn’t trust you and thinks you are sick means not to talk to anyone, and the problem with being hurt, is who is not responsible for you being hurt, and anyone thinking that life is about treating you as things that youre not punished for or not in jail for, so that’s not a joke, offenses, sexuality, molestation, rape, these are not jokes, its not okay to call someone “pervert” its not okay to call me “pervert” its not okay to diagnose me as “gay” eventually who you are is a product of what is accepted by you, regardless of what voices say (or in the past have caused) I think by now its safe to say that any reaction poor or suicidal as a result of voices, reflects something that someone thiks that Ive done wrong they seek to punish me outside of court for, this is how sexuality and discontinuation of loving relationships and friendships is a solution, so there is no better life, past bullying, and no better life, past addressing bullying or defending yourself, and no future gay pride, past the point of being called “pervert” and no future time for being in a loving relationships being accused of harassing Todd Spitzer, be mistreated as someone who doesn’t have something that is being provided by them be accused of providing anything else in life less than satisfactory in communication with others, so the current upset is being watched and pushed over the edge and being made fun of for being scared or mentally ill and ending up in the ER, and for that to not be a logical not deserved threat toward me, and no later justification of “schizophrenia” is proper to accuse me of being capable of a worse reaction or accuse my complaint as being cap[apble of hurting anyone who even if I was hurt, never blamed them. So comprehend that difficulty the point being, not to be helped by anyone, and stay home, misunderstood being out, and upset not comprehending positive experience out, and communications not relevant to my health or for cheating or looking stupid, lets me know that upon being watched things don’t work out for me, that’s when judgment is passed, and since I am not valued as a person in connection with, me shouting for voices to stop and committing suicide on Vyvanse when I was being taken off adderrall, means that my positive spirit isn’t respected as recovered of having explained a diffilcuty or addressed voices enough times, to say that its not justified, that Ive not harmed anyone, Ive bene healthy and have not used any titles or groups to be strong randomly, and strong by my own story, and also have done my best to not be categorized for insult or bring me down or any other group down in life, so who is not protected is me, who is not believed is me, and in order to represent myself  I need to be alone, not seek help, recover from voices, and suicide, and do my best in life, so this is me scared, sick, everything serious, and that’s doesn’t justify voices either, when I say stop, I mean stop, it means don’t hurt me, stop hurting me, that’s not the solution, you can take it to court, that’s not a threat, Im honest about my health and sexuality, and my health is just as much about me getting along with everyone and not getting sick, as others don’t want to get sick or be weighted down by issues in life, had I not worked hard for 10 years, I would know better than to allow myself to be some schizophrenia joke, so Im sorry if you cannot be helped or cant relate, Ive done my best to make my blogs positive, overcome voices, eventually anyone harming me needs to stop trying to justify harming me, by changing me or causing me physical pain and suffering that cant be reversed, and that’s not the solution either.