The solution is to keep working on myself, attend therapy, put book writing on hold, try to document face changes take selfies, work toward being employable, do my best with the life I’ve been given to get along with everyone not get into fights, not lose fights, speak proper, not text bad or get suicidal blame anyone, be a strong woman secure my sense of privacy in life, not allow myself to be treated as guilty, continue to solve voices in my own share to SCOTUS, know that the judge doesn’t know how to cure schizophrenia I worked really hard over the past 10 years and accomplished a lot, wellness doesn’t occur in an instant or in the hospital or at treatment and doesn’t need to be caused losing or misspeaking or be accused private or public in regards to who I am as a person worth knowing and meeting “not a disease” can get tested for drugs and social show I’m not doing cocaine or trying to relapse and I was never an alcoholic the issue is to not be out alone is why I was punished not so much the new contacts I didn’t really speak to or who was trying to touch me hook up speaking or not speaking heard about watched or dating I know my life isn’t ruined I know what life I had how hard lawsuit I was taken seriously beginning 2023 January, it’s now 2024 has been over a year judge no matter how scared or frozen I’m made to feel forgiven apart of have a life story or record interactions it’s up to me what people think of me I can’t control a system of violating my right to privacy and causing injury to me via voices that’s not the government or CIA that’s not a think tank that’s not something hospital or recover center can solve when people back off or stop putting pressure on me cause me distress and that’s not patriotic reflects my applications to the military or emails years ago book writing. I can begin life again only own I don’t need to be put down in life for anyone to win or solve crime blame me or where I live is uncalled for everyone is smart you know me met me and then you’re entitled to your own views on race war monuments marches politics education modeling job placement body image face types height religion race ethnicity dating history I think life is hard enough choosing a public job writing online I think I can do more studying to add reassurances fit the role of blogger better complete courses study fit the bar exam but it’s not for the judge to say I’m sick take this this or that away break me or hurt me cause me chest pains hurt my head tire me make my head gone bully me lose to voices or hate sites or cause me losses you try to blame me for outside of court. I’m not for losing or being beat up on life accept that taking Todd Spitzer away, taking my job away, watching my Dad die, and OJ die, get blocked by political figures who used to let me write them may mean that you as a judge are done with me don’t believe me or stop prosecuting me let me text and still get bullied punished for there to be no point of stopping on other ends toward me in life has no solution to inform anyone of court going well or not or almost dismissed and I’m not asking for help making things go right for me in life or upset over letters or not I can speak for myself no one knows me knows my past 10 years knows my addiction history or has seen my step work over the years, is in my control (what I’m working on being in control of myself), so it’s okay to discuss voices mention a hate site no one saw or everyone saw voices happen by my phone or by what’s online it’s not anything any med can cure or adderrall causes or treatment center can prevent ….. dear Judge the more you disable me and call me delusional or tell me it’s wrong to talk to people don’t expect me to move on or work another job until voices are overcome and maybe your need to win and make me lose in public is what’s causing voices like terms on a hate website unjustified that have hurt in a permanent way recalled revisited saved on my WordPress photos or taken offline I know who I am and what I’ve caused in life and I know I have the power to prevent by being popular and a good person online not limited by anything period not even exposed in private disrespected shocking me or others isn’t the solution don’t make fun of what I sound like in dysfunction call me mean maybe that text was his win now it’s time for me to move forward in life block him never talk to him again for the rest of my life and figure out how to focus be important again with the next 10 years of my life be alone and let life go on going by whatever system is working for them any judge or hate website seeks to exclude me from, or crime period. It’s my limit isn’t respected by honesty or being fragile isn’t comprehended my upsets clearly writing online are not effective as illustrating effort in difficulty, and it’s not my job to get sick again judge or accuse me of wellness trying sober living or question clozapine invega treatments and disability for over a year question ability or recovery earned tell me I’m not doing everything right to be well sit places and be enrolled in programs like it’s easy to get into IOP or treatment centers. I don’t take that for granted in life where I’ve been compared to what it’s like now with more mental health options unlike any IOP I’ve attended. The solution dear Judge is not to tell you you hurt me and took everything away and things didn’t work out it’s to let you take everything away and Todd and my job and make everything work out again on my own not be in a hospital setting and don’t serve to be disabled make light of love and breakups. You may have the power to make love and jobs not happen but you will never have the power to put me in jail and prosecute me for anything not going right question my past 10 years (2013-now) wrongfully accuse me of needing anyone to figure anything in life out on my own means you took everything away saw me get well twice punished me for dysfunction. And so long as I’m not playing your game and not trying to win on your comprehension of big subjects do my best to help others whether I’m winning or losing in any game in life and that should be what peace is about blogging and analytics represent how things work out not be used as an example of someone too late who you think is able at the wrong time no I did the work and can do the work the again.