What Ive learned from all of this is that my limits, my mental health, my feelings, my privacy, my right to do well function have a clear mind be functioning and working hard, getting work ready be employable, isn’t a type of life that I would call a threat to anyone else livelihood. I think everyone is entitled to think whatever they want to think, Im sad that based on who I am issues have elevated from being left alone, overcoming voices, to be threatened by what other people think and get voices again, and I couldnt be more open over the past 12 years working hard to be a writer and graduate and get a job, its unfortunate to be threatened on this level, have my life ruined and lose everything, to what this person says about me, including respect from others. When I sense a bad attitude toward me, or chaos, or voices, or any level of hate, the first response would be to descalate the issues, I think fighting back being equally inconsiderate of his health or feelings, making fun of his death threats to blurt out not caring what happens to him, goes against who I am as a person, what Ive survived, how hard Ive worked, how many times Ive been endangered or faced life threatening conditions or heart complications, and do my best. I think when someone thinks your wrong, or calls you “killer” or “racist” he forgets that Im Jewish that he’s making fun of me doesn’t respect that Im insulted by asking for photos of my vagina, and doesn’t comprehend how that’s hurtful to me, doesn’t matter who the guy is, Im not racist, I used to date African American men, basketball players, therefore Im not racist, so he’s lying, and bringing up an issue that Im not faced with any anger or hate toward anyone. Ive been considerate of everyone, helpful concerning my story, I don’t think its okay to raise issues and elevate feelings, and stir emotions on a level to create a chaos or anger toward me, like anyones unfortunate compared to me, I think everyone is taken care of entitled to feel cool be apart of follow film or music and read the news, and that’s about it, including politics, I don’t think any one story especially mine as having lived alone since 2004, deserve to be criticized for disability or medication changes sobriety or my work history, no one is entitled to criticize me, Im no place higher, Im no place socio economic wise or power wise, that situates me off any better than the next person, Im on my own, I have to report, Im kind enough to demonstrate how Im dealing with this issue in private, and do not wish to name names and play this game of winning and losing and broadcast things about me, trying to ruin my life. I didn’t hurt this person, this person goes nuts on me, Im a special person and everyone is given the same access to me to read online, I share the same information online as I do by email or messenger, and I don’t deserve to be exposed wrongfully accuse me of not telling the truth I have never lied, I regret fighting with these people and them making me look bad, I regret all the relationships Ive lost as a result of this person hurting me, and all the complications at work or after improving resulting from this person coming back into my life, trying to befriend me, be close to me, and ask for sex from me. I wish that people would just move on, maybe its not a big deal to see what he has written, and maybe you see me differently, or have anger toward me, but I don’t have to put up with voices or what people think, face threats, and reporting is how Im getting help, so I don’t have to fight with this person, don’t have to fight with voices, and can be left alone, and not bothered in life, improve.

Everyone wants love.

Everyone doesnt want to be bothered.

People want to live free of harrassment.

Bullying is not acceptable or hacking or voices.

What people think matters can affect your health.

Everyone wants to be included and be informed.

People dont want to take sides and dont see things as a big deal.

No one takes responsibility for the harm that they’ve caused.

People want permission to be tough and feel however they want to feel.