I’ve been helped so many times sickness suicide prevented help came to my apartment I’ve made a choice to seek treatment I’ve been forced to stay by ER I’ve been sent home and it’s clear if I’m being punished not believed watched hacked witnessed seen change worsen a website not in control of what others think changes my life my value or goals or life working or difficulty accuse me self harm or being at fault or not care what comes out of me or care for my photos or presentation or improvement life goes on I did my best I’m not mentally ill or delusional I can’t explain court I’m not submitting anything anymore I don’t have to write online I don’t need to lose data I don’t need to be punished force me to handle difficulty or an emergency or writing peacefully hack download know who’s hurt me not care how I’m reminded of mymollydollfan.com I don’t need to move on I don’t need to talk to anyone email make fun of phone calls threaten me punish me cut dysfunction or use of alcohol as handling a difficulty you accuse me of not fighting voices continue to make of issue what my vagina looks like or what’s offensive about me show everyone take risk of offended people in the end if it’s not a big deal how I’m hurt or who that helps or what court is for I’m not living life stupid moving on okay able or can stay well by dislike or use medical records or representation of self belief in myself take for granted who is special or doing well isn’t about making me unstable taking meds away abiding by no contact quitting court attending or not or ER or looking bad I’m not mentally ill if that’s what people think causes mental illness disabling me pushing me ignoring me using Judge job email death life skills question my innocence well being worth it or not ….. isn’t about how many people recover are forgiven follow 12 steps and speak in public now doesn’t mean I’m places I don’t belong too good for make jokes about everyone nice or what my reality is …. If you want me to lose make fun of texts or vulnerability or why I’m in treatment I don’t have anger resentment detective resentful offensive undeserving guilty reminded use my story or names to accuse me of misconduct I can’t chances of everyone hates me thinks I’m sick so be it then that’s what court means if no one respects me then I won’t be able to do anything not respected it’s not about no one trusting me using my life to hurt me change me that is telling of who I am or what’s permanent it’s not about using my story or life period is not okay if nothings good enough you can delete and destroy everything leave me with nothing make court about whatever it means let everyone’s peace be something excluded from not accuse life of being a game you accuse me of not being innocent or need help from a DA keep making me sick if no one’s looking at me no one cares if I’m sick no one reads my blog no one values world peace no none knows why everyone left keep making fun of no none helping me I’m doing my best not calling 911 not submitting anything to court not calling the police not bothering courts or use emails reserve the right to manage difficulty on my own consider my losses in every way anyone decided to reject me accuse me of illness hurtful terms make fun of who I am make fun of everyone’s abilities accuse me of fake disability or hurt make fun of losing care dysfunction how an emergency is handled by investigators or DA without continuing to make fun of me not helping me ignoring me preferring to help those you think I’ve harmed ….. I don’t need to win or lose or be subjected by court for all the ways you tell me I’m not good enough push me beyond reason disbelieve disability there’s no solution for this person hurting me or voices or problem court can fix making everyone see my vagina I’m the end it’s not me who’s stupid can’t move on lying or mean it’s in every way I work hard and being told what’s causing me mental illness making fun of medical care or things one been told concerned for a solution not existing by me losing or being bullied or be attacked isn’t doing a justice to ask to see my vagina get what you want be hurt in private not save hurtful website on my phone ….. see a copy injure me I haven’t forgotten what was left up for a year faced difficulty taking down and I’ve not misinterpreted how my health affects others or have given up in places I get well or get sick again use issue being something wrong with me, in the end I can’t keep up or prevent him hurting me, I give up given difficulty made fun of …. While he keeps contacting me being nice expect anyone to support me be on my side in the end it’s my story communications history of self harm ….. I wasn’t mentally ill rejected get a single issue wrong prevention concern wise Stormy wise give up set up jailed teamed up on question life or anyone’s punishment as the people having a power to make decisions give up on people ever think I’m special immune got anything wrong diplomacy wise or by Google photos mistaken whatever the issue is 39 years of life honesty medical records saying waiting reconnecting or adjusting to meds meant anything or a difficulty or disappointment anyone decides to misinterpret parental preferences or not having sex as a preservation waiting picked joke that anyone decides what’s wrong with me when. It’s not a lot everyone living normal or being subjected to a difficult life no one respects protects believes helps gets hurt mistreat me as having a mental health condition I can’t manage on my own ….. if someone is hurting me online threatens court accuses me of disease doesn’t care who’s offended or sensitive to the issues ….. I did my best he wouldn’t stop kept disabling me comparing me watching him be nice able organized outline proper and for whatever reason kept calling my writing sick …. I’m not imagining life or voices or a sickness accepted not a big deal or hard on me my fault take personally anything …..