My blood pressure today is low I’m under a lot of stress right now doing my best. I did my best to reconcile with this person however he continues to ask for photos then expose me and I really don’t have the time and energy to fight with this person. I’m not modeling I’m not in the mood I don’t want sex I want to be left alone and focus on my health it’s not all about him. And I also don’t need him to make fun of a suicide attempt overdosing on diet pills when he first published the website it doesn’t matter who sees the point is I don’t deserve to be treated like this and his agenda is making me look like I’m someone you should think low of or be done with and I’ve not messed up in life in a way for anyone to decide to trash me or present an alternate hateful perspective on my life and to add insult naming my family who he doesn’t care about including me. I think what he’s doing is wrong. I see myself as innocent, and “the people” see him as innocent because I continue to be wrongfully accused of harassment and I don’t need to talk to anyone for the rest of my life, I don’t even text message or talk to anyone, so the lesson I learned is to never hold private conversations for the rest of my life, to defend myself from harm. Whatever is motivating him to hurt me in public, is for himself, it’s not even about me. Overall, take a look around, and continue to be mindful, everyone is entitled to their own opinion, some see the good in others, some see bad things happening, all that matters is that I take care of myself and not bother anyone, let go, move forward, and let this person move forward or whoever I loved, find someone else, it’s clear that these are more than just disagreements, and rejection, and if its about more, I can handle what more things can be about on my own, and file a lawsuit today, against who is hurting me without naming him (his preference) we agreed to put him on block on the basis that I dont want sex and don’t model anymore, focusing on my health. I gave him a ton of pictures, he wants recent pictures. I think everything will be okay overall if you just let me continue to blog and submit documents to court, talk to my Attorney, hopefully I can fly to DC and visit the US Supreme Court again, and get the job as a docent and start training sometime by the end of this year or next year and study for the CA Bar Exam. To me everyone deserves a happy ending, and everyone means well, everyone has limits, people dont have time for trouble, we all follow our on cues in life, and do my best too to be hero, and not interfere with other people’s right to consider themselves hero too.

I need to focus on my health. Be left alone.