I’m writing two books one unpublished I need to rewrite sharing quotes from over the years and life advice hopefully sans court issues I’ve been writing much longer than any legal problems or bullying or voices. It was recommended to talk about schizophrenia and given a list of suggestions for a book that’s already written up to chapter 7 on battling voices self harm and what’s declared an incurable illness voices which I’ve done my best to overcome have shared solutions found and meds taken to deal with voices or self harm and am always doing my best, it’s not about him being nice supportive and helping me or viewing me as wrong I’m not trying to win past dislike there’s nothing I can do to write or persuade the unhappy of my value I think once you don’t appreciate me don’t recognize my importance or who I am it’s no one loss but my job to do well in life provide for myself do my best to make a full recovery.

No matter whether the conversations begins and ends please recognize others move forward and find peace absent minded me this is my only life I’ve got to do my best to stay well stay out of trouble and live honestly work hard figure out what to do with my life if a career is ending or reputation or court so decides there are only so many ways you can suffer in life and be responsible for your own suffering and it would be wrong at this moment in time to analyze medical care or types of help and support provided I’m sure better moments now I worked hard for.

I’m sure my instability and difficulties heat wise or mentally due to voices is something no one can understand or appreciated viewing summarized sections of how that difficulty was expressed with photos included I can’t control what makes me look bad or what you think is wrong with me I just have to do my best to do the right thing not bother anyone and not be done to bullying or voices and not become an example of sickness or “crime” as it pertains to who I am not connected to in life be respected nonetheless instead of viewing me as not defensive enough or unable to defend myself past defamation then please accept those terms as permanently injuring me and what people think of me therefore it’s not important for me to be in anyone’s life if life is viewed as better off without me and struggle in terms of what I’ve provided while given criticism for not having published a book yet criticize my attitude or my limits or drinking or coping with voices by not writing it’s clear my happy ending is not fighting and being fought that’s not the solution that’s a heart condition or heart attack that I can’t prove in life where it’s coming from.

So let that be his experiment or anyone else’s experiment with tech voices faces etc is none of my business to trace lock out delete or be punished for the records I keep which are beneficial to whoever reads.

The key point is life should not be too much for me complicated or made complicated or too much for anyone else is the lesson on people having a problem with me and using mental illness to punish me or torture me or continue to give me voices and consider that God or SCOTUS or my audience punishing me.

If I’ve not made clear he said the word then I heard the word and then the word was said over and over again to me over a period of 2021-2024 and continues in so many forms of condescending remarks of better than me or spouting fur some description of voices to enliven or give power or credit to who wishes to play the character of voices doesn’t explain how a writing produces a hateful voice directed towards me or while suffering after calling me delusional schizophrenic etc suing me rejecting me over medicating me not allowing me to think work or write or exercise is there any sudden issue or change expected from “the people” I’m not becoming better to not be remembered for things I think you either live and move on and it’s everyone’s choice how to remember you love is subjective it depends on what’s hurting you and whether it’s the persons intent to hurt me cause me mental illness is the issue with calling me pervert or sick a$$ pervert and making fun of me reporting voices to the police do not make fun of the solution to be hospitalized where there are no voices bullying me or make fun of self harm like it’s easy to figure out make happen accuse me of immaturity or delusion or losing in life or less than.

Everyone has a different timeline of events in life please do not compare my life to others or accuse me for offenses one not committed. When I say take it to court everyone’s entitled to sue for whatever they want in life that’s not my job to handle things outside of court report people or play police or accuse me of lying not being preventative or unskilled why publishing 2 books is worth the accreditation instead format consistent with an environment (reading format a close read in permanent form to avoid criticism or taking down posts) worth reading and edited by professionals reviewed. I’ve had to save money and it’s taken years to be allowed to work on this project pay the fees.

I think everyone has a different happy ending in mind so please don’t make my weight or gave or life or story or being bullied online about me hurting anyone when it’s me being hurt and dealing with it privately. I would appreciate to blog articles and not have to mention a new fan site made but it became important for me to in a proper way after rest and no drinking or voices and progress blogging to discuss the website made without providing a link and make everyone see my vagina and call me a sex offender.

If you think seeing my vagina is rape then please do not visit the fan site so you will not be raped by my vagina, (lesliefischmanfan.com) I stopped having sex 2014 and I don’t have to have sex for the rest of my life if you are giving me a man’s disease schizophrenia making fun of my body of his website saying “wait” referencing a crosswalk on Santa Monica accuse me of not being feminine or a woman or bring il a time he didn’t get to see my vagina and accused me of having a small dick isn’t about all the ways he can think of hurting me I’m sure people can think of a million ways to insult me deny it and call me mentally ill that’s not okay to make me bring up words over and over again because whoever is reading can’t accept that losing my battle with voices means refusing to self harm or get sick writing made to say terms that cause me voices make more people see a word think a word and justify voices or accuse my writing as though it’s not a normal voices of a well person is worth taking the bar exam over what’s causing sickness and defend myself instead of non acceptance and constant experimentation with using the word “pervert” “sick a$$ pervert” and not caring the consequence to me or diagnosis doesn’t mean it’s true doesn’t mean I look like one doesn’t mean I’m guilty is not what talking to Todd Spitzer was for a FREEWAY SHOOTING and reporting something I saw on the freeway to his messenger after seeing him on TV doesn’t mean I’m guilty then or now or a person others are big over or winning over in life you accuse me of not being accepting of hate or stepping down dysfunction or insult I don’t have a solution for anger towards me or bullying voices that I can’t prevent by no amount of writing or hospitalizations I can’t stop someone from harming me who thinks they’re doing a justice incapacitating me or trying to put me in jail I can’t prevent jail of whether I’m known on board or off board life isn’t that forgiving it easy to work that’s there’s a simple solution for everything I think accepting to not talk to anyone for the rest of my life is me accepting what I’m punished for I think writing books is a proper way to share my story see if I’m important enough eventually become a NY Times Best Seller of I can manage to edit a book and write a book in enough time to not have it be read used against me and cause me sickness accuse me of not having a solution of non compliant in overcoming a new diagnosis I took seriously isn’t about me not taking life seriously or crime offenses or the subject of rape casually it’s about my resume and on every way I was once fit to help how had sex and modeling made it inappropriate to help victims or volunteer work with kids or be a blogger or paralegal in life I’m not trying to break barriers for acceptance I think I went through a lot everyone’s going through a lot and it’s not my story hard to hear or threatening anyone or convincing anyone they’re sick or wrong, I shared everything. Maybe doing less means I was once able and with disability I’m not allowed to travel explore support others or contact others the basis for discontinuing communications to celebrities was fear for their safety once I was getting beat up so they’re protected but there has been no solution in the event I’m suffering accused of deleting things like that’s the evidence the people need to see to know I’m good or helpful I’m always focused on right now the condition I’m in I have to get out of no condition I’m prior or state of mind is going to make anyone back off or feel special or connect better watching life accuse me of being replaced or a source of hurt experiment with cause and effect I’m not a monopoly doing a job that I’ve not encouraged everyone to be positive do well and stuck to high standards so it’s not the job I’m not doing to explain why everything’s at a stand still life isn’t always rolling or constantly fixed no one is too late when we are focusing on gun violence especially assassination and no character assassination of me is going to tell the people what I’m responsible for or which state should state should suddenly be concerned with my health working or taking a break Ive not let anyone down who’ve I’ve made myself known to and my cares as someone who seeks to prevent that’s no bull$hit leg no one convince you that everyone who cares is capable of preventing any condition occurring in anyone consider criminals a product of reactions or face types or behaviors you seek to classify me as someone going to jail in avoidance of actually talking about what you think is my fault or why you think making phone calls to care is meaningless I think if you can help this is how you help and sharing how I’m able to help is always demonstrating “with permissions” I don’t just do things or have a problem of being told “no” and “wait” and if that’s the new punishment of me it’s not my job to disclose or determine what that means I’ve done wrong in life to whom and why or which lawsuit is being interpreted as me being hurtful it’s clear my love doesn’t matter my love didn’t exist no record of communications mattered it’s not my job to figure out whether or not I have an incurable disease and expect me to talk about a condition with no cure punish me for losing my battle with voices and coming to accept it may be something I’ll deal with for the rest of my life maybe my story is predictable when you consistently punish me for things I’ve said when sick and ignore my entire education 39 years of life 20 years sober being from a high profile case going to law school or determined to take the bar exam I’m not doing anything to prove myself to people as now don’t care them didn’t care or question my views on love comrades bullying put down terminology common to men or women make fun of what I’m being classified as it’s not my attitude that’s changed based on what I’m believed to have done wrong it’s about accusing me of being a sex offender or reject or having kinship with children as disabled self harming and can’t even talk to my nieces and nephews is how disability meds and hurt has affected me in life and my life is also not about accusing me of being a bad child or accused my parents of giving up on me rejecting me or not being proud of me harping on how publishing nude photos everywhere was so hard to accept I wasn’t allowed to blog anymore and mymollydoll.com ranked on Alexa retired its program of ranking websites which was motivating me and others to keep up to certain standards in life I’m sure I didn’t start or the word “my” used to salute to wrongdoing or took away any of my pride and privilege to be known is wrong idea about me.

I’m sorry I responded this way to men who asked for vagina photos when I get voices bullying and the attorney general can search and read all my messages access all my accounts whether or not I delete anything Facebook keeps everything. This is about me not wanting anyone to see my vagina and arguing that my discomfort or getting close and easy to get stuff from me isn’t about me not being human or under the influence as being my fault it’s about other people seeing and becoming disgusted with me and they don’t understand how just leaving treatment sober 20 years or having a heart condition. Means I can’t afford for anyone to make me look stupid or gross or call me pervert to make other women feel better about themselves cooler expect me to be used or rejected as though it’s me unaccepting of others no it’s men being defending by skinnier or younger women reading my blogs and make fun of what I find I think in every way possible men are winning taking pointers from eachother playing the same game of me not being good enough working hard with no results make me poor and fat and disabled accuse me of jealously make other women feel professional and important like their representation and accreditation is some idea I’m not privileged to represent my own campaign and causes in life isn’t about who can or accuse me of questioning why can’t I be this or that unrelated or too strong or don’t give hope and inspiration to others. These are the only angered statements I made after drinking misdiagnose drinking as to not write when prescribed less adderrall to quit for the day or when out of Prozac as a coping mechanism instead of hitting my head or arguing with voices in writing make hurtful words permanent. I think in every way I cared or couldn’t been known or important other causes have taken flight in the news I will continue to not be used as an after effect or unwanted attention in combination with other victims in the news I can publish my story in a book instead of making fun of my discomfort or not being ready yet to be social or not I’m a good place I think you got your disability that made fun of me as a writer accuse me of not being able to speak well or public speak accuse me of being scared or having guilt your being gay as though the problem is something wrong with me not them is exactly why the right decision is to not talk to anyone for the rest of my life (1) until things get better the work is done (2) until prevention is figured out empowering to all participation (3) until we can make more clear of using someone reliable who writes everyday has a history of non violence aware of mental health and anger directed toward me able to stop a guy pointing a gun at me as experienced being scared to death and it’s not a big deal to anyone else and able to overcome being scared even if it doesn’t affect anyone else or seems simple doesn’t mean for me to give up scared it means prevention and negotiation can occur when I get strong again why take the bar let everyone win accept the permanency of terms hurtful wish for forgiveness of not belonging anywhere, and to accept numbers down on my Cloudflare due to a writing break was a good sign made by the majority whether it was sharing a private mean text focusing on the word assassination and then not continuing to come up with content was a good lesson on how serious things are and what makes 400k stop reading the untold security in writing everyday evolving and being proper well liked and writing for public WordPress likes I never questioned being ignored or why instagram numbers aren’t huge like my Alexa or Cloudflare or WordPress I’m just learning WordPress analytics each system and Weebly gives me my numbers it’s always been around 2000 a month looks like everyday it’s over 30 days. I’m not questioning how you need to be to look legit I’m just grateful I’m not in jail and work on prevention and even guarantee responsibility on my own behalf for any chaos or hysteria following finding out about a fan site or fathom what for it’s clear my first statement to DA Spitzer was proper “what if there was an exact match” to either my report, I’m assuming location, assumed being known or another up found out I’m down, I’ve never ignored the existence of a system of being seen instantly hated or ignorant of race or how to be popular or not viewed as offensive again it will constantly be about my condition and accusing me of being fought or ridiculing photos seen or unseen to determine the cause of offense life isn’t a great American Story of me surviving nothing or being at fault or pretending I’m hostage or helping everyone disadvantage anyone or have a job writing I’m failing at, and maybe the solution is to go crime by crime and be reminded of who I am or where I live or what I’m doing or view my record or court appearances and with consideration of everything scary occurring not accuse me of gambling or taking chances or working in avoidance or lying or misleading or being at fault or supported like anyone’s hopes and dreams in life or meaning found by a commercialized story connected to billionaires about me ruining anything consider their trauma my job to not affect not have difficulties or controversies you accuse me of not getting over or represented by a celebrity accuse me of being an unwanted influence or unknown participant. Sometimes the best way to not cause hysteria or everyone telling me I’m delusional or have it all wrong is to stay separate and while it should and could last for me to be nothing disabled unemployed or let a “hate” website he says is not hate about everyone comfortable with something I view as my biggest insecurity means my internal states aren’t respected that I don’t even bring up hacking or question the economy being based on what’s working out beneficial to everyone not bringing anyone down don’t also want to be consisted by legal education to bad with money not a worthwhile investment capitalize on the word risk or usage of prevention or responsibility or visiting the site of a mass shooting mean I’m doing something wrong again it’s not about what you don’t like about me it’s about putting into words a solution that settles prevents others from being hurt or invest energy in sides to not make believe it’s ok to change my life stop me disable me punish me for moods (I’m clearly punished for having any emotional emergency and criticized for my blood pressure when writing). The best solution here forward is not about “what’s related” or what makes my story special or which crimes I’m accused of 2021 and no improvement or treatment of schizophrenia could cure voices only made things worse means it’s not me lying or or what he says that’s true believed versus what I say I’m almost 40 years old whatever chances I had for normalcy don’t exist until assassination attempts and school shootings and mass shootings are prevented and since the war ongoing is about beliefs and anti semitism please don’t accuse me of having false beliefs with a true and accurate story of my life or call what I think or say delusion. I think what’s past the point of being helped is me when it comes to the words “risk, prevention, responsibility, and assassination” instead of making fun of who I am not or whether politicians know me please accept it Im not ok control of what sets things back to normal or someone who hurts anyone’s dreams or wishes in life abusive or inappropriate or sexual period. Which is why I refuse to talk to anyone for the rest of my life and do my job to handle what in my heart I believe I can prevent and should not be stopped or excuse moods or punishments means to not react that way do my best. I don’t mercy to pretend there’s some truth on an instagram “you call putting trash online while walking to Santa Monica courthouse late” a way to freeze me waste adderrall or make my head gone challenge whether I can study take the bar exam or not …. I corresponded with Trump if I mentioned it and 400 people left and it happened again means the best decision is to work hard absent what I believe or question who I loved or admired and hope hate be appreciative of the 5 subscribers to my researchforhate.wordpress.com website and work hard be alone stay well write and grow my blog not cause a scene and if I can lower my blood pressure I should be able to write well enough no one else suffers or is at a debating loss in life like that’s it that’s wrong the best solution here forward is to accept all interpretations and do my best to not fuel it and stay sway from everyone it’s too late to say everyone knew and loved me once you make it about suffering people need to focus on themselves and just say I’m doing a job online and have a system that works for me is hard to prove and explain in public. And if I’m wrong the attorney general who is watching me can put me in jail if they think I’m at fault or a cause or cause or offensive to know see in life. It’s not about being loved people being nice to me or reality positive it’s about gun violence and crime and which story I’m from and who I am and what matters to me in life to prevent. All I have to do is take myself seriously and consider the rest of life too complicated sometimes for anyone to read support or be on my side at all is not what I’m asking for support undeserved or misdescribing life using diagnoses to be defined or use me to see what I am or how a disease is defined accuse me of not knowing myself I’m not challenging science I’m not a doctor I sat on a medical board it’s about crime and stress and if I’m not doing well that affects politics and I should be the one helping them reassuring the public not be beaten up or sued disempower anyone’s case for themselves in life pretend I am or am not a public figure or incapable of handling negative comments I think after 8 years of voices I would have rather had internet trolls insult me that get voices.