When no one sees your side, this is a way of alienating people, and isolating people in life, to get them to believe that everyone else is normal and they are not, or everyone else is related to and they are not, or everyone else is not punished, and they are. It really makes you think about life, if for every person that you meet where things don’t work out, becomes a person used against you in life, seeing through their lens as good and helpful, then view you as sick, or cannot be helped, or considered a difficult patient.

Mental health is something sometimes that others believe they can control, by telling you what to do, or convincing you not to write, to do nothing, to stop what you are doing, or stop taking meds, and to me that’s not the solution for normalcy, viewing me as abnormal. I think in many ways therapy helps, but in many ways medical care can become unhelpful is when your privacy is violated, and people think they are entitled, to hurt you based on your medical care, or medical history. I view therapy and blogging in the same way, requires an identification of issues, description of how you are feeling and why, and stated in a way that you can be helped, including to the public. I don’t think that therapy or blogging can replace each other, or even journaling, I think all writing processes require some effort and work, careful reflection, and ultimately progress is made.

The lesson is to never put anyone in control of your mental health, it should always be something that you have control over, a sense of normalcy, that doesn’t need to be provided to you, or a source of questioning in life and level of appreciation for being helped in life. Everyone considers themselves good, and normal, and altruistic, entitled to be in charge, to take charge, to give a person a hard time, or to view a person as not demonstrating the kind of qualities that a person should have that lets others know that they are doing okay, and realize what are the causes for them to not feel well, receptive toward help, and not be made fun of for sensitive issues.

Right now I am very sensitive to my name and image being used to communicate to my fans or following, in a way, that another person is trusted as a point of contact in regards to me, who I have not approved to speak on my behalf or have communications with the public about me, as a source or side of me not provided online with my permission already, is taking things too far, to expose everything, or treat me like Im some ticking time bomb of evidence shown or not shown, as though if the improper number of things are shown created by me, that I could get sick by my own content, I don’t think I would produce and save a content created by me, if it harmed me or others, that’s not who I am, I am not hurtful and I am not sick toward others, I focus on myself. Im an A writer, I identify issues well, I have been tested, I went to law school, Im allowed to sit for the bar exam, I can work as a paralegal, I have been hospitalized and able to recover and work again. I can date when the time comes, Im not criminal, and I don’t give people the silent treatment. I don’t block people, or punish people, or judge people, I don’t check profiles and don’t look at people’s photos, I focus on my own face and photos capable of creating. And I don’t hold private conversations in the wrong, or without permissions or approvals from the court and the attorney general. It is not for another person to wrongfully call me negative terms, or wrongfully accuse me of harassment, who does not know me, is not entitled, to use me to hurt me victimize me to make some point about me, with deadly consequences to me, Im “alive” because I keep myself alive, and I don’t need someone to post photos of my vagina, isn’t anything that anyone wants to see and is inappropriate, and not my fault. So take responsibility for raping me pretending to be Todd Spitzer asking for photos, and humiliating me in public and trying to ruin my life, critical of me, and using the word “love” to make people empathize you, relate to you, and not relate to me, to take your side, so you can take away my value from me, or my future, or job or writing possibilities for me in life, is not your right, is not okay.