It’s always okay to pause, start over, go lightly in life, things can be too much you can experience frustration or repetition of illness or self harm and voices but I’ve never lied to anyone about what self harm is instead of suicide or what not feeling good meant to me throughout the past 20 or more years to go to the hospital life is like that something you cannot see or tell being you in a position you feel sick or post confused defeated and the reality can be everyone loves and supports you and is not treating you as a racist OJ in life or unfaithful cause or representation of public speaking and the first amendment the issue is that I’m not black my dreams don’t matter to marry and have a child and decisions are being made for me in life to make those choices impossible not work out let alone punish me for having a condition recognized by text message that basically communicates “I’m not feeling well I’m not sure I feel harmed” and constantly responded to as though I have said something recognized as sick or cannot be helped with or beyond the scope of care received and that’s my loss in life. I couldn’t compare now to any other year in life except being in court I’ve noticed the enthusiasm in teamwork absent me and innocence and sincerity of letter writing and positive standing and continue to reflect of criticisms what I’m told to not do and continue to reflect on my health, what I’m subjected to what I’m punished for and have always taken responsibility for my mental health sexuality and what I’m focused on have never disobeyed friendship or sexuality but willingly partook in moments that was possible however the constant difficulty and reason for following loss of world wide audience is being criticized for blocking men who asked for vagina photos and don’t understand the repercussions or bodily injury to be photo and be exposed physically in private or by text as someone who hand signaled NASA in DC and absolutely declared to DC how things are gonna work and never underestimated the power of human research and recording everything in life 2013 on or saving everything and instagramming. What sticks is the insult, what’s not stated is the incident a “P” hat I asked in the hospital seeing one what does that mean explain that gang to me, he was delighted get book suggestions from me. I don’t think a fight outside Whaler of Compton beating up an attacker from behind black and making fun of him being pants by someone who ended up on the concrete the signal or fight broken up make fun of when I knew things to be dealing head on concrete and him winning punching him said stop while calling the Judge in OC the black guy who ran to alley escaped a fight and a hat left behind I took and wore of the person from Compton who offered advice spoke of his life doesn’t justify someone making themselves Paco Jazz saying their from Africa exchanging numbers represent my demise or anything about code comprehended by all said in my face in the end it was me who shouted Hawaii inside the Whaler and height up race asked to not dial stopped by the bar tender after someone friended me and squeezed my arm and had an injured reaction of talking out loud I apologized to the bounced for not there did that or criticize my relapse given a free gram of cocaine going to African American clubs sitting in a car all night can’t move mean I’m have sudden disability I need to explain not aware by looking at me no one disrespected me for. Sometimes what makes people feel strong is telling you to focus on something they accuse you of not working on and judge what’s going well blog as not something serious requiring hard work that demonstrates I’m not mentally ill just just don’t think it’s clear enough I’m neither saving myself or blocking anyone for unknown reasons related to race and take every insult and accusation seriously and report those incidents to the police, and to The Whaler.

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Don’t worry about my analytics or Cloudflare or #worldpeace we had a great run I just think stupid is super hard to comprehend and no place anyone is willing to go. #mentalillness