When I sense anger I don’t think Im imaging the issues wrong, or getting things mixed up, no matter what Im in court for, if my goals are to try for things in life Im determined to have like a relationship or a marriage, a successful blog, maybe a child, and a job, then those are things that will be afforded to me if I work hard enough and the blog should help it’s a sensitive subject that I handled well, I am educated an honest patient, hardworker, independent who has lived a good life, long enough to have concern for women and girls in light of any girl Facebook jokes, I think it would be taking it too far, coming from a network of great people already, to be concerned about me being 39 now, consider my value or my sexuality of concern, that’s not what makes me unattractive as a candidate for job friendship or improvement, and while my life may take twists and turns and endure tremendous odds and difficulties that’s really not anything put on anyone else’s plate in life, to deal with or take on responsibilities such that I have be a provider in times of disillusionment, anger, or lack of team bonding for that matter, in the end its not about what doesn’t work for you, its about maintaining systems that work for people, its been my highlight to make sure that life is something that you enjoy paying attention to, a song you value, a film, there are plenty of ways to appreciate life, and if my definition of being a role model was based on things working out for me, then that was what I believed was my gift in life to improve graduate and move forward in life get strong again and get a job, and those were phases in life I shared on my blog, along the process, making Tuesday no different a second job interview and opportunity to earn a wage, which doesn’t take away from the value of my blog or create excuses for anger however its directed I think people can become upset for a lot of reasons, financially, breakups, it’s sad that billionaires aren’t enough inspiration from women and girls that anyone would question my sanity or if Im a talented writer received high scores shared my academic records online and work history, and maybe that will never be enough, at a time like this, and you know if Im not for people, then Im not for people, and they will find something else, or another story or human being that inspires them to work hard, follow my regime or not, get a job or not, stay sober or not, model or not, date again or not, blog or not, in the end its not about questioning my mental health when Ive been on meds for years its not okay to force me to live disabled and not be able to work and help myself that’s not a choice, and being in recovery or treatment makes you a great role model anyways, even if hospitalized, its how you lead your life, that inspires good decision making in others. Preserved or not, Im not one to not date, I usually always have a boyfriend, that’s something Ive been lucky enough to have chances in life, so that’s not the issue, the issue is disadvantage, I don’t think Im ever in a place that any type or kind of person, would not be helped by me, normalized by me, have a better understanding of life, code, how to get jobs, how to be positive, in spite of all the crime and everything going on in the world, I think I make a great example of a person focusing on themselves, not losing in life to voices, or insensitivities in life, in the end it matters what others think. There will never be a time that has passed for everyone to know and like you, or everyone to know and hate you, however that system works Im not in control of that I don’t wish to be given a hard time like Im not careful with my words honest, not over confident, not insulting, not cocky, have had great friends in life who are women, allow any man relationship or lawsuit to convince you Ive been devalued or someone else is suddenly God, like I give my power away willingly or end up worse off. I don’t get raped, that’s the lesson in life about going to law school, live life responsibility be careful, in the end its not the man whos in control of my self-esteem, self-worth, value, issues, mental health, and is not in charge of how Im treated in life, is never entitled to dictate campaign believed or not believed lead any group of people or number of voices by fan site, to attack my credibility, not respect me, hurt me by conversation inappropriate, and so on and so forth. I think making things work out for me in life, could make me a great role model and source of inspiration, without mixing us all up, connecting us, forgetting Im alive, and Im misunderstanding who is taking care of whom in life, Im 39, Im old enough to take on the responsibility of making sure no one else is hurt like me, and not call attention to an issue lightly, which I was treated for and punished based on the conditions caused as a result of embarrassment and humiliation, and Im not willing to get stuck again and be hurt its time to move on and either everything s big deal or nothings a big deal Im not society, Im connected to an actual case, so no one will ever quite understand whats complicated about my life, and Im sure Im not out here a bad example of anything human, female, or public figure accepted. Sometimes its about who I was on mymollydoll.com compare me to a different website name, its not that I have changed, it’s the onset of “voices” which is in my control to prevent, Im doing my best to go through life, not blame anyone, not misspeak or misinform, be honest and never lie, and that’s all I can ask for is to not be bullied, on any basis for anything that I say, to not accuse me of having a disease or being in poor health, to not view mental health as contagious, and to not misinterpret writing and working toward solution as illness, for every issue there will be an uphill climb, whether its an ssue affecting women, or men, and to me being a hero is making that’s climb.

Removed republished 10-08-24