It’s clear I have mental health issues that are my fault not met with sensitivity used as examples to punish me continue to punish me and misjudge continued hospitalization as doing my best taking meds not on drugs working in my masters in law getting jobs working my way up in a profession that clearly requires something of me I should be fit for not punish me view meds or shots as not a solution for anything wrong with me, I think non acceptance for moments not well being my fault doesn’t mean I’m not cared for or don’t have friends checked on loved undeserving of love inappropriate guilty or unfit for sex decide to make fun of my entire life as something it’s not photo offensive makes losing a phone or photos a joke accuse me of not being respect or viewed as smart, you do your best and stay home making fun of my experiences in life and constant punishment of me ridicule of me use examples from life of men’s observations as me as ways I should be harmed made aware or in a state or disposition or insensitive to losses guilty as to Sarah Tammasabi’s death friended by a mutual friend who I didn’t hook up with made fun of me called me a weirdo groped me and continue to make fun of me accuse me of cheating or unfair or not nice to others in the end if you don’t believe anything I say don’t care about any year in life don’t believe anything serves as a positive reminder of who I am as a person not accuse me of being trash or in a gang or blame me for a Rainbow room shooting or in charge of picking which location maybe those are examples of not being harmed that suffice my value or what I’m punished for period is no one’s fault whatever the reason is I have my path in life did my best and there’s no story argument drink crying or “rejection” occurring texting with someone who’s invited me out but not been well enough to meet up mean I’m offensive not focused on cspan sober learning politics in a place anyone continues to use quotes said by others or places in life of improvement or housing arrangements or make fun of my legal education not able to get cocaine I tried to was not able to stay well was too hectic I did my best up all night not accuse my door of being knocked mean I’m scared of my own neighbors have unwanted guests caught with someone entering my apartment ways I don’t belong or do cocaine or lose money get a refund get tired dont drive ways to make me uncool accuse me of being an idiot offensive with a make believe struggle asking for attention someone who is a fuck up or someone who doesn’t drink or do drugs punished as not sober or mentally ill in public ….. I’m sorry at no time I was allowed to be around people can stay home for the rest of my life that’s not how you tell me I’m unfit to be our make fun of what I sound like I’m not alive mentally ill disturbing have a problem and hat making fun of me storming into a room and crying consoled makes bullying minor intimidations in life you ever expect me to handle in the end it will never matter who I was or what I leaned I survived or how I helped Barack Obama continuing to make fun of me or my sexuality or continue to broadcast websites make fun of accidental overdose on diet pills a suicide attempt or call to 911 a reversible harm to myself it’s maybe unclear what I’m for waiting for or for how long unstable but I was nice to everyone social made an effort to be accepted belong and sad fighting prevention wasn’t respected so I’m in a place no one can help me and you made me look stupid and everyone look stupid accuse anyone as mislead listen ITS MY FUCKING LIFE and my leadership responsibility level of good years ability job place in life to need no one start over if I have to not run around offensive not good enough living an easy life or drinking in avoidance of continuing to cause me illness make fun of calling me pervert sick ass pervert force and permanent damage or public knowledge of me as being something resulting in some permanent damage you accuse me of not being smart enough to overcome accept about my love or how my sexuality been damaged privacy invaded lose count of how many times I was made to punch my head make fun of meds discredit solution found be about how justice is served in the end I did so much work it’s way too late to bring up voices or what everything means it’s whatever is meaningful to whoever or symbolizes a courage or representation relevant to heroism cause use of patriotism not continue to accuse me of delusion dishonesty mental illness guilt or disability I’ve not worked hard been pushed in a way to help me overcome challenges in life isn’t how I’m helped punished losing make e the challenges in whatever way I spoke not good enough I’m sorry in whatever way I opened up hacked I’m sorry for instability in whatever way I’m declared “mentally ill” or stupid or publicize terms over and over again then accuse me of being disobedient not work independently it’s not one’s job to help me I’m sorry I provided advocacy for mental health issues none of my quotes valued I’m sorry for every difficulty of endure trying to help I continue to be frozen made unsure get voices am too late miss an issue decide to make me uncool or unfit for attendance maladjusted is an insight I credited the judge to observing and not doing a justice to the people to be anywhere period or attend therapy or helped by an investigator I get that I’m too late however I’m hurt is my fault however I’m stupid is my fault no one cares about self harm or 2017-2024 I continue to be scared to death lose everything and made fun of being alone having no buddy system to deal with voices and to lose the only person who responded to me who’s become an example of anger that’s my fault or solution sought not be accused of having no future or solution giving work working in public making life difficult in every way possible I’m writing to address what’s gone wrong until I’m allowed to move forward and it’s too late to bother anyone normalcy is a place that exists among those privilege and not give me a hard life accuse me of not being supportive or suffering alone make anything not a big deal it’s not about how long I’m shocked it’s intense unstable when during which months am I minimizing being on my own committing suicide something I should explain or a way I’ve hurt myself that’s not one’s fault but my own I’m the end maybe it’s best to be alone and focus on my life fix myself do my best to night ruin my life do my best to work honestly not get hurt disbelieved with preference for whoever you don’t believe to be harmful aren’t imagined issues or shared emails ignored a failed attempt at solution or make fun of my disposition compare me to mass shooters no better a human being capable of demonstrating a quality of life or outlook not triggering upsets … in whatever way I’m helped accept it’s too late for anyone to care or be blamed make things about everyone’s else make fun of me or what’s my fault I think if I work hard I’ll stay alive I think if I can work on not talking to anyone and not sound stupid be blamed maybe I’ll be viewed as considerate as someone who gets voices was nice to everyone it’s hard to lose on unforeseen issues accuse me of mental illness in public again it’s not about me being mentally ill or what contact is offensive or which boyfriend public appearance means I’m offended or racist assertive at fault misspeak …. I will even be anywhere in life or have a purpose to be alive proving I’m controlling mentally I’ll or in controlled fault ugly mean not pretty hurtful or weird lol ALWAYS BE MY FAULT THERE WILL ALWAYS BE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME that’s no one’s fault and there’s no solution for something difficult I’m going through of burden or let down worrisome to anyone else following I’m working so hard to figure out what’s wrong made fun of on my own in the end if I’m alive instead of disbelief in courts or false belief in voices don’t accuse my leadership my presence my issues my cares my non violative my heritage my independent hard work and acceptance for rejection or make fun of being solution as a solution it’s not about my attitude everyone leaves can’t handle easy to identify I’m gone offensive broadcast my instagram “how is an epithet” made torture me continuing to call me names make fun delays it’s not clear what’s wrong if the issue is about declaring mentally ill not allow me to write recover get well I’m not falsely reporting hurt coming forward in some imagined dilemma you call adderrall causing problems hurt line anyone should know or care. It’s no one’s job to help me it’s everyone’s right to be well it’s no one’s job to read my work there’s no acceptance for voices or diagnosis on any level no one is writing positively about me keep using disability dysfunction meds as excuse. If it’s too late due court or to be helped it’s no one’s problem why I look stupid or what happened to my blog make fun of not writing or explanations …. I need to be alone form doing my best I get the point the point it’s clear effort to make clear what my issues are or what’s my job to figure out shouldn’t bother or reassure everyone I at least photo attended AA messaged for sober went to therapy talked to people or will never be good enough for anyone’s standards and that’s okay that’s their health faith and level of support: