I’m doing my best to minimize complication and prevent voices allow for peace not be disturbed or disturb or bother anyone else’s peace or permissions outlook and happiness in life apart of known in communication communicating to me to the world at large I have to stay strong on my own and work hard for however long it takes to fix my image my reputation and website and ability to write and be helped protected by Texas Investigators not be disrespected for what I sound like or how I’m losing or who I’m losing to at this point I’m doing my best I can’t control what everyone wants or needs to hear taking for granted if I’m famous is no one’s right to use the Press or Star Magazine methodologies to spread rumor or by way of voices spread rumor through me by use of terms seek to permanently damage my innocence my life my ability to live life free of harm stay positive be taken seriously not constantly insulted given a hard time for unknown bases suddenly not be okay with me based on getting sick not accept being alone or expect it to not be a big deal exposed hated online it is harmful to my health and I’m sorry that it can’t explain for losses in terms of One Direction and I’m sorry if you are judging my story as false or defective don’t consider me a good person or reliable source person in life have in whatever way you sought to judge me undermine my last 12 years or respect my wellness concerns as valid to not just my health but now we see in terms of everyone’s health who expect to know everything be given all freedoms non judgment acceptance not over analyze my value or insult my writing or mental health as too defective to connect or be loved maybe who I am is challenging and requires a lot of hard work not based on what I say wrong but based on what everyone wants or expects to be okay not consider me someone making things not okay or not secure about life wisdom timing etc life is short I can’t afford to lose my life over marriage and property jokes and consider arguments or breakups as fuel to any additional trauma or excise difficult caused by someone to mean something’s wrong with me in common to excuse anger toward me makes it unsafe to blog or discuss mental health requires writing breaks there is no clear solution for why he can say anything and everyone has an issue with me expect me to have a solution for any decision to end my life remove me to tell everyone what’s wrong with me isnt a justified solution by any side humanly possible created known or unknown I think a justice can only be served by working hard to undo the harm not get voices lose 50 lbs not waste time or meds on writing accusing me of giving up or not able to endure difficulty or not knowing what what to do like everyone else starting with nothing. Is however long it will take to deserve to live a normal life finish court is whenever it’s possible to work again communicate or move forward in life.