Nothing justifies breaking my hand doesn’t mean anything wrong to destroy my ability to write injure my ability to hand write make fun of journaling processing or fixing myself. Maybe I can’t get over all the ways I was punished worked hard to be in public took seriously rejections told the police of issues work toward not being given a hard time instead you used shouting head size or face body type or leggings story presence or focus to excuse being shouted at and make fun of my face doesn’t mean I deserve it or have a history of not being good enough anyone decides to document punish me for I haven’t forgotten difficulties or being told no or no one knowing me I haven’t been given hard time then do well to destroy my reputation and not care if given a hard time again doesn’t mean I’m not cool shouted at headphones friendly a world peace show of communicating to me instead made fun of me issue sexuality resume period ….. I don’t have to help be involved in politics be rejected told I’m nobody or taken off meds to be disabled like being too late not going to make it will get mental illness am sick lose support mean I’m having a difficulty can’t be helped I think I’m honest I don’t try to win or be supported isn’t a game ….. I’m going to stay well everyone hating me shouting at me getting voices disconnected losing hate website in whatever way for however long until voices let up accept my losses hard work writing lose value ….