Desperate courage looks exactly like that, shocking but true, requires clarification, certainty, and enough positive revelations, that undo both the harm to you, or others, in figuring out the exactness of how things have happened and occurred. It wouldn’t be fair at this time, while the Secret Service is being interrogated, to not share about my own political studies and experience with trying to contact political figures and share about myself, apply for jobs, and improve to the extent, that I receive an email reply from the US Supreme Court concerning a job I applied to 2013, and was told similarly that it’s a year commitment, and now to be eligible need to live in the Washington DC area, so in private, if you’re into “Email” news stories, that would be what’s happening in private, along with job applications, and emails to Brady my Attorney or whatever other government organization I have thought to contact. Im sorry I didn’t do such a good job keeping a phone log, that would have been helpful and did my best to keep copies of visits and travel and always wrote actual reports to FBI that would actually concern them, as advised by phone or by the internet of where to submit what type of complaint, along with all the LAPD Rules for filing a complaint online, is difficult. So no matter what stage of mental health you have witnessed me in, or no matter what my diagnosis is, or attitude in life, present or past, or reoccurring as some pattern viewed as relevant to how Im viewed, in the end, what matters is that if there was ever a time when I was violated or if there was ever a time I needed help or advisement, that’s how it started with a call, where I have experience talking about whats going on, and you get feedback, and told whether it’s a police matter, an emergency medical matter, or something a hotline, or the police can help you with. There was never a time in life, when I was kicked around or bossed around powerless, I have always been strong in those respects to do my best, even with punishment, do my part to prevent losses to me, embarrassment, shame, humiliation, and self-harm/voices/or suicide, I think Ive done an excellent job reporting and submitting things on time, if later it’s a period in time in which I am not submitting reports, or contacting the courts, is only relevant if you see being not responsive to an assassination attempt or taking down posts relevant, which is why I am writing this post now.

I do have experience with “negotiation” and that was the one problem faced in Texas, disclosed by their Law Enforcement in regards to what happened that day in Uvalde. Being a member of Brady, and during the course of my own career, and interactions with others, has also required continued negotiation and undo-ing death threats Ive received or hate emails, and it’s taken 4+ years of improvement beginning February 2020, when I was in first contact with this person. Who didn’t know me, didn’t know what I have done campaign wise, and was also not affected by me knowing OJ and Nicole Brown Simpson, went ahead with demoralizing me in public, which sure he can apologize for and change, and sure I can move on, and upon bringing up can affect my mental health, but what’s more important is that continued negotiation by me, is an everyday battle since experience that, and blogging is not always an everyday battle battling voices, or people reacting in defense to people, or quick to judge me as failing, again I never addressed shootings as simple, it’s always been something Ive referred to as a commitment, something you dedicate your life toward, and something that you care about that is work that isn’t hard for you to do, is where your heart lies. So please excuse a post taken down, referencing someone who used to bully me as “getting what he wants,” I’m sure not one wanted President Trump to be shot, and what should be discussed are what are people’s stopping points, in terms of respect, and what’s too much. I think it’s too much to know who I know, and also witness the wealth of the Kardashians, and Im sorry if anyone cannot configure my career path or life, or success online, perceives it to be anything in competition toward anyone, if it’s a subject Ive addressed then it’s something Im thinking about, and willing to discuss, and maybe his guilt in terms of making a fan site, didn’t amount to what could have possibly caused an assassination attempt. The only way anyone could be insulted by him hurting me, is to equate my standing in life, or admiration or work ethic or success by me as imagined and not credit 10 plus years of work figuring out what to say and how to write and how to begin working with others, contact people, create campaigns or actually talk to actual organizations or donate, takes time and effort, is not something easy to do, to be in contact with important people, so being someone who is trusted, it was a constant insecurity of that being portrayed of me, or for that portrayal to continue to challenge whether respect is at play, I think if you think I’m not respected, then you are questioning the protections of a President or former President, to not credit me for all the work I did to change a threat to requesting me to say “goodnight and good morning” everyday, after many times stating I need to work on myself, I’m in recovery, or not feeling well, or don’t want a relationship, and should also add to not take it personally, in the event that I need to work, or need to think for myself, that it is not always okay to have an influence over me, or to watch the effects of an influence in my life, to determine what’s hurting me, what is said, or what I think and I think that’s taking the whole mental health analysis too far, to ignore my successful negotiation over a period of 4 years while being treated and improving, regardless of my losses, I don’t wish to be held responsible for what someone has done to me, nor do I think it’s fair to use people such as my Dad who was proud of me and believed in me, or OJ who was proud of me and once told Sydney “why can’t you be more like Leslie,” was never anyone who was trying to be anyone else in life, let alone cite to a public figure Nicole Brown Simpson, as though I’m a poor representation of what type of beauty and intelligence she represented as someone who didn’t deserve to be a victim, nor should I be used or changed to make such an argument that I deserved to be a victim, or use public figures to justify what you think is delusional about me, and continue to ignore who I am as a person, and what has been done to me, that’s not the secret, that’s not code, ask GoDaddy that was a crime, and that is not a legal representation of facts or who I am as a person, and if this person cannot respect the permanency of what he has done wrong to me, I don’t also deserve to be punished as though I’m mentally ill, or criticize my intelligence or influence in the world as anything other than “careful and with permissions” is how I have been at every stage in my campaign or blogging experience, its for the approval, is what you work hard for to be a public figure. It is a shame to have wasted so much time, harping on voices and mental illness, and to continue to allow this person to affect me and enable people to judge me as less than, for the simple argument to accuse me of being a loser or someone who has brought down anyone in life, trust that if I’m up and have shared all my stats I’m not lying, and if those have been my goals for many years since 2019, blogging everyday, then it is also true that publishing a book, is for the same reasons to, not to be something to ruin, or a position to lose in life, based on what anyone has to say, or use my private spaces and conversations to judge me at a time like this, when someone is still contacting me, and everyone is using me to look good, and tired of defending and writing opinion on hugely controversial issues, such as the word “N” and “Gay” and “P,” and don’t wish for the years of effort I have put toward responding to those types of voices to not take me for granted, or abuse my private spaces. I’m not Hillary Clinton, I’m Leslie Fischman and I’ve been in politics since 2013, and have represented many clients as a Law Clerk in law school, it’s a shame for everything I was, turned into characterizing me as something else, and for the resulting voices to take their toll on my mental health. All I can say, is that shooting prevention, doesn’t require calling me mentally ill, influential, or responsible for anyone committing a crime to be famous, is not something I have already accounted for growing up knowing OJ, and I am aware of those statistics, and I am also not someone who fails in negotiation, or fails in battling mental illness, as you can see is something I have survived, discussed and have taken risks with my own life, to implement corrective measures to allow for people to not be affected, by failures and losses, doesn’t make me responsible. I think because OJ was accused of wrongful death, there was experimentation with destroying me or bringing me down in life, to see if people improved or if affected and I don’t think that anyone anticipated for death or suicide of celebrities to be an ongoing issue, and certainly I never made my story frustrating or sad and never caused anyone death or suicide. I think someone who accuses me of hating them or trying to hurt them, is someone who hurt me, and has moved on an apologized, and like me doesn’t still know why it’s such a big deal about what he did to me. Is because if you think I’m not respected, you are accusing me of being unwanted or not respected by famous people, who you are accusing me of being unwanted or not fitting in with high profile or wealthy people, to accuse me of causing death or suicide, and that’s the unstated reason that continues to justify a hurting of me, in defense of who has hurt me, and in order to solve wrongful death, you first need to have a clear picture of what I seem like or sound like or how I’m known, and I don’t think anyone knows me as a disappointment, or difficult subject, and I’m never doing anything carelessly or offensive, I think if you are strong that’s when you can be accepted, and I now consider illness or feeling sick, about being viewed in the negative in defense of someone who has hurt me, to justify disrespect, to them blame me for lives living or taken. So if you haven’t known me and don’t know how hard it is to build a blog you need to write everyday, and if you are questioning whether my blog grew and was helpful during COVID, then I’m sure I can write everyday and grow my blog, with less COVID, hopefully fewer losses, and not need things to be at the point of learning after the fact what I am important for, good for, or what my life means to others, if preventative, then its in my best interests to stay well, get well, and not be taken down by people, trying to blame me for experiences in life, I have experience with, and compassion for, and not misread my attitude or effort as signaling guilt. There can only be so many ways in which you can speak about topics generally, before its necessary to be specific and that is in response to him not saying anything, and for him to be at peace, means that I should speak and figure out what could be issues everyone is facing, and also work towards getting a job at The US Supreme Court as a blogger, get to move to DC for a year or 2, and continue to be a writer and try to publish a book one day. First things first, (1) symptoms (2) reports (3) prevention (4) ongoing negotiation until the threat stops (5) when the threat stops take responsibility and do all the work for everyone waiting to hear about what’s going wrong so (6) what’s wrong doesn’t hit anyone.