Instead of questioning how I was or who I was before being exposed let’s focus on why a website is discontinued or what makes it inappropriate to blog and look like something else online at the same time. I never tried to defend hurtful terms I’m glad I survived no one was hurt got a job present for Dad recovered and looked pretty again. Please don’t make fun of how I overcome take responsibility question my body type face muscle to fat ratio 50/50 or wonder why if seen naked weight gain is caused don’t believe in maintaining weight while modeling or why with a nice face shown live lose your face in the end maybe my preferences were superstitious or not believed. In the end please focus not on how I looked bad or what that did to how I feel after graduating targeting or accuse me speaking delusional politics to any pen pal disorganized or hard to talk to not earn a reply have simple conversation I didn’t forget what life was like question life after identity theft change my truth shared I’m glad I’m okay now maybe I didn’t see that as cheating notifying Leonardo Dicaprios film company I accidentally paid $13,000 my edd money and my Charles Schwab account to keep paying a liaison to meet a celebrity I was not in a place in life to hook up look wise watching Trump everyday laying low feeling special mean to hurt a pen pal who blocked me disinterested cheat I always talked to many people pride myself in kind replies was so special meaningful should still try to get into the press stands at Academy Awards but skipped being told enter her rope lifted up, it was enough to get a parking spot a photographer started taking pictures of me outside I called the court to say I’m on jury duty I have a right to not be photographed was one of the rules and went inside present for an after party as close to the life as I could get I just so happened to show up and called Academy security to tell them who I was driving in to be present they were informed sushi show up unsure how big I am, present in the same town as many special actors honored that night. But like all excitement not famous unclear if your known a hero yet that was close enough to Prince William and Joaquin Phoenix and maybe where I am now is to prove whether I’m worthy of being in a room among Shorty Companies present with grave nice to finally meet me have heard of my work and story in a place I’m credited for being close to OJ and his family forgiven for hospitalization think it’s cool I got into military and politics so early on donated to a police non profit connected to my law schools founder aware with gratitude of why to send money maybe Barack Obama’s tent everyday in front of LA Times by my parking spot wasn’t close enough to figure out why would I see him on TV know an African American company see many familiar people walking by my balcony unclear of movement or what living there meant to passerbyers I was loved I’m sorry anyone viewed my 20s reflection on loss with my best friend was viewed as insincere or unintelligent I’m sorry in so many ways no one believed why hospitalized and look like I got sick and it’s my fault I was lucky to recover I never experienced trauma affected my family been blamed made fun of shared my story didn’t want to discuss 2009 be forced to talk about 2009 accuse me of being stupid or not processing loss or what friendship is for turn me into a person who doesn’t care or doesn’t try to help not proud of sharing my story I don’t have a problem with my life there’s nothing that anyone can say famous or not that can convince me I’m not special 2009 isn’t easy taught by education study effort message to a White House website a by chance interaction occurring prior to The White House being shot accuse me or a YouTube video for anything question being told I have serious mental health issues maybe it’s not respect that you see but a person who got sick for no reason studying life reading her Moms book accuse me of being angry why would I be getting As learn about people I’ve not had the opportunity to study accuse me of doing something wrong knowing OJ accuse me of a focus or side that means I’m good what means I’m good means to not punish me for hospitalization make fun of getting sick maybe you don’t respect Barack Obama’s privacy and sense of peace or trauma decide to make everything about being sick for no reason and say it’s my fault. Maybe I should have never shared about my trauma and maybe that’s what you think is wrong with me being in law school if I was mentally ill just wouldn’t be able to be in law school please don’t accuse me of having anger self harm psychosis unhappiness or problems in life related to anything to in life why would I talk to everyone get sick don’t accuse me of having guilt or make the OJ Simpson case an easy subject accuse my story of not being meaningful make things about something I can’t understand or accuse me of not feeling good having everything or being insulted not reading a book it’s not about what my story or what help us it’s that making fun of what happened to me discounts my comprehension of suicide if you think my story is bogus not a sincere occurrence doing everything right over broadcast waking up somewhere accuse me of killing my self or upset based on where I am what’s not going my way why should I die what’s so difficult adderrall or not ….. so please don’t make a big deal about going to law school and told I’m delusional decide to make the rest of my entire life being told something in the hospital I can’t disprove make fun of being in the hospital …. I don’t need to hide disability in life working hard or dating period or dishonest maybe because no one understood how that happened respected getting good grades in law school it became an issue and I’ve not recovered maybe what’s difficult for me isn’t something I’ve done wrong or not been honest about with no history of sickness or studying anything. Whatever happens to me in life is about me getting well I wouldn’t get help think that it made me look bad or continue law school be undeserving my story isn’t violent stupid embarrassing account of being stuck in a hospital and maybe it’s he moments of disability and disconnect that make or break us. I’m not a mystery or delay in life holding legal opinions or have a copyright that blames anyone for the kind of dilemma I’m faced with how to help what to say accuse me of not being an attorney not working hard a cabinet locked up joke or no better a tweeter or a fire joke with an NBC job, sometimes it’s not who you are most like that tells you who you are supposed to feel like and why explain how you go from respected to punished viewed similarly as meaningless purpose I’m not trying to be cute avoidant of anti semitism an unreliable representation of a group of people you accuse of being hated and include me to view me as incapable of preventing racism or a person of generic disposition unimpressive or made to feel small make fun of my heart or how I work in the end I am who I am able to relate and prevent unafraid have no history of dislike or bullying make friends everywhere to tell anyone I’m small in a room or have issues inferior or illness that disrupts or stands out that makes others more or less confident no one is making me feel stupid no one there is smart and doesn’t deserve to be smart I don’t have social issues problems not belonging I’m not there trying to prove I’m smart or have disability unrecovered from cocaine addiction. Please don’t accuse me of not writing statements of having a transcript with a change not reflective of my own mistakes in life not deserving of a legal education or accuse me of having a mental illness associated to who I am some place forgetful of family and who I am think I’m smart but I’m not. I’m sorry if for whatever reasons you think I’m sick I’m sorry you don’t value my mental health experience I’m sorry you think I’m a dysfunctional dropped patient who hears voices punished for need to be disabled to cope with life or get better it’s not about who’s winning it’s about being honest and recovering I’m in control of improving overcome disability.