The main lesson at a time like this, is to not let anyone affect you. My goal is to do my best and stay positive, and not draw too much attention to this type of argument in life, over who loves who or who is helping who, I have never been anyone to judge or be picky about who Im speaking to online, if Im online for everyone, then I am not worried about who could be reading, by staying in control of what I am saying, sometimes that’s the only way you can ensure that you cannot be helped. There are many dangers in life, and no threat to human life is not a big deal, not even while my Father was dying, or while undergoing treatment for schizophrenia a name he called me out of insult, and in the end all I have now is me and where I am now, and do my best to move forward without creating a controversy over diagnosis, or who’s interpretation of me is correct in the grand scheme of things. I think if you want to make happen any underground campaign based on respect, you would have to credit the wisdom of a big audience, who also doesn’t have the time to be hurt by words, or watch me get hurt online, that doesn’t make me a pervert. Asking for a photo to touch myself. That’s giving what is asked for, and that doesn’t make me look stupid. That makes me a giving person, and human, doing my best to resolve a conflict. Sometimes the best way to show the public who you are is to continue to write everyday, study for the CA Bar Exam, complete requirements for court, do my best not to contact anyone, not have sex, not date, and keep to myself, why because I need to focus on my health, and I can’t have things in life, so long as Im being hurt or made to feel sick, that is something personal that I need to work on. I think Im doing my best to work through things in therapy, I don’t really have much to say to the public, other than there is nothing I can do to stop this person, Ive done my best, this person will continue to make up excuses and justifications for hurting me, and try to convince people I deserve to be hurt or attacked or called names, and honestly there is nothing that I can do about it. And being hurt doesn’t make me delusional it makes me human. Using my platform to make me talk about something no one else has seen, is using me as a form of identity theft to use my name and photo to get web traffic, and my writing and that’s copyright infringement and working on a take down request. All things take time, but when a law is broken that’s for the Judge to decide, and the police, Im sorry that it has gotten to this point. I did my best not to mention this person’s name respected his privacy and safety needs, however he continues to stalk me, and find out names and things about my family I don’t disclose to him. He doesn’t respect my privacy, he hacks, he steals content from my website, he destroys data, and I can no longer talk to this person, because he keeps hurting me and negatively affects me in life.
June 21, 2024 drove to the police station to report being mentally disturbed by him. He seems to continue to talk to me until I forget I’m an easy going person I’ve said I don’t get angry or upset easily I grew up being known for being “even tempered” “chill” high school. Therefore whatever is motivating him to hurt me isn’t his love for me but an experimented situation of what causes voices combining blogging what he says and accuse me of hearing other people which is bipolar you can’t read my mind and I can’t read yours. It’s almost predictable should I be taken off meds, disabled, not working, resting, hearing voices, in court, or go to the ER it’s about enabling him to hurt me call his anger justified and I really don’t need to go to the hospital to disconnect from voices it should be quiet where I am I also shouldn’t need to drive to OC (September 7, 2024) call 911 after leaving my AA meeting giving up to report to the police what voice/insults are saying. Voices doesn’t mean I’m wrong or hated or combative I consider it a fight directed towards me results hatred toward me that turns into a team against me, torture. To me this is a no win situation if it’s not a big deal to anyone else then the risk is everyone minimizing his wrongs seeing like him disliking me taking his side or anyone else’s side and affect my mental health and progress and I don’t have the patience to be given a hard time in life mistreated as a wrongdoer or guilty I’m not. I assume you he’s talking to everyone like he knows me and trying to be supportive and I’m told to block him made upset several times then it’s about me doing the right thing with respect to everyone’s feelings no matter who’s side is taken no one is to blame for bullying voices and just let me focus on other things get strong again not be used as a punching bag I’m a woman not a man I don’t deserve self harm or head injuries hard on me because of him I don’t deserve to be punished or called delusional for managing his angry emails over a 4 year period on my own put on Invega or accused of being disorganized or mentally ill. I’m offended by being misdiagnosed and what he forgets is to not use me to normalize a diagnosis affecting 1% of the worlds population accuse me of bearing a genetic disease it’s about my story being used to hurt me I can figure myself out I don’t need anyone’s help compassion or representation.
FBI Complaint 06/22/24 ….
LAPD Police Report #2108-17391
I visited the police station 6/14/24 to report this person, who has been messaging me since sober living, sending me pictures of his dick and of him shooting a gun at me. Then he contacted me on Twitter, apologized for harassing me for 4 years and making a hate website on GoDaddy calling me “pervert schizoid lesbian” which resulted in diagnosing me as schizophrenic, changing from bipolar as it has been for years. He has sent very hurtful emails. I accepted his apology. Only recently due to voices, is the subject of bullying coming up on my blog and hurtful terms used such as “pervert” which causes me auditory delusion and self-harm (punching my head) and getting suicidal. The police station put me on a hold 6/14/24 and was picked up by family who drove my car home, because I was punching my head at home and on my way there, in distress from voices (bullying) me I believe is due to his hate website he made Summer 2021. We talked for two months January 2020 before he started exposing me and making fun of me on a facebook page, forcing me to take photos on night meds, didn’t allow me to wear a bra, and show my naked body, to get him to stop he said, I made the pictures then he put them online. He called me schizoid. Then I was diagnosed as schizophrenic. Then after treatment in OC, I came home, he forced me to take photos off day meds, was off adderrall, and thats when he launched his website using my corporation pen name registered in the state of CA, through legalzoom, and stole all my pen name traffic to this hate site on GoDaddy, humiliated me and disabled me for 4 years couldn’t work. I can’t function in companionship with this person, I get too many voices, and its too much bullying, I’ve tried to be nice to this person, at some moments willing peaceful, but at other moments in distress, and likewise he would go from positive encouraging to upset or mean, and it has taken years for him to be nice, but yet again, once there is fighting, and I block him, he flips out and starts sending me hate mail and death threats. Im sorry that this relationship is not working out, I appreciated knowing him, but it has turned into too much work for me mentally and emotionally to accomodate this person, his requests, and level of care he expects daily texting and responding all day, flips out on nights Im at an AA meeting or busy, which is ridiculous. And now on a good day after 7 days rest, back on adderrall and blogging, he starts attacking me and got into Marina del Rey’s neighborhood network and is sending me death threats a picture of him shooting a gun at my face. I have only sent one picture recently, please see attached photos he sent me and comments. I have never been mean to this person, I have never shouted at him, or put him down, Ive always done my best to lift this person, considerate of his age, and his State, and we have shared both of our feelings reagrding gun violence, innocence, and the news and world politics, I think we saw eye to eye, on his progress and being human, forgive him, and he seemed to understand my disability and bad days and patient until I sounded better, it’s only recently, I have decided to be completely alone, to rest my mind, I have mental health issues, that worsen into mental illness, voices, that cause me suicide, and I can’t afford to be isolated by this person, and not attend AA, or let his comments affect my blogging, book writing, ability to go to coding school, or work as a paralegal. Each time I recover and get better, he comes back and creates a new account to contact me from, and being the nice person I am, always reply.
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