In order for things to get better and not create a mental health crisis over responsibility or to what effect improvements, change, or bad happenings occur, sometimes being separate from a team and figuring out on your own what to take seriously or fix or correct means you aren’t thinking just for yourself and sometimes that’s all that’s needed to address something being wrong if not with you, or because of your writing, also means for no one else to feel like something is wrong simply because of what’s said or because of what I go through personally. -I think when I blamed myself everyone left, if that means anything.

I’m okay I’m worried about everyone else. Despite being in court as confusing the subject has become whether or not to support me. Based on a loss of following and support this past week or so after being unstable just means to continue working on what’s difficult and avoid hurt to any side as a consequence of delays or question for awareness of the problem with being too late or what that means. I’m sorry there isn’t an awakening to a better stage of difficulty when anyone can simply detach for minute once a team effort is made to contribute to a sense of belonging and combined effort to maintain wellness. Therefore reading into how things are doesn’t mean stop or back off it means keep writing until things ease up again, and to also accept as a consequence of sharing whether alone or apart of it not being about me and about everyone else means to stay well and be aware of how blame results in harms however convinced. I just need to make sure I’m not being blamed and to not put into existence some sickening truth I found out over weeks of writing I’m sure was never clear or make things more clear or better now. I think prevention is general is not getting sick and for no one else to get sick as a simple solution for figuring out what’s so difficult about right now, and what types of disappointments are my responsibility to overcome on my own, not be displaced in any feelings that bother or affect anyone else’s comprehension and assessment of right now or identification of who’s not well, or who’s at fault.