(1) Was not writing consistently everyday.

(2) Had difficulty messaging and reflecting on bullying without reliving trauma or fight.

(3) A person let back into my life I was told to block not hurting me who believed in me said everything nice supported but didn’t stay well.

(4) Sharing is upset or text which I then removed after be told me not to mention him notified people who know him read my blog.

(5) Stuck is discussions re: bullying prevention.

(7) Working on writing 2 books.

(8) Tried not blogging when told not to.

(9) Given meds but couldn’t handle pictures requested for while being watched.

(10) Punished for my reactions.

(11) Staying up 2 days writing prior to losing all my following opening up after self harm had been given 7 pills viewed as writing while under the influence so deleted all those posts which then disappeared from my activity log which could’ve been saved to drafts.

(12) Losing data due to bullying deleting and then viewed negatively for deluding messages made me look bad and like I’ve said if that’s a log of my progress punished and deleted then that’s my progress in treatment accused of sickness. Or self harm not forgiven.

(13) To never self harm again is nothing anyone wants to see makes me look bad and is what he showed everyone my response to him posting naked photos everywhere hurting me and not stopping saying give me this then till stop then going ahead showing photos be asked for with nudity not covered not my choice. and did the same thing 2022 pretended to be a politician asked for vagina photos after saying no for years then that made counts worse so I deleted those photos and the google chat due to self harm then 4 years later after 2 jobs and treatment 7 months pushes for closeness assuming I’m single but not ready informed I talked to someone else, and I’m the end no one wants anything to do with me if he’s harming me in this way means I can’t have anyone in my life and maybe that’s him making executive decisions and doing things for the people maybe he doesn’t consider I could die from being called offensive misinterpret court going well make clear if I get sick get hurt and can’t work or upset anyone including my family is I’m so many ways trying to make my life means terms I’m accused of falsely reporting or being in denial of and for there to be no solution the issue is I was better off writing articles being positive moving forward making the effort to discuss a serious topic without affecting “the people” and accuse me of studying closely what anything’s about that life should be about everyone making fun of me or being helped or compare me or make fun of me not being welcome anywhere to have no ending no home base and there nothing I can do about what’s done to me as far as I’m concerned if it’s not about me or about hurting my feelings or about the truth it’s about what I identity to be support and whether I’m in acceptance of what’s wrong with me now as a result of the choices I’ve made to please accept staying away from everyone for the rest of my life is the best solution for all jokes aside not critical of. Don’t deserve to be called delusional of everyone’s smart and I’m stupid then please let me fix my life life is short I’ve been made to star over lose everything in life and that’s not how to judge my genetics or my Father, please.

(14) I had to write 14 quality posts to improve my numbers to change out from going down by 10,000 everyday to going up 10,000 each day. And that was after taking about a 3 month break from writing not consistent everyday which were my previous goals and not able to blog while on Invega or off adderrall couldn’t write had difficulty speaking and reading.

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