How you handle controversy says a lot about you. I think sometimes mental health gets judged in the negative in the event that you have to express a grievance, or frustration, or complaint, or trying to describe a fight toward you or someone being combative toward you. I think taking a break from writing, made me realized in what ways am I made to open up, or be exposed during vulnerable moments in my life, or during changes in medical care, or medications, in what way are our weaknesses or inner stability preyed upon by someone judging us as sick, or trying to communicate to others some other truth about us, or our lives or personality, that intended to demonize us, or make us look bad, or deserving of negative attentions. It’s a lot to think about.

Without making a big deal, about a hate website, that’s hurtful to me and my family, it’s about what entitles this person to embarrass me or make me look bad or shock others about me, and what has this person experienced in life, or claims is wrong with me, that he thinks to hurt me and my entire family, or others online, posting provocative and insulting photos of me. To him “it’s the truth” about me something “shocking” I think someone who is trying to shock people by exposing my body online, doesn’t deserve my forgiveness, or attentions in life, and has made himself clear on his stance toward me, hacking, and stealing content from my website, stealing photos, and claiming to have the right to hurt me in public, or my family. No one gave him that right in life, to hurt me.

I think I have tried several times over the past few months, to talk to this person, to tell him to stop, to make clear I just left treatment, I don’t want a relationship, I don’t want to have sex, I’ve been open about court and going to therapy and changing medications, but still nothing that this person hears stops him from hurting me. All he can see is viewing himself as innocent, and is fixated on trrying to make me look bad, and continue to trash me online, and think that he is not doing anything wrong, and doesn’t think anything is his fault. Why pretend to support me, if you are trying to humiliate me, show pictures of my vagina, or naked body, and think that’s tolerable. Why make fun of me being suicidal or getting mental illness from being exposed online. I don’t think Im delusional, and I think Im being fair toward this person, and have a good sense of reality, and what my role is online and how to help others. And I don’t think that its necessary to talk to someone who thinks that his writing is better than mine, and thinks that its okay to insult me or use writing to hurt my feelings, and pretend like he knows me. He doesn’t know me, he has been trying to expose me since I met this person, within 2 months made a Facebook page, and made a hate website that damaged me and forced me to be on heavy medication for years, but still he doesn’t think that he’s done anything wrong. Then he tries to make a website again, and hurt me, and you know what at this point Ive given up. I have said I am not dating, will not talk to anyone for the rest of my life, need to focus on my mental health. Either respect my privacy and right to not get involved with anyone, and to not want anyone to be close to me or don’t feel comfortable speaking in private, and consider how abusing me, and hurting my feelings, is why I refuse to talk to this person anymore. And instead of allowing this person to hurt me, I am going to do my best to get legal support, and file a restraining order, so this person can’t hurt me, or get away with threatening me, and hurting me.