I’m reading a book by Melody Beattie called Journey to the Heart. It’s a daily meditation book, I just started reading January 1 to hopefully September, then go day by day. She reminds us to “go on your own journey. Don’t let others hold you back, don’t hold them back. Don’t judge their journey, and don’t let them judge yours.” (January 2) This was a powerful statement that really resonates with how I’m feeling in regards to having private struggles in terms of my image and how Im perceived by the public. This only recently became an issue while someone is defaming me, and making fun of me online, broadcasting my moods to the public trying to make me look bad. I guess you could say if someone showed your vagina online, you would be very upset too. This has been going on since August 30^th, and to no avail, this person won’t stop, no matter how many times I respond and talk to this person. He can’t seem to accept that Im not taking pictures at the moment and not modeling focusing on my health, he’s been hard on me since I left treatment, and this constant unsettling unhappiness he directs toward me, that no love or positivity can really repair the harm that he is causing me now in public, I guess Im not comfortable talking about it because I don’t want anyone to see, and its been a really humiliating and embarrassing experience, so I don’t know what to do. I already filed a police report, and need to follow-up, and have blocked him and don’t plan on ever talking to him again, and have submitted several take down requests online, and to Google. I am doing my best to cope with this situation without making things worse, or looking like the bad guy. I can this person as trying to make me look bad, and convince the public to hate me too, like him. This person claims to support me but will not take down the website unless I model naked for him, and I really don’t feel like showing my body right now, I gained weight in treatment and focusing on weight loss and feeling good about myself. He doesn’t really seem to comprehend my feelings, or considerate of my blood pressure. This whole ordeal has caused me much stress and mental illness, and has affected by writing, and right now focusing on therapy regrouping getting strong again. Sorry for any delays, I have to figure out how to write, while ignoring this person hurting me