Things were getting better until it became unclear if I’m sick or not offensive or not or who hurt who I think I did my best got hurt things got better given chances court was going well supported and encouraged by many will continue to accept losing badly when fought, or looking bad compared to others is not my speciality to look good or a game I should lose look bad not someone living life as I am either respected for handling crisis in private be credited for visiting the police station to state a concern I was put on a psychiatric hold for his concern after punching my head driving to the station is a good example of concern not hurting someone who sounds fine well spoken doesn’t have mental health issues or disability someone who made a fan site or be punished for getting hurt or say is my fault whatever the philosophy is on peace matching love or who you are connected to made to look bad on the exact subject he brought up be made to look like I don’t care or excuse being hurt on a level I’m injured and say is my fault or made him look bad or gave him disease I think I did my best lived a good life it’s a very serious accusation to say seeing me wasn’t real or accuse me of not having lived life well enough that my disability is forgotten or time on meds with different doctors is something I went through not my fault, if I shared the diagnosis and reported getting voices hitting my head and no good photos shared only bad photos then that was a conversation with FBI not an introduction to life as a reflection in connection to whom your talking to decide to discredit what I look like or someone not special I think is the idea behind me being alone or made fun of called terms can’t be prevented by public disclosure of who I am can’t prevent voices but can make clear how I’m being hurt and compared or injured then accuse me of being too sick to be social would not be a good time to be liked or have friends when your made to look bad or suffer from negative terms or court I think being hurt and it being my fault or disconnected illustrates how difficult it is to stay well viewed negatively whether everyone sees or just people on my phone or an investigator is a problem not an emergency shared that reflects conversations private it’s about why Im too late or why no requests provided for were good enough to take down a website, so having improved with it down its unclear how Im hurt with it up or whats difficult (imagined dislike looking bad and hurtful terms) a display in which none of my concerns or privacy respected and figure out how the fan site got worse, reflect on whats hurtful, respect working hard showing myself upset it was left up then taken down not accuse me of rejecting anyone or not recognize peace or value not be concerned if I get sick and look bad or not find solution in him being well not punished me given a hard time for struggling with bullying and be punished or fought or not do well based on court. I think I worked hard to get to talk to people if I get hurt learn to deal with being fought or getting hurt in a way do a better job of being strong and stay well, continue to figure out dislike or what on my instagram isn’t valued content wise about me that hurts me or anyone made known not continue to get hurt and see the solution as being to let everyone be well move on not be affected not get sick be someone who works hard and continues to prove I’m a good person and do a better job of figuring out how I look bad and not forget how I’m punished not live disabled or make fun of what I sound like pushed sober and off meds or tired. I think the biggest lesson I learned about court is figuring out how many problems unstable I have and how much of what I’m going through can’t be helped not forget a good day a return to normalcy be in a place that can be replied to, not be punished. If doing well or appearing well were requirements for dismissal I’m sure whatever I’m going through in life or what’s been said in court or submitted I have to accept as being a discussion that occurs without me, do a better job of not talking to anyone or worry anyone online let everyone be happy protected having survived the majority of life’s battles it’s not necessary for anyone I get the issue to care for someone your told to not care about see poorly, I hope improving making an effort isn’t what I’m punished for or use anyone or any place in life as unshared space consider my work online or instagram as working through my issues without making my life worse get it over being hurt by someone no one sees as hurtful not get fought try to reply to someone commenting if voices are getting worse or no correspondence is good enough figure out the upset and not lose in life get disabled or sick for not trying hard enough fix my writing, not give up on court.