It may not be what I think that matters, but that doesn’t mean that what I have to say about life, is suddenly untrue or not helpful, as declared by another via insult privately or publicly. I consider anyone who turns on me, or considers voices to mean that parts of me are sick, if there is no scientific way of proving how you can hear insults or question where they come from, not consider a hate website full of negative terms a contributory cause, then Im at a loss for explanation of explaining how I was affected or punished In life, treated as sick because of what someone else did to me in life. And maybe that’s that person’s peace in life, to consider his misrepresentation of me not foul or the cause of mental illness, or worsening conditions during the time of cancer or death of a loved one. Life is short, and just because you are viewed as late, or taking too long, or questioned as to whether you are someone successful or a source of pride for others, consider what are the main concerns, concerning everyone’s health, in the event that anyone decides, to all turn on one person, or declare one person as sick, as a means to help everyone, remove me.

I think things won’t get better, if you continue to question the repercussions of defamation, number of views to those negative words, decide to question the beliefs of a person who can be affected by the words of another, question what is a guiding truth or rationale, for who a person is or what they look like amount to in life. I think we are mostly governed by what seems right and what feels right, and that feeling good and making sure that others feel good should be a basis for most decisions concerning the general health and welfare of the majority. I have never once questioned, how sickness can affect an entire population, we just experienced COVID, I think we are all aware of contagions, the air we breathe, and how disease is spread, and requires vaccination or in cases of mental health, prevention, or cure from the experience of illness, and maybe these are ways people react sick toward others, think justified based on number of readers, celebrity names, sex, or photographs, or weight, the issue is something internal to a person who is hurting you, who is not my responsibility to read into, or be responsible for his beliefs held or directed toward me. I learned as a blogger that not everyone knows you, and you may be successful online, but who you are in person is a completely different ball game, that you have to perform to standard as well look good.

I think bringing people down in life, would be to compare my website as some unnecessary participation in the development of life and recovery over time, and witness changes and improvements to a person’s story and ability to communicate their story and views on life, in a way that others can follow, and similarly grow themselves, upon thinking for themselves in life, in reflection to something that I have said. I think bringing people down in life, means to stay sober, because drugs or alcohol or addiction or not have measurable stopping points, gets viewed as misguidance, or sin, or selfishness, and Im sure participation in something that doesn’t work out or is not a professionally articulated solution for illness, become a source of punishment, in consideration for trending medications overall, and what seems to be the root cause of mental illness. I think mental illness is something that gets communicated that can be witnessed or seen by others, that lets people know if you are sick or not, and maybe that’s a type of assumed offense, that gets generated through terminology to either see you as sick until you get sick, view you as sick until you look sick, judge you as stupid or sinful until proven so, or not consider you well or good enough upon improvement as demonstrating the type of wellness that can thrive among others. There will always be expectation of you, I think the point of your feelings not mattering, or your health not mattering, is when you get viewed as secondary to the health and wellness of others, and that’s how putting you down, and be used as a way to help others, or convince others that your mental health, or taking away things from you in life, should make others feel better, and that’s when the guidance directing the feelings of others is changed, to view a person who medical history or disability as a threat, instead of valuing a person’s disability as educational and helpful to the next generation of people struggling in and out of the hospital, not denounce a person as responsible of having done anything wrong to deserve to be sick, or worsen a person’s mental health in life, by causing conditions such as voices and obesity, to make living more difficult, or to make hate or dislike more probable. I just think unless you can get up on your own, and prove yourself mentally, and get a job, people will not respect you and put you down to bring themselves up. Sometimes I think recovery and doing well, becomes a way people hurt you to get well, or make you look bad, to make themselves feel better, and that’s the problem with the justice system when it is used to convince people that a person who is disabled, is of harm to anyone, neglect to take into consideration a person’s whole life and medical history, decide that “the people” have a right to tell me when I am sick, or well, entitle them to take meds away, and allow people to hurt me publicly and get away with it, or think that insulting me or making fun of my mental health means that’s you are normal, or have it better in life, compare me to others, or entitled to cause me sickness, is wrong. That’s how the justice system fails, when people consider themselves as victims and decide to treat you as offensive, is how someone disabled like me gets abused put down in life, makes others hard on me, push me, punish me, view adderrall as unnecessary, when it is necessary to function and live life, and weight management.