I’ve never not tried to learn tech or apply to coding school someone who has failed to comprehend what privacy is for or questions communications with the government, as all eyes on me, or no eyes on me preferential in order to perform in life and do well. I think life is accessible to anyone more powerful than you, to look at you through your computer camera, to review all the documents in your computer, review all your emails, read all you messages on messenger, I think in many ways, our lives are lived very openly with no privacy, when it comes to tech, anyone can hack your account, read your information, cause you voices, or self-harm, or suicide, by any amount of wrongful exposures in life, and that’s the danger in being blogger and working in tech. How many people need to see your hand in life, or make an assessment of you viewing your private spaces and all your information, to make a medical decision about you, and in the end it will never be enough, the records I keep, the work that I do online, the amount of published posts I have provided to the public over the years, it will never be good enough to someone who doesn’t understand me, doesn’t appreciate me, doesn’t agree with me, doesn’t support me, doesn’t comprehend my struggle, is racist toward me, doesn’t think Im beautiful, doesn’t value my hard work and openness on Instagram, or views celebrities or races as represented causes, you informally torture me, or question my contributions in life, or sensitivity to issues, names or deaths. I think the best way to comprehend life would be to count the number of days I ran everyday and posted everyday, and count the 95% success rate over a period of 10 years functioning, graduating, helping, building, communicating, and being apart of progress, instead of view me as mentally ill, or not comprehend what medications are for or what it means about me, its nothing about people, its about me and how I feel, how I function, my ability to live life free of harm, feel good, and make progress. Not everyone is afforded those opportunities in life if they are wrongfuly accused of speaking wrong, or lying, or not making sense, or being delusional, or inaccurate, or problematic, in no way is it possible for me to be online, if voices are winning and Trump is being shot and there are school shootings, that goes directly against my purpose in life, my solution, and what all my hard work is for, so instead of questioning difficulty or reasonableness in not writing, respect my privacy and communications and call the Georgia requesting to forward my message recorded to the Judge, means Im doing my part to be reviewed by professionals, and I don’t have to give access or review to voices, reading my conversations, disliking me, hacking my computer or my accounts, refuse to be blamed for a single suicide or death accuse me of being mentally ill or harmful to the health of others, its me that’s human who has overcome tremendous obstacles speaking in spite of being a member to a high profile case and set of names, respectful of everyones attentions and feelings and what they think, am not the disappointment, am not an alcoholic, am not a drug addict, am not inappropriate, I am not mentally ill, I am not being sued, and I am not responding to any voices, during any writing break, refuse to lose in life based on emotions or the number of things said when Im not feeling well, means if I cant win with the people or voices, then I should really question what to do with my life, figure out why am I alive, and do my best to stay away from everyone. That’s hard to comprehend why someone is living a more difficult life compared to others, and view me as not having recovered, or working a hard job to prevent mass shootings, school shootings, and assassination attempts, try to disable me or use my condition as a catalyst for communication to all including the people or use any lawsuit as justification to cause harm to me or wrongfully prosecute me or blame, I reserve the right to sue and press charges against anyone who is using Todd Spitzer to hurt me or sue me in public, I deserve the right to face who is causing me voices, and face who is accusing me of mental illness, and have an attorney represent me and refuse to be used to allow the public to follow me life, pretend to be my doctors or my therapist or my family, or anyone else including Todd Spitzer, seek to entitle themselves to hurt me, use love as an excuse, or society as a whole and progress or human conditions, decide to injure mine in honor of anothers.