I’m sorry I wasn’t feeling well for three days, going through something private, with someone who was fighting me, but things are better now. I’m sure I tried to discuss it online in a way that classically makes me look bad and doesn’t help. I think taking a writing break is necessary in the event that Im not stable or struggling, or symptomatic, please respect that about my health. In regards to meetings and keeping sober, I am doing much better in terms of going to the required amount of meetings each month, and have done my best to stay sober, recently sober for 30 days in a row. I think voices is something that I will always struggle with as a result of negative terminology being used to describe me, or a side presented against me, is a natural reaction, to anything being held against you, or used against you in life, exposed or bullied, and that’s something I am overcoming in private through journaling, continue to figure out where voices are coming from, what are the terms being used or words I don’t use, think about what is causing that kind of attitude toward me, focus on my reality and everyone supporting me who is nice to me. Focus on the success of my blogs and my ranking, and do my best to sound normal and be helpful. I think in any time of crisis, whether that be mental health, crime, of shootings, it becomes extremely dangerous to blog and Im sure that that worsens symptoms, and Im sure that drinking doesn’t help my disability, but Im sure that not blogging is better than blogging or not feeling well, or being blamed or wrongfully accused of being sick or of anything under the moon. I think I did my best as always to make an extended effort to call or talk to the police in person to state my concerns in regards to mass shootings, and being a blogger, or not feeling well, needing medication, or even calling Georgia myself to introduce myself and do my best to quell anger or hostility toward me as a blogger or as a human being. I don’t think its delusion when my blood pressure gets higher and higher and puts me at risk for heart surgery, and I can’t afford to get sick and Im sure that no one else can afford to get sick. Sometimes I think rising tensions and sickness or illness, means to not blog and it’s better for everyone to just focus on their own health and not worry so much.