Learn to accept silence as your teacher. If there is one thing I have learned about how to help in crisis, it would be to focus on yourself, and by focusing on yourself and being productive, organized, vocal, and by communicating fairly and appropriately, you save others from having to engage in unnecessary battles in life, or be forced to fight, or take on responsibilities beyond their roles in life, let alone comprehension. It’s not just your education and work experience that prepares you for life and teaches you how to help others, its how you continue to care, with or without a job, maintain standard of care, even when you are being questioned or facing bullying or torment of any kind.

Being special serves a purpose of making others feel special, that when you come from a life, that makes sense to you, that you have experienced meaningful growth as a human being, and consider yourself mature beyond your years, hopefully you get to a place of writing quotes and never forget in your ability to help yourself and help others, paid or unpaid. Wisdom shows that you have made it past difficulties in life, and in a place of reflection able to summarize your experiences in life into general life lessons, you hope resonate with others, and lucky if they find meaning in your words too. It’s not a given in life, that others can relate to us, and especially not by controversy does our story become stronger or more important, usually you have to prove on your own, your value, before anyone can take you seriously, as a member to any story in history, and sometimes its by not qualifying and being questioned and tested, only you can sustain your value as a person, and prove that no matter how far you are brought down in life, no matter what bullying voices you hear, no matter what your nationality is or connections in life, no rumor or negative judgment is strong enough to make everyone not respect you, or be angry at you, or not comforted by your words or story, is not how I should be treated in life, at 39 years of age, having worked this hard in life, been open about self-harm, sobriety, punishment, law school, blogging, website building, and even shared my views on handling challenging topics like crime. There is no lesser treatment in life that represents any truth more beneficial to the public, less amplified by disclosed fears and experiences along the way, shared about, makes my story any less independently valuable and inspiring timeline compared to anyone else’s experience of life, and thoughts about history and race. Again it’s not about comparison, judging people based on how they look to determine who is doing everything right and arrived or consider holding people behind in life, to communicate something about them they have no learned compared to others of their age group, come to represent something wrong with me, no medical diagnosis has not already covered. In the end its not the truth that people feel offended by, its about people considering their time wasted in caring for people, who they are convinced to not care for, or convinced are stupid, and Im not one of them. I can’t explain to you a solution for the entire world to come to appreciate in terms of how everything works in life, minimize my labels, as things Im not working hard to disprove everyday of my life, be able to help others without having to battle things like voices or bullying or fan sites, weighing down on me and trying to ruin my life, maybe these are things that cant easily be overcome by mention and don’t need understanding in life or need to be shared about in order to make things better or any less painful. The goal is for me to not fall asunder, the goal is for me to not self-harm, the goal is for me to stay sober, the goal is for me to get a job, the goal is for me to take the bar exam, the goal is for me to not be sued, and the goal is for me blog everyday, and share a success online in rank and analytics that’s helpful to others, who are writers, politicians, advocates, court employees, help anyone in any field, again its not the story or the terminology that’s not hurtful or make fun of lesser punishments in life, the main lesson is not to view a lawsuit as explaining to anyone anything about me, I cannot explain for myself, then expect me to go out into the world mistreated for my life, my story, or diagnosis, if my life is a story that no one can help me with then that’s how my life is viewed by lawsuits, but don’t for a second view a lawsuit as knowing more about me and my life, than I am able to explain and give confidence to others on. It’s wrong to hurt me with labels, or use terms or diagnosis, to expect me to accept a lesser treatment in life, or form of disrespect or intrusion, I don’t deserve that, I need to lose 50 lbs, get a job, take the bar exam, not get sued, stop talking to everyone, and rewrite and publish two books to prevent voices, and that’s my current strategy for overcoming bullying or negative interpretation or judgment, as far as making sure that everything goes right for everyone, and maintain my power to help others.