Due to worsening symptoms I’ve started to send comment replies to who made the fan site and have decided to discontinue contact with everyone including informed the Marina del Rey Sheriff of my worsening condition due to voices or dislike toward content or how I’ve addressed being hurt or protected others from harm not fought prosecuted ignored blocked for how I’ve been hurt and continue to work toward solution not ruin my life or let myself be hurt do my best to handle difficulty on my own not bother anyone discontinue contact is the best way to figure out a solution for being hurt and do my best to prevent myself from being hurt or be accused of hurting anyone period or offensive or inappropriate not respect my right to be alone or be helped.

Removed email reply based on negative feedback and misunderstanding …..

Things are not going well for me in terms of voices bullying and punishment and nothing 911 or hospital or police can help me with being given a hard time and can’t prove who’s hacking or hurting me I’m sure is not understanding how his website hurts me to check or by not checking allowed one good day and sick again as a result of several failed discussions of voices and concerns regarding hurt or hurting me and others being hurt discussion of my sobriety relapse history of addiction cocaine use rehabs treatments medical history threats, attorneys hired I’ve discontinued talking to or discussion of court criticized for not submitting my problems to court for my case or questioned for the purpose in calling Texas without seeing the value in me not being hurt, voices went ahead and hurt me and made fun of my comment “being hurt and not who by” continue to make fun of meds or battling something that doesn’t exist voices I’ve described or been accused of sickness or bullied and which has not stopped and cannot be proven that self harm, job loss, hospitalization, report, letter, email, or writing or harm is good enough to stop hurting me based on diagnosis. The issue is how am I being hurt or how am I managing threats or who I report to making fun of how solution is found or prevented unclear on how isolating me using his hurtful terms and saying those terms to hurt me is anything I should write about report or be punished for. I did my best to help everyone it’s clear my time spent emailing you or sharing contact with an official in Texas is not respected as solution or discontinued contact with someone who’s fan site is hurting me along with voices and being criticized for describing you as a “new person in my life” based on voices and what I’m called it’s not safe for me to talk to anyone date or like hire an attorney be helped represented listen to music or contact anyone period if it’s something used to attack me, I think the solution is being alone and preventing myself from being harmed by a website or anyone using a website to hurt me and defend him or accuse me of speaking poorly of anyone I think I’ve done my best to share equally to everyone online and it will not be an easy life ridiculed no matter what my story is or try to be helped by you or work a job so long as I’m attacked or my writing is used to fight me and attack me or send me to the hospital there is no solution for being treated as offensive or mentally ill. I’m doing my best to respond to this person in comments after already being tortured and tormented by voices to accuse me of mental illness making fun of why I don’t model or discontinue hooking up or contact with men based on photos then made public and hurt me unclear of what’s a big deal or how I’m being injured or punished has prompted me to start writing to LADA to discuss my story in detail and figure out why I’m being harassed or given a hard time or it being unclear who I am or what I mean by “prevention” and “responsibility” and I’m sorry I don’t have a solution for making fun of my communications to you or being criticized for my views on mass shootings school shootings bullying causes public speaking jobs or blogging and I’m sorry that voices don’t accept any report to you writing or past writing or why no one can accept how court is going or knows why I’ve been sued or why my life or mental health is getting worse and that’s not something court can solve or a therapist or meds or police or 911 can solve or a new job and have a feeling I’m being fought based on being Jewish or Filipino or overweight blamed being made to had serious issues without help and for there to be no solution as to why I would be hurt by a website not taken down or a persons comment I reply to by voices that can’t be proven that a therapist can’t solve or why should my progress be destroyed with preference for disability not allow me to work and move forward in life be at peace alone or discontinue talking to everyone period. Make fun of every conversation story interaction AA meeting or be accused of lying I’m not trying to interpret anyone else’s peace or anger or preferences or making a big deal of how I’m cared for and voices don’t mean it’s time to complain or be made fun of for all the ways I’ve been hurt and it won’t stop overcome hitting my head or few incidents bullying shouted at and hospitalized there is no solution for being alive period if they think I’m alive or don’t deserve to be alive or accuse me of being offensive so long as they make fun of 12 years of life and don’t believe a website is hurtful keep hurting me and can’t prove it, there’s no solution for being in court or any reports made by me sufficient to solve anything including angry voices toward me hurting me is something I need to figure out on my own not talk to anyone and take seriously why am I being fought or bullied what am I being beat up for why should I suffer think about who’s been hurt including me reflect on my own life and advocacy, think about why am I not allowed to be helped by you and why are voices not at peace with me contacting Texas, I wish voices could accept that if I’m too late and can’t fix a low opinion of me that a bad website reinforces or called offensive then the solution is not talking to anyone until I figure out my own story what my problems are how have I worked hard throughout my life and prevent not take chances. I think the more they call me pervert the more I need to stay away from everyone including you, I don’t think anyone is accepting of any lawsuit period or who I am or respects my mental health or knows what the issues are no one talking to me or talking to my mom simply means to be someone in life who can be supported and live a life that’s normal I think twice I tried to write inspite of punishment and nothing about my story was accepted as honest and difficult and because I described opening up twice by messenger and being sued and having not told my story yet in AA, already being given a hard time accused of withholding or not telling me story or using parts of my story to accuse me of being a reject or delusional or believing in things that don’t exist or making fun of my system of wellness or inconsiderate of discontinued emails or messages or emails to you based on who I am or who is victim not accept of I’m victimized or accuse me of hurting him is nothing I can argue or worth fighting including being called pervert I’ve been through a lot not even a picture with OJ can solve who’s offended by me asking “why are voices so casual with me beating me up calling me pervert” it’s unclear what the lesson is or what justice is being served by: failing, losing, being alone, called a liar, make fun of my story, make fun of lawsuits, called pervert, pedophile, isolated, not allowed to talk to anyone or discontinue emails or treatment sobriety blogging take breaks lose weight or get a job if I haven’t said it yet what people thinks matter so if that’s the focus dislike then I’ll have nothing disabled if I can stay well get to fix my life in time be credited for emailed disclosures then maybe I’ll be able to keep a job that suddenly push for hospitalization is putting me in a place difficult no one else is in, put me in a place in life information wise or symptom wise doesn’t exist, it’s reading into my life as being punished or proven wrong for what I’ve done wrong and consider me disrupting a peace achieved in tormenting me or making fun of what court is for or my blog post email discouraging hurting people outside of court, it’s no religion or war affirming everything is about me or accuse me of not being world peace or a let down or a person who’s life is or is not working out or tweets or opinions or stories are unhelpful or not punished. Make fun of me as stupid or wrongfully accused I’m not fighting anyone period everyone’s been through a lot and instead of accepting I’m on meds they couldn’t get over a conversation in the car with my mom on expectations for dating (knowing I’m 200 lbs and look different) decide to put me through a lot not be helped or except me to live a life in dislike constantly offended hating or angry at anything I say and to add fuel to the fire be unclear on sobriety working hard off meds or causes for drinking “not fighting voices calling me pervert to not write” if I’m not on bumble it’s not because I look weird or it’s my fault or unfit or in a job that makes me think it’s okay to date period make fun of talking to any men period means it will never be a good time to talk to anyone if this is how hard my life should be then I don’t need anyone’s help or criticism of any report or discussion of crime or advocacy I’m not lying to you I’m not victimizing you I’m not posting online showing an email or names have a poor sense of humor or not accepting of a way in which life should or should not be made to include me or exclude me, all I said is getting voices or the Judge accusing me of victimizing Todd who I loved and improved and worked hard to be able to work is not a disclosure that means it’s okay to label me an offender or expect me to talk to anyone for the rest of my life why should I talk to anyone or appear in court or have attorneys of everything’s a joke about whether I’m hurt or what life should be like everyone thinks I’m stupid or mean or a loser or a pervert or angry at me how am I supposed to stay alive or sound if I’m not allowed to talk to anyone and any moment of peace is called delusion I didn’t say I’ve done my best threaten anyone or lose controlled by negativity considers my fault or failure considered my fault. Why was getting a job offensive or being allowed to message after the ER the attorney general not punishing me come to mean something wrong with me or continue to use voices to separate me from others or be an imagined force or people representing a cause of hurt that won’t stop that no investigator or hospital can solve, means I’m doing my best if I’m given a hard time I know my entire life should stay alive and by experience not cause me disability or difficulty to worry or bother anyone be an unwanted consequence of something that doesn’t exist not the intent of anyone living free of harassment or negative terms not in court in the end I did my best to work hard be fair get jobs protective of others honest was deserving of privileged and in many ways confronted and made fun of for being sued In the end I’m not having fun telling a story that doesn’t work or don’t belong not proud or represent who I consider family and likewise should not be hurt or called negative terms and it’s not okay to continue to get sick or not blog as solution making anyone else concerned about stuff conform I’m nobody or somebody or what rumor is spread in the end I’m in control of my truth and if it’s not safe to talk to anyone then that’s not the solution for figuring out harm keep thinking something should be wrong with me compare me or expect me to be helped it’s clear I’m being hurt in a way to not be helped by anyone and fit no solution to be found in calling me pervert or loser or offender and I’m sorry disclosing what I was called has not brought peace to who’s hurting me or hurting me in support of who’s hurting I think the best way to solve any crime prevention or responsibility is not about accusing me of hiding or quitting would be to send me to court not make fun of phone calls timelines or what’s in my story make fun of causes or make fun of me being hurt like it’s no big deal or accuse me of hurting anyone period or not being strong …..