I know there have been moments Ive struggled in private and I guess online by sharing, that was both difficult for me to get through, and Im sure for my readers to witness or hear about. But I wouldn’t share if it didn’t help to make things better with voices. I think blogging helps in many ways, prevent the onset of voices, or whatever the causes for it are, unwanted connections in life, or hacking, or unwanted influences in life, no one wants to be controlled in life or watched, and I wouldn’t be who I am today, if I had allowed myself to be subjected to that kind of treatment in life. I fought really hard to get to be this way now, and stay healthy, and still be able to have a life. I know that my plate may be heavy right now, with court stuff, attending meetings, and doctor appointments, therapy, and psychiatry, but I hope with the right people monitoring me, things will get better, maybe just a little more positive reinforcement is needed to improve sometimes. I think Ive had enough of the terms, labels, and words, for one lifetime, really set me back mentally, and was really challenging and difficult to get through those issues in my own words, and prevent voices from happening, to make my life a living hell, be tortured for the rest of my life, is not my dream.

Letting the dust settle means its okay to have open discussions, about whats going on for you in serious and traumatic moments in life, I wouldn’t share my life, if it wasn’t intended to help paint a better picture of the scope of issues, even if it doesn’t relate to me. At this point sometimes its unclear what world peace is or what the solution is in being popular on a global scale, if we aren’t sure what type of solution we need, and if we are not sure of what the problems are that are being faced right now mentally, then I don’t think it will be easy to keep up with figuring out what is needed at any given moment in time. So I appreciate the leniency and gratefulness that Ive been met with, for having shared my life story, feelings, and opinions on things, mental health related, and issues beyond the scope of whats on TV, if it didn’t come to mind and was important to say then it wouldn’t be said online, if that’s a good enough explanation for when things change from life advice and self-help writing or articles on a normal day, to political or entertainment ideologies factoring in. It’s important to be aware of who you are in the grand scheme of things, without getting too confident, in an unverified identity perceived as known by everyone, or a story that is famously heard by others. So I appreciate the connection between Eminem’s new album featuring tagalog and a Filipino rapper, and would be complimented if anyone related that person’s journey to be recognized in music in general in a number one album, to anything intended to describe my journey as an author, advocate, and activist, or public speaker online, underground or written everyday online for the public to study, for many years now. I guess the most important way to connect the dots, starts with what I have to say and what I look like, explain what Im going through, try to figure out why I am going through what Im going through, and try to fix my life, so that I never get hurt or sued again, and for those reasons sometimes I need time to rest, be alone, and not be bothered. When so much is going on, you wonder if its gang related, and then second guess my affiliations in life, or question where I come from, or what my associations are in life, I think identity theft taints your image its like having your face removed, or you as a human being not detectable by another, or face issues with being wrongfully detected as carrying the energy or something off putting or not real. The only person I need to answer to in life, is the Judge, for everything else related to names and controversy I just have to do my best, to stay well, and not live in the face of a constant dilemma of how and why bad things happen, and continue to be the person I was in law school who left law school to figure out how to help everyone, and to me that’s who I am, not someone who can focus or do other things or carry on in life, when somethings wrong in the world, elsewhere.