I’m not feeling well I am going through something personal and private that I can’t afford to discuss or be victimized or retaliated on or face scrutiny for or bullying or any kind of harassment or terminology or subject dangerous to my health or risk jeopardizing my own life and ability cost me my life and freedoms or health suffer or die or be victimized again as though suddenly my health or instability is anything anyone should take personally or something I’m affected by or disturbed by that is necessary to discuss anywhere in public or private. It’s clear there is no growth and peace and voices prevented if I’m suffering sick or suicidal and it’s clear things won’t get better constantly making fun of my head or diagnoses or meds continue to embarrass me or others or use words public or private to punish me or anyone period this is beyond difficult and complicated and it’s doing my best to not argue look bad or bring up subjects or call for destroying my life or ruining my life like my condition permits anyone to punish me in public if that’s the case then it’s best for me to not blog not contact anyone not bother anyone be alone journal focus on my health and refuse interaction with anyone for awhile until I’m feel to v many clearly being fragile or hurt or scared intimidated or bullied isn’t the solution for bettering the people or anyone else’s health. It’s better for me to discontinue sharing online not because I’m incapable of fixing my blog or stats but because it’s unnecessary to be hurt outside of court as though I’ve done anything wrong or disrespectful toward anyone else’s health in life be corrected punished put down or humiliated like it’s okay to end my life and turn people against me and reality isn’t something so difficult you just go to a hospital or meeting like you get to start over or can be cured or fixed like that prevents people from becoming angry toward you or politically torment me as human being.

In response to a general concern for wellness: It is important for me to get well and wellness is something everyone has to see and witness and believe in public and in private in order for things to go right for me in life or improve it’s to my understanding that at any point in time I can get hurt and for the reason to be believed to be something I don’t recognize it’s should be hurt in a way that I’m not allowed to live life or improve mistakes attendance or sobriety meds or weight loss as indicative of what I’ve done right or wrong in life I will continue to make every best effort to improve and get well not date or be social and keep to myself stop applying for jobs stay home take my health seriously and by not affecting anyone is to not make a big deal for what they are the reasons I ever become ill and do my best to get well and work hard so my mental health is never an issue attitude or style of writing or content I should be punished for as a make or break division for all to attack me or end my life ruin my life like my health or my feelings don’t matter mistake being online as unhelpful or accuse me of relapse or writing the wrong things in life the issue is not when I’m suffering or can’t identify the issue to save my life it’s when I’m being watched and if I die or get sick and why should I ever be someone watched or caused harm to confuse the motivations and feelings of others as being apart of inspired by things they can reply upon for support accuse me of losing support or punish me as though I have no faith or faith is lost in me and continue to make a big deal about not blogging.